A/N: This was my first fan fic that I posted the beginning of this year. I am in the process of having it beta'd. Even if you have already read this please read it again and let me know what you think!

Jacob POV

When Edward Cullen left Forks and broke Bella's heart I hadn't phased yet. I had no idea that he was a vampire. For a long time, I wondered how Bella could take their break up so badly that it caused her to waste away. How could her love for him have been so strong she willed herself to die? Bella's reaction when Edward left wasn't normal and it scared me to witness it.

It wasn't until I became a werewolf and realized that all of the legends that I have grown up hearing were true that I understood the depth of what Bella had gone through. Bella had been pulled into a world that she shouldn't have known anything about and that bloodsucking prick left her on her own to struggle her way through it.

She didn't come to me back then because it was a secret that she couldn't share with anyone. After Bella realized I was a part of the supernatural world too, she still didn't talk to me about what she was going through because the Cullens were my mortal enemy, and she knew I couldn't understand how she could have ever loved a vampire in the first place.

Over the last six months, Bella and I had started hanging out. She had come over with two broken down motorcycles and asked if I could fix them. It was a challenge that I was willing to take on. Everyday that Bella came over was one of the best days of my life. Putting a smile on her face is what I lived for.

Slowly, she began to come back to life, and things started to go well. My feelings for Bella became stronger, and I never tried to hide the way I felt about her. At first she put up walls and kept me at a distance, but I never gave up on her. She needed to know that I thought she was worth fighting for.

Finally, my patience began to pay off. She began to let me into her heart. When we walked on the beach and I reached for her hand she stopped pulling away. When we sat together on the couch and I pulled her toward me and wrapped my arms around her, she let me.

When I told Bella that I loved her she didn't go rigid and say she didn't feel the same way. Instead, she said," I know you love me Jacob." Her response was disappointing but it still gave me a little hope. Then three days ago a series of events began that changed the course of our lives once again.

Bella decided to go cliff diving without me and almost drowned. I was so thankful that I got to her in time and she was still alive. If something would have happened to her then my life would have ended. My body felt numb when I pulled her out of the water and she wasn't breathing. I would have done CPR on her all night if that is what it would have taken to bring her back to me.

Harry Clearwater died of a heart attack. This was devastating to me because Harry was like a second father to me. He was loved by everyone on the reservation and the pain that the pack was going through because of our connection with Leah and Seth's thoughts were almost crippling.

The short black-haired leech came to see Bella. I wished I'd picked up the leech's scent before Bella had a chance to see the leech doctor's car. I would have driven away and Bella would be with me right now. I wasn't happy about the bloodsucker coming back to Forks, but she only came because she thought that Bella had committed suicide.

It made Bella happy that the leech was there but it made me furious. She had no right to try and come back into Bella's life. Of course I had to tell Sam. He sent me back to find out if any more of them were coming back and how long they would be there. He wanted me to inform her that while she or any Cullen was in Forks then Bella would have to go unprotected by us because of the treaty.

I explained to the bloodsucker about the red-headed leech and her eyes became wide. Since Bella spent all of her time with my werewolf friends and I Alice hadn't been able to see Bella in her visions. She had no idea about Victoria. I heard her mumble under her breath how stupid her brother was for leaving and all he had managed to do was create a bigger mess.

It was very difficult for the leech and I to be in the same room so she left to go stalk Bambi and have it for dinner. I followed Bella into the kitchen. Bella spun around and looked at me with a tired and weary expression.

"Let's just get this over with. Tell me how stupid I am for wanting to see Alice and not kicking her out of my house. Go ahead and look at me with the contempt and disgust that I know you are feeling right now toward me."

I had been shocked at her outburst and it broke my heart to see the raw pain that was in her eyes. I slowly walked toward Bella and I wrapped my arms around her waist.

"You don't disgust me. I don't hate you and you are not stupid. Bella, love doesn't have an on and off switch that you have control over. I love you enough to know and understand that it doesn't matter how much I may think spending time with Alice is a bad idea. You think her being here is something that you need to help you to continue to get better."

