A/N: Sorry for making another story without finishing my first gakuen alice fic but I swear I'll finish it but this song is just so cute that its hard not create another fic. Anyway I hope you will like this one. This is only a 2 chaptered story so I think it's okay. enjoy!!

Suggestions: please listen to the vertical horizon (everything you want) as you read this. You know to feel the moment. Anyway that was just a suggestion so it's okay if you won't do it.

Summary: He gave everything she wanted but how come he meant nothing to her after all these years. Who will she choose? The one that broke her heart or the one that mended it?

EVERYTHING YOU WANT

Chapter 1

Four years have already passed since Natsume Hyuuga left the Alice Academy. She could still remember that dreaded day when he decided to leave and take her heart with him. Up until now she couldn't forget his face, his voice and even his insults which haunted her every night.

Flashback…

"NATSUME!!" "NATSUME MATTE!!!!" she yelled but it was no use. He already went inside the car and started to leave. She couldn't do anything anymore the gates are closing in already and she couldn't catch up.

"Natsume…doshite?" "doshite?" Mikan whispered while tears started pouring out of her eyes. She just couldn't believe that Natsume left her without even saying goodbye and he didn't even glance back at her when she called out his name. Wasn't she important to him? Wasn't she his friend? Many thought raced thorugh her mind as the rain started enveloping the academy. She watched him left the academy…his friends…her…forever and it hurt her so much. She felt like dying then and there because of the pain he inflicted within her. She loved the fire caster more than anything but she was so stupid not to tell it to him and now the chance is already gone because he's gone forever.

A week had passed but Mikan's changes are still evident in her actions. She wasn't the loud mouthed girl they used to know. She's not even talking that much to anyone except when they ask her something. Usually she would enjoy her time talking and laughing with her friends but now she locks herself up in her room and stares at her window for the rest of the day. Everyone is starting to worry especially her best friend but they know that it's because of him…because he left…which made her change drastically.

She sat on her bed and watched the weather mirror her feelings. 'I hate the rain and yet I'm being comforted by it…how ironic' she thought sadly. "Natsume…nande?" she murmured softly as she cried herself to sleep not noticing the pair of blue eyes that watch her in the dark.

Ruka was suffering as well although he's doing a better job hiding it. He was suffering because the girl he loved was crumbling down in front of him and he couldn't do anything about it. He wanted to rewind everything and make Natsume change his mind so she would be happy again but Ruka knew even if that happened it will still be useless to stop him when he's mind is made up. Ruka sighed and continued to watch the girl in front of him remembering Natsume's words before he left echoing in his head.

'…Take care of her for me. If I stay around her like this, I would just hurt her in the end. I trust you Ruka. Make her happy…'

'Make her happy? Natsume baka…' he thought sadly as he watched the girl continue to tire herself to sleep.

End of flashback…

Somewhere there's speaking

It's already coming in

Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind

You never could get it

Unless you were fed it

Now you're here and you don't know why

Mikan woke up from another dream about 'him'. Even after all this years the past still plague her dreams. She sighed and got up to prepare herself for the day ahead. She took a bath, got dressed and went down stairs to meet her friends and eat her breakfast. She went to her first class and waited for her teacher to come.

The day went by perfectly like it had been for the past four years. After the incident, Ruka and her friends helped her out of her misery and supported her all the way. Now she was back to the cheery girl who brightens everyone's day. When you look at her, everything seems perfect in her life but if you look closely, you will see that she was hiding a dark secret behind those smiles.

Mikan stared out the window and thought about what happened today. She seemed to be thinking a lot these days especially with her relationship with Ruka Nogi. She knows he loved her so much and she loves him too but not for the reason she's telling herself to believe. Mikan sighed and brushed it away but whenever Ruka is with her, she can't help but feel hollow inside. It feels like something is missing from their relationship.

Sometimes she would even pretend that she was not feeling very well to get away from him. She even felt guilty for avoiding him like he was a mad person but there is a small voice in her mind telling her that he's not the 'one'. Sure they shared a few kisses but those kisses have no passion in them and that's one reason why she's feeling awkward around him. WAIT! She wasn't supposed to think of Ruka like this, God! He is her boyfriend. She should be thinking about their future not some crappy things like 'he's not the one for me' kind. Mikan shook her head erasing the thoughts that formulated in the head.

"Mikan chan daijobu?" She was suddenly jolted out of her reverie when he talked to her.

"Huh? Oh! Yeah gomen ne Ruka" she replied. Mikan blushed when she saw the concern look that Ruka was throwing at her. She also felt guilty thinking about him like that. She gave him a smile signaling that she was fine so he smiled at her and dismissed it.

Mikan stared outside again and noticed that the sky has dimmed. 'Hmm…this morning it was so hot but now it seems like it's going to rain…rain huh…' thought Mikan as she continued to stare at the view below her remembering a little of her past. As she continued to stare outside the window, she felt something cold hit her skin. She rubbed her arms to comfort her but a dreaded feeling suddenly dawned on her. 'Something's going to happen today and it seems bad…' she thought out of nowhere.

Somewhere inside the academy a young man with raven colored hair and ruby red eyes stared at the window.

"What are you thinking?" asked the man called persona.

"Nothing" the young man replied

"It's been four years since you've returned ne Natsume?"

"Hm"

"If you're thinking about her then why don't you visit her that is...if she would still want to see you after what you did to her?" Natsume glared at his teacher before turning his attention back to the view outside as the rain started to fall. 'Rain …' he thought as he remembered the last time he saw her.

