Okay so this is kinda crappy but I have had had it on my desktop forever and well I just decided to post it... please leave a review (a kind one) and sorry for all the spelling and grammar mistakes. There is not really a time line for this but I am thinking around A fine line between chuck and Nate. Enjoy
Not perfect enough she thinks, because she knows she's not, she is fat and ugly. No one wants her not he mother not Nate not her father not even Chuck. The one person who does want you are the one everyone wants you to be. Serena, too perfect with her long legs and blond shiny hair she sparkles is a way you never could the way Nate wanted her and how your mother whishes that she was her daughter. And then theirs Chuck, she hates the way his whores satisfy him is a way she never could and the way he left her and for everything she did for him, he didn't want her one bit, no one ever did. So for everything she is not Blair Waldorf sticks her finger down her thought hoping that this will make her enough.
You found the laying on the bathroom floor not even conscious. He knew what to do; he had done it so many times before, but every time it broke his heart. She was too strong to be this broken. They picked her up… because if there was one thing that would bring them together it's her. She is whom they all love even if they would never admit it, they are family. But that didn't stop them from commenting.
"This is disgusting" he sneered, because he was afraid they would realize that he was all too familiar with her situation. He was truly disgusted when they all stayed silent flushing the toilet and calling Dorota to mop up the floor. Serena said she would clean her off, you both helped.
He was shocked to find just how skinny she had become wasted away, nothing left but skin and bones, he voiced his thoughts and was once again met with silence, all to tired to disagree.
You were the only one to ever understand why she did this. The same reason why you would disappear and be so lost in drugs when you were in pain, because no paid it any attention. When she would sneak off to the bathroom no one ever spared her a seconded thought. Know looking around you could tell that they were regretting their behavior, but hell that's life. They made their bed and know they have to lie in it. You don't feel bad for them, simply because they always knew. She would sneak off to he bathroom after every meal it was hard to miss, but they were too caught up in each other and their own problems. Sometimes you would think that they were worse than Blair and her never-ending movie. But you really couldn't blame them for this. You always knew and you never helped her. You look down at the bed at which she is laying on and you cant help but pass all the blame on everyone but her, she is just too frail and delicate all broken and you feel guilty and you feel mad because no one would help her get over this. Serena looks at you and mistakes you look of "disgust" for pain, the blond touched your shoulder, "Hey you okay?" You look at her and wonder if she is the stupidest person in the planet. Nate is looking at you know too and he understands, "You already knew," it wasn't a question and for the love of God you couldn't understand how Nate could be both so perceptive and so clueless "clearly" you drawl because what else is there to say. The world is moving so fast you don't know how it got this way but you don't complain. You think Nate asks why but you just shrug because someone else has caught your attention and you know that you cant leave before she wakes up like usual because this time is going to be different, this time she will get help the help she needs, this time you will be their for her every steep of the way.
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