Oh yeah, I'm using two of my poems (which I can't upload here separately, a pain to change cause the poems' pages have black b/g and white font, cause I upload them to a site of my own ^^:;;; In case yer curious, my poetry and fic page's at http://www.crosswinds.net/~dragnier/index.html, k?) as well to mark his feelings in the beginning and end...the poem at the beginning, Fading Memories, and the poem at the end of this part, Love's Legacy, both still belong to me. Got that?
Gone With Thy Wind
A Morose Valentine's Day- Part 1
By Tiyanu
How I so hated my memories. My past...my present...and
what's a future? But...I have to accept they weren't all bleak...
Gone are the memories of our childhood
Long vanished in the winds of time
It is difficult to tell if I should
Know if any of them were worth a dime.
The visions be comforting
Yet viewed our immaturity
How we have changed over the years
Into triumph from obscurity
Have we retained any of our traits
That created us both
So that I am still me
And you are still you?
How can we tell
When we meet later in life
That I will recognize you
And you recognize me?
Have we changed too often
Too much, too little?
Enough change for a balance
Not confusing as a riddle?
I can only think
Of one fact that will stay true
That who I really love
Will eternally be you.
"Where's the next place, Genki?" the tiny pinkling
asked with enthusiasm.
"The locals said the next town of Evermeet's north...past
that mountain." The boy fingered toward the distant polar peak, beyond
the towering sea of trees.
"Here we go again..." sighed the gruff lupine, prepping
his ears for the usual call from the hyperactive child.
"Down with the baddies!"
"Chi!" chimed in Mocchi.
The usual traveling formation of the legendary Searchers
pushed onward; Genki and Mocchi taking point, the young protector of the
Magic Stone, Holly, beside the towering stone giant, Golem, as was the
pessimistic yet protective eyeball Suezo. The sly yet overconfident rabbit,
Hare, was bringing up the rear, while the usually fierce yet impulsive
Tiger remained along the perimiter of the formation, distant enough from
everyone else, but close enough as to maintain his aquatic blue eyes upon
everyone else and their actions, most of all, Hare.
"Hey, what's the day today?" Popped a random question
out of nowhere by Suezo.
"I think...Valentine's Day," responded Holly, before
the realization finally hit her.
Valentine's Day was the same day I met...her.
"What you get for Holly, chi?" whispered Mocchi to
Genki.
"Um..." The embarrassed kid blushed a deep crimson.
He completely forgot all about her present.
Coincidence, maybe. But the memory never fades...and never will...
"Oh Genki," she giggled, "I didn't know you cared for me that deeply..."
...and I miss her already. Has it really been over a year...? It was the same day I lost my brother...Why did I lost the both of them...
"Well, at least I got you something,"
quipped the chestnut-furred rabbit, and pulled out a box of chocolates
from, seemingly, out of nowhere. "For you, chere."
"Oh Hare," the girl blushed again in surprise.
"That was MY box of chocolates, Hare!" scolded Suezo.
"I was going to give that to her!"
"Suuure you did," Hare rolled his eyes in complete
sarcasm, not admitting that he really did pilfer the gift.
Maybe I should go visit the old haunt for awhile...it's not that far away from here...
"You saw it, Tiger! Didn't he snatch my box just
to make himself look good in front of Holly?!" Suezo turned to the blue
lupine, who was apparently lost in thought, as nary a sarcastic remark
sounded out of his mouth.
"...uh, Tiger?" Now Hare noticed the daydreaming
wolf, and thought quickly of how he would arouse the wolf from his stature.
"...Huh?" The lupine blinked open his eyes, and
noticed the entire formation staring at his peculiar silence. "What?"
Genki places his hands on his hips, looking skeptically
at the wolf. "You were spacing out for a minute. Something up?"
He simply shook his head despite their disbelief.
"No...it's nothing..."
