Death of a dead soul

It is a cold night... like it always was.. Sera sat at his usual spot in front of an abandoned apartment complex, flipping his dirty silver lighter open and closed... open and closed.. over and over again, just staring out, thinking. He is dressed in simple baggy, dark green pants with a cut in the fabric by the large side-poket. He has a black shirt on with a black, beat up light jaket over it. His hood is not up, exposing his dirty-blonde hair. He is still, his only action flipping his lighter open and closed. He is gothic, depressed, and utterly sad beyong any belif. Alot has happened to him over the course of the last 4 years. He is 16 years old and six foot one. His life, is a mess. At 15, he realized his life sucked. At the time, his brother was in need of special attention (his legs were very bad), so he had a friend over every day to see him. Her name, was kathern. When Sera's brother was sick, Sera and kathern would talk sometimes. Sera developed quite a liking for Kathern, he eventually learned he loved her alot. He had told her he was depressed and wanted so badly to die, but couldn't as he wanted to be killed, not die because of suicide. She too, was gothic in a way and understanded in a way. One day, while sera's brother was deep in sleep, Sera and kathern were talking and sera explained how he didn't want to die without experiancing a somewhat full life, even though he planned on dying soon. He also explained how he was in love with her... She smiled, and kissed Sera. It was sera's first real kiss and the sparks really flew, he was in the best mood of his life. That day, they made out and Sera experianced love with the girl he loved so much for the first time. They continued this for a few days, after Sera's brother fell asleep of corse, each day going farther and farther. One day, while they kissed, Sera was holding her in his arms and his fingers touched one of her breasts. He immideately apolagized and backed off slowly, expecting her to be furious. However, she smiled and pulled her shirt and bra off, exposing her petit, but perfect breasts. He simply went along, as she pulled him back onto the bed, taking off the rest of her clothes. That night, they made sweet love, exploring the bodies of each other, the person they love (she confessed that she loved Sera as he loved her). Days went by, Sera's brother never really falling asleep long enough for Sera and Kathern to be with each other. More days went by, the only way for them to be together being for two minutes tops. One day, as kathern was with Sera's brother in his chamber, Sera walked to the room for his brother'r regular checkup. As he neared the door, he heard sounds, which he duced was the TV (it was always on in there). As he grew closer to the door, he noticed the sounds were somehow different. He reached the door, and turned the knob, opening the door to his eternal tourment.