Bella started crying. Holding her close I bent my head down and kissed the top of her head and then her cheek. I leaned back and put my finger under her chin and lifted her head up to make her look at me. I wanted her to see the unconditional love in my eyes. I gently wiped away the tears that were falling down her cheeks with the back of my hand.

Our eyes locked, and slowly I leaned toward her. I decided that I was going to kiss her. I had to feel her soft lips on mine. Bella closed her eyes and leaned toward me. She was going to let me kiss her! Bella was allowing me to enter into her heart and nothing up until that moment had compared to what I felt inside. Bella had been close enough to me that I had felt her lips touch mine. Just when I had been about to have my moment in heaven the phone had rung...

Why had I answered the phone?

I wanted to phase, to run away and never come back. Bella was gone. After that phone call she went to Italy to save the stupid leech from killing himself. I'd begged and pleaded for her not to go, but she pulled away from me and said, "Even if he doesn't love me anymore, I can't let him die because of me." She ran to the leech's car waiting for her outside, got in and they drove away.

I sat in the kitchen for almost an hour, staring at the place where Bella and I almost had our first kiss. I thought about it over and over and over again. I got up and walked toward the phone that hung on the wall. I wanted to rip it out from the wall and turn it into dust. I paced back and forth running my hands through my hair and my mind screamed, "How could Bella do this to me? How could she turn her back on us and go back to him?"

A very small voice in the back of my mind came to the surface and said, "Because when Edward left, he took Bella's heart with him. She believes that without him, she has no life. Just like you know that without Bella, you won't live."

That wasn't what I wanted to hear. My body shook with pain and I cried when I realized that I'd lost Bella before she had a chance to truly be mine.

I thought about where she was going and there was a strong possibility that she wouldn't come back. Charlie would be devastated. He'd just lost his best friend and now he'd come home and find out that his daughter had run off with no clue when and if she would return.

I decided to cover for her and hoped that she made it back to Forks with a beating heart.

Charlie POV

This was one of the longest and hardest days I'd had to experience in a long time. I'd lost one of my closest friends today and was really hurting. All I wanted to do was go home and go to bed.

I pulled up into the driveway and noticed that the kitchen light was on so I knew that Bella was awake. As I opened the door and called out for Bella, I saw Jacob sitting in the kitchen with his arms folded across his chest and a blank expression on his face.

"Hey Jacob, where's Bella?"

Jacob looked around before he spoke with irritation in his voice.

"Bella left. Alice called and told her that Esme was in a horrible car accident and Alice was very upset. Of course Bella wanted to be there for the family. She was going to write you a note, but I promised her I would wait here for you so I could tell you in person. The Cullens are in Los Angeles and she'll stay long enough to make sure Esme will be okay and then she will come back home. Bella told me to tell you to please not worry about her and that she loves you very much."

Well that was a shock; the Cullens had been gone for six months. How could Alice have the nerve to call Bella for support when she left my daughter a broken mess? Bella's love for that Cullen boy had robbed her of all common sense and self respect.

We would have to have a serious talk when she got back. I looked at Jacob and thanked him for waiting around for me to get home and told him he was more than welcome to stay for as long as he wanted. I walked upstairs, collapsed on my bed and fell into a deep sleep.

Jacob POV

I can't believe I got away with that lie. Charlie was usually very perceptive so he must have been really out of it. I hurried up and left, just in case he decided to ask me more questions. I asked myself why I was doing this. My answer was because I loved Bella and believed there was still hope for us.

Once I reached the woods, I got undressed and phased. I ran back to the Rez to complete the rest of my made-up story. Once I reached my house, I phased back and got dressed.

I went to my room to get my cell phone and texted a message to Bella.

"Hope you live to read this message. Charlie thinks you're in LA with Alice. Call me for details. Jacob."

I closed my cell phone, fell back onto my bed and slipped into a dreamless sleep.

Please be as honest as possible when reviewing. I want everyone that reads this story to actually enjoy it. Thank you evilpumpkin and Pastiche. Lethe for helping beta. You had a lot of work on your hands. It was a very hot mess.

I look forward to posting the next chapter soon!