At nightfall, the weary Searchers set up camp a little
ways off the main road. Night had quickly fallen as soon as the sun had
completed it journey to the western horizon. And in the usual, everyone
fell asleep instantly.
Well, not quite as fast for Tiger.
The icy-blue wolf trotted away from the still-crackling bonfire and tent. He slinked away slowly so as to not draw attention to himself. 'Not far from here,' his mind reminded him, 'just go in and go out...go in, and go out...'
After Tiger considered the distance between him and
the campsite was sufficient, he broke into a run, swiftly yet soundlessly
brushing through the undertow of the emerald grasses...
He slowed to a trot as he neared the sapphire lake
several steps ahead of him.
"Long time since we last met in our hiding place..."
the lupine muttered to himself. "It was as black as the infinity of space
at that time...We could view the stars and the moon no matter where we
lain our eyes at the sky. And..." He turned his head to the tiny isle at
the center of the vacant waters. A lone, topaz rose bloomed, basking in
the light of the glaring moon, as if thriving upon its vitality alone.
"I gave you the rose..."
It was quite fitting, he thought, because
after all, her name was after the flower...
We met a year ago in this exact place. It was our first date, so to speak...well, but under difference circumstances. My brother, Gray Wolf, and I were looking for a pack to join up; after repeated encounters with the humans, it was evident we couldn't survive with just the two of us.
"Rosa..."
We hid in the bushes observing you; we heard rumors
that your pack was one of the best in the continent, and we didn't want
to pass up this opportunity to join. You, alone, were gazing longingly
at the misty blue, never a thought or sense active in reality...or so we
thought.
But we were had. Unmistakeable growls of discontent
interrupted our careful plan of attack; we were the ones that took
the bait. Gray Wolf insisted he handle the incoming horde, while I would
combat the leader.
And whoever thought a girl like you could command
such impeccable strategic defenses like that?
My brother was doing well against the packs of
green and liliac lupines; whilst 'she' and I were trying to gain an edge
over each other. I was distracted; not because that your fighting style
was equal to mine, I couldn't hide this completely new emotion I was feeling
while watching your movements...it was...a new type of warmth, much like
I felt while I had my brother, but completely different. But it also...scared
me.
That was why I could never best you.
On the other side of the crystalline lake...
"Feels like that night all over again..."
A fiery lupine stood in reminiscence upon the edge of the still waters. Her eyes flared with an indistinguishable essence of flame, void of fear yet filled with a sense of melancholy. Emanating from her very soul, a vitality of defiance towards the philosophies of life and death itself, instead relying on the focus of the present, the one and only. A product of genetic mutation, inheriting features of her sub-class that was not normally possible, she kept constant warmth with the aid of her ruby dragon wings...a feature very unlike to most wolves. An emerald pendant hung from her neck, the only reminder of her now-extinct emotions of love and eternal bliss.
"Can't help it, though. After all, it's been only a year..."
...and my only year of pure bliss, at that.
Breathing a depressed sigh, she shook her head at the crystalline reflection of her visage, glimmering on the watery surface. The hybrid denied that she was ever beautiful to anyone's eyes, ever since her birth; after all, a winged lupine was never thought to become possible, at least naturally.
"So wherfore thee now, o wingless blue prince...?"
She chuckled a bit at the nickname she gave her mate; after all, she could
relate to her stubborness and impulsive behavior. "As I was back then...just
like you..." The fiery lupine gazed wistfully upon the lake, wonderning
of past and present, never a stray thought of the future ahead of her...
"I've no future without you, so what's the use of thinking about it...?"
Her eyes blinked at a dark shadow on the other side of the crystal surface
of the waters, in a shape clearly deceiving her mind, but betraying its
identity to her very core. Squinting her eyes for a closer perception of
the unknown, a gasp and a shriek sounded from the top of her lungs.
"What...? You...can't be...alive!"