But under skinned knees and the skid marks

Past the places where you used to learn

You howl and listen

Listen and wait for the

Echoes of angels who won't return

"Hey have you heard? Natsume sama returned and he's somewhere inside the academy! Can you believe it! Natsume sama returned!!"

"Hontou ni? YOSH! This time I will make him want me! I have waited for this day to come when Natsume sama will be mine!" Both girls giggled and started talk about his return. It didn't even take an hour to spread the news about Natsume's return in the academy. Everybody seemed excited to see the fire caster again especially the girls.

Inside the class B everyone is chatting happily until she heard someone talk about him. She suddenly jolted out of her reverie when she heard his name. Her heart pounded like it was going to get out of her chest. 'WHAT?' she thought panicking.

"What did you say?" she asked the two girls chatting. The two girls looked at her and told her that Natsume was back. Mikan felt the world crashed down on her. The memories of her and him four years ago were suddenly flooding her mind. 'NO he shouldn't' have come back…not when my life is already at a normal pace' she thought frantically. She felt hot tears threatening to fall from her eyes when she felt someone hugged her from behind.

Ruka was also shocked and at the same time angered because he knows that this will affect Mikan the most. He saw her shaking and tears are already visible in her eyes. He hugged her and whispered soothing words into her ear so she would calm down. Mikan felt the tenseness of her muscles disappear and her heart rate decrease when Ruka held her. She looked up at him begging him with her eyes that she was not yet ready to face Natsume yet. Ruka understood it and motion her towards the door. She was very thankful that Ruka was there with her. All her ill thoughts about him earlier disappeared except one… 'He's the one for me'.

He's everything you want

He's everything you need

He's everything inside of you

That you wish you could be

He says all the right things

At exactly the right time

But he means nothing to you

And you don't know why

When they were about to open the door; they came face to face with Natsume. Mikan's eyes stared at the young man who stood before her. The very person who she couldn't forget is here on front of her. His very presence brought different emotions that Mikan thought she dismissed already. She wanted to cry in front of him and asked why he left but at that moment her brain isn't working so she just stood there staring at him. Ruka noticed the awkward moment between the three of them and decided to move Mikan away but she didn't move and inch.

Natsume watched the two and noticed how Ruka held her in an embrace. He felt a little jealous but quickly pushed his emotions away. He watched her as she continued to stare up at him waiting for him to say something. He didn't want to talk to her yet and her position with Ruka is only making it harder for him to stay calm so he moved passed them and ignored them like they were never there.

You're waiting for someone

To put you together

You're waiting for someone to push you away

There's always another wound to discover

There's always something more you wish he'd say

She could hear the other students welcoming him as he entered the room. Mikan felt the pang of pain washed over her. Natsume just ignored her 'AGAIN' like she was never there. Her tears started to fall on her cheeks one after another. The pain is returning but it was different because now, he is showing her that he is deliberately ignoring her. Mikan felt like falling on her knees but thankfully, Ruka was still holding her. He supported her weight when he noticed her slightly falling.

He brought her to her room and cradled her into his arms until she fell asleep. Ruka watched as a single tear slide down her cheeks as darkness completely engulfed her. He wiped away her tears and kissed her forehead before going back to the room.

Ruka walked back inside the room and saw Natsume at the very top were they usually sit. He was staring out the window and a look of boredom was present on his face. Ruka sat beside him like old times and tried to think of something to say. Ruka couldn't figure out what he was feeling at the moment. First of all he was glad that Natsume came back but he is somehow worried because he might take Mikan away. Ruka was starting to get confused but he was jerked out of thinking when Natsume started a conversation.

"So how are things going?" Ruka knows that he was referring to Mikan's relationship with him. He looked at his best friend who continued to stare outside the window.

"Every thing's fine…" his last word faded as it left his lips. This time Natsume looked at his friend and observed him then returned to watch the view outside. Both of them fell silent for a moment while thinking of something to say to each other. Ruka was the one who broke the silence between them.

"Why did you come back?" "Did you come back for her?" Natsume didn't answer for a second. He tried to think carefully. He asked himself that same question but no answer came to his mind.

"No. I just wanted to see how everyone is doing"

"Is that the real reason why you came back?" he insisted.

"Natsume, I've known for years. You cannot lie to me!" Ruka stood up and almost shouted at him. He was angry and frustrated at his best friend because Natsume is still denying his real intention for returning.

"I know you came here to get her back…but this time I'm sorry to say that I won't give her up." His last words were laced with determination. Ruka was almost at the door when Natsume spoke.

"I know and I never intended you to…that's why I left her to you Ruka" Ruka was surprised and turned his attention to the fire caster who just smiled at him and turned to watch the window again. Ruka left the room with a confused expression on his face.

The class B students watched the scene between the two males. Everyone knew that both Natsume and Ruka loved Mikan and that's what is making the situation difficult. They are also wise enough not to meddle on their business because they might just endanger their lives if that happens.

Natsume stood up from his seat and left the room. He doesn't want to be bothered with the curious glances of his classmates. He walked around the campus for a while until he got tired and retired to his room.

Mikan opened her eyes as the events of today rushed through her mind. She felt like something hit her with full force. Her body was aching and tears began forming in her eyes. She tried to sleep again but his image keeps on popping up in her head and even if she busied herself with something, his picture is still invading her thoughts. Mikan looked at the time and noticed it's already time for dinner but the chances of seeing him there is still rising at the back of her head. She sighed and rested herself on the bed as her eyes started to close and his name was the last thing she said before sleep took over her body.

A/N: I need to cut it down because it's too long. -- So what do you think? Bad, good, weird, okay pick anything to say. Anyway just leave me a review. Ja ne!!!!