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It was all happening so unexplainably fast, robed men where encroaching on us, staring at us like lions ready to pounce, my love was emaciated and sickly still trying to protect me, and this one little girl who looked no older than ten was causing him pain without touching him. I saw red, for the first time since being with Edward I felt that my presence could actually save him for once.

"Please, please I beg you leave him alone," I screamed even though everyone in the room could have heard me if I had even whispered it.

"Jane," Aro said in a calm but authoritative voice.

And it was over just like that, no more eye contact, no more pain. Edward slowly got up and came back to guarding me as if what just happened had no residual effect on him at all. He was not standing as straight as he once was but still trying very hard to put himself in between the Volturi and myself. It was my turn and from what I just saw Edward go through I was preparing for the worst. I looked over at Jane who had a devilish smirk on her face and she was making eye contact with me. Waiting for the inevitable excruciating pain to befall me felt like hours, but it never came. Jane's scarlet eyes turn from playful to angry as she realized along with everyone else in the room that she has no power over me. Audible relief came from Edward as Jane looked away and I was still standing.

Aro's eyebrow raised and he began to chuckle. For someone who has been alive as long as he has, and to see something that one such as him has never seen would be amusing I guess. "So she is immune to all our gifts, how very intriguing, so sad really that we can not find out what makes her tick."

"Aro please, if someone must be punished let it be me, Bella had no say in this, blame me it was all my doing," Edward knew something I did not.

"Punished, why do we have to be punished, I stopped him from showing himself, no harm was done," I said trying very hard to not sound as nieve as I felt.

"unfortunately you know too much, we have few rules that must be upheld in our world, Edward here has broken the most important and easiest rule to follow, no human can know of our existence, unless they are to be made into one of us," Aro explained as a first grade teacher would explain geography to his class, the finite answer to a question from a child. In that moment I knew my fate, I would die for him, as I knew he would for me.

"Bella will be turned I have seen it," Alice spoke up for the first time in this very spacious but seemingly crowded room. Aro walked gracefully over to her, touched her hand and knew the truth; he saw what she saw, what I wished I could see.

This changed things, the entire air of the room had switched, and just like that it was over. Aro simply gestured to Jane to see us out. Single file we walked down the long corridor to the underground tunnels where we came from. "So does she know," Jane asked in a playful way to Edward.

"I've told her, yes," he said back. His expression though had switched, Edward was always giving half truths to save me or to keep me from worrying, I knew that face and I didn't like it.

"But you haven't told her have you," she pressed with a smile.

"She knows what she needs to know."

"Well I guess that's good enough for you isn't sweetie, having a strong, attractive, protective monster that you just can't seem to live without," she says to me. "Have you ever wondered why you seem to love him so much, do you have all the human things in common, music, movies, books, jokes? Have you ever wondered where all that undying passion came from?"

I didn't know what to say, I love Edward, unconditionally and completely unreserved, but is it unprovoked. Since the beginning I have always wanted to be around Edward, even if he didn't want to be around me. When he thought he couldn't handle my smell and was gone before he even met me, all I looked for everyday was that Volvo and his honey brown eyes, but why, I knew nothing about him and yet I was so enamored with him.

Before I could come up with my own answer, something that solidified our love, the conversation was over, she escorted us the exit and we walked to the stolen car and got on a plane for home, home to a dad who didn't know where I was, and a best friend who loved me but I left to be with my love. "What did she mean Edward, when she said 'does she know,'" I asked him as we were flying back home.

"Bella you have been awake for 48 hours, go to sleep and I will answer all your questions when we are back in forks," he kissed my hair and lingered there for just a moment. He left me for months but nothing had changed, the rush or warmth and chills I got from a single touch lingered for what felt like an hour as my eyes got heavy and I slipped into unconsciousness...

..."Bella! Bella its