"...Huh?" The icy lupine raised his head toward the faint outburst. "Hey! Who are you?!" He couldn't quite perceive the shadowy outline of the winged creature on the far side of the lake, but assumed quickly it was one of his most hated enemy's servants. Tiger swiftly dashed fast toward the supposed 'enemy', his paws never sinking below the rippled water...
"This is impossible! You can't be alive!", the hybrid kept telling to herself in her mind. But he was in right in front of her eyes; that she couldn't deny. "No...you're just a ghost...to haunt me! Begone!" With those final words breathed, she unfolded her wings and leapt onward to meet her adversary at the center of the water...
Both lupines leaped upward without a second thought,
and chanted their trademark attack, "TORPEDO!" Streaks of lightning lanced
out, but never struck their targets; the bolts clashed into a single
space together, which resulted in a blinding flash of light to illuminate
the area for miles. Passing each other in mid-air, they both gave slight
glances toward each other, each only intent on the fight and never on themselves.
The wolves landed on opposite sides of the disturbed lake, backs to each
other, and both sharing the same channel of thought. Why did we both
choose the same attack? It wasn't often two could counteract their
blows at the same moment of time. Neither made any motion toward each other;
they stood gaping each other at the full realization of their actions.
That pendant...and those wings...it's inconceivable!,
Tiger breathed in an inaudible whisper.
He...shares the same exact appearance...and that
scar... the scarlet wolf muttered in the same moment.
Denial of the recognition of the others raged in
their souls; it was impossible to cope with the new wave of emotions and
remain in a maintained train of thought for the both of the lupines. They
had long rejected each other upon separation; the truth in the past no
longer applied to the present. Now the only option they decided was to
lay rest to the past, once and for all..
Tiger rushed toward his winged enemy with incredible
speed, emotional strife and fury raging with each step his snowy paws took.
She moved in the same force of motion, this time
planning on a different tactical plan of attack.
"BLIZZARD!"
"FIRE!"
He brought forth ice...and she countered with her
flame. Both of their strikes dissipated in vain, and it seems every effort
that took to killing each other was highly for naught.
As their last desperate effort, they kept in constant
motion of their stride toward each other. Neither of them slowed, and impact
was imminent...the question was; who would be the one to dominate?
This is my last chance, Tiger thought in the fated moment. But why does this feel so similar...?
But that was a futile understatement, for
in the exact second this thought was created, he felt the crushing impact
of her tackle upon his skull. Resistance to unconsciousness was not an
option, as the blue lupine fell into it immediately.
He lost the battle, and at the same time, felt he
lost everything all over again. Before he was engulfed by the blackness
of sleep, his last thought was,
This is how you won my heart, Rosa, before it
was taken away.
Amidst the appealing fame
A feeling lies here the same
As yesterday, as last Monday
As last week, as the year of the beak.
There is an emotion long forgotten,
Long forsaken, long shunned
An emotion that penetrates the ecstasy,
The pride, the proud, and the content.
An emotion that pierced my will into two
An emotion that I can never destroy
Emotion, one that is sought and takes advantage
of the unconformity
Love.
I've attained everything, yet own nothing
I've infinite wisdom, yet crippling intelligence
I've perceived every bit of feeling except
for that one.
And I regret that I've this weakness today.
I thought I was invulnerable
To its piercing arrows of unmistakable truth,
To the full realization of the secret of life,
Until I found her.
Why did the answer stand in front of me?
Why did I not avert my gaze on that fated
day?
Why did I continue to stare, admire, gaze,
Why did I feel weakness to this one and only?
She was standing there,
And I was the only one that knew
And I was the only one that saw
The full comparison between me and her.
To me, I was nothing
To me, she was everything.
To me, she was the missing piece of the puzzle
Of the endless void that plagued my soul entity.
To me, this was my love's legacy
To me, it was a personal quest for eternity
For eternity never lasts forever
Only as long as the legacy's love travels
on.
To me, this would become the greatest challenge
To me, for me, to talk to her, and only to
her.
End of Part 1.