Nothing's Gonna Change my World

Chapter One

The engine slowly called to her as she sat in the drivers seat. If she started to drive she knew that it was real, that it wasn't just a bad dream, that she wouldn't wake up in the warmth of her bed. But in her heart she already knew this wasn't a dream, it was a real nightmare, the kind that would wake you up panting and sweating but in this nightmare, she didn't wake up, she just lived it. The song from the radio filled her mind and all she wanted to do was shut it off, to make everything around her go away, to just let her be in peace.

I always needed time on my own.

I never thought I'd need you there when I cried.

As if on cue, Kate began to cry, her head in her hands and her elbows using her knees as a table. She remembered moments when he would wrap his arms around her, hold her as she sobbed, let her feel safe, and now she had no one. Nothing to calm her and tell her that everything was alright, and all because she wouldn't listen, she let her pride overpower her heart and now, she was alone. Her eyes met with the clock over the radion and she sighed as she finally placed her foot on the gas and pulled out of the driveway.

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lied, it's made up on your side.

When you walk away I count the steps that you take.

Do you see how much I need you right now?

Red, the traffice light changed from the bright yellow to red just as she pulled up. She couldn't help but close her eyes for a moment to stop the steady flow of tears that continued to fall, she had to stop crying, she had to try and live. But she knew that it would never be the same, she would never have that same feeling looking into someone else's eyes as she did when she looked into his. She would never be able to smile at someone else the same way she smiled at him. It wouldn't be the same, no matter what, and she knew that she would always end up alone.

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart I'm missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too.

When you're gone

All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it okay

I miss you.

"Damnit." Kate changed the station to find commericals, put the song continued to play. She looked up to the now green light and sighed as she continued on her way. The clock seemed to stay at the same time and she sighed, she was hours early and all she wanted to do was go back and find him there, sitting on the couch smiling towards, but she knew she wouldn't so she drove to the coffee shop, the coffee shop they would meet at, and sat at the table in the far back.

Past

The bell over her head rung and she smiled as she saw the tall, stubbled man in the back bring his head up and smile as he saw her. She slowly walked over to the table that he was sitting at and sat across from him. The coffee that he had ordered for them, the same coffee they got everytime they met here, came in silence and the two slowly sipped the drink. For some reason today was uncomfortable sitting across from him, the fact that they last time they had seen each other was the night before when she left his apartment to return to her apartment she shared with Sawyer. When she was about to speak she smiled to find him looking down at his coffee and softly singing to himself.

Hey Jude.

Don't make it bad.

Take a sad song and make it better.

Remember to let her into your home

then you can start to make it better.

Kate laughed as he looked up and quickly looked away from her. "You heard that huh?" She nodded and her nervously laughed under his breath. "It's just, it's been one of my favorites since I was a kid. I used to wish my name was Jude. Have you ever heard the story of Hey Jude?" When Kate shook her head he continued on. "Well, when Julian Lennon was younger he went to the studio and John yelled at him, telling him to go home. Paul McCartney went home that night and wrote Hey Jude to cheer him up. So when I was younger I used to wish that someone would do something like that whenever my dad was disappointed in me." He finally brought his embrassed, brown eyes up to meet hers and they both smiled. The guilt that they had for the night before left and they only saw each other.

"I never pegged you as a Beatles kind of guy." She laughed as she slowly looked down to her watch. She sighed and stood up and walked closer to Jack kissing him lightly on the cheek. "I gotta go, same place tonight?" She asked with a smirk. He nodded and before he could say another word she was out the door and heading towards her car.

Present

The same table was the only one open and Kate reluctantly walked over and sat down, looking straight at the chair he had been sitting in. The same songs played everyday they were in there and once again The Beatles filled her ears. She tried to block it out but the song continued to play until she finally got up and left her half full coffee mug sitting on her table.