What do you do when you know you shouldn't like someone, but you do? They're funny, they share the same interests; but you don't know what to do, if they like you or if they're just making conversation. I know he's the "outcast" of the group; that they've ostracized him from the group for being jerk. But I know him better. I know that he's sweet; that he's beautiful on the inside. But none of that matters if I can't tell him. If he won't even give me the time of day.
What should I do, if I can't talk to my friends about it? They wouldn't get it. We went and got lattes, and when I tried to just casually bring up his name, they all scoffed and thought I was going to make fun of him, because I always do. That was my plan—but who knew it would work out so well? That I could lie so well? I thought my friends, my true friends, could see through me; but I guess not. I sort of wish they did.
It's harder than I ever thought to tell a guy you like him. Especially with a reputation like mine. Who else could give me that smile that makes my heart melt? One person- my past love that broke my heart; so when my heart jumped and swelled when he said, "Hey," I knew my feelings were true; but only one word came to my mind: "Damn!" because I didn't want my heart broken again. I can't; and I refuse to be cheated on again; I know that only too well. Or the even better: "I only went out with you because I felt sorry for you," which sucks so hard when you "friend" tells you; not the guy.
How can I tell Sean that I, Paige, love him with all my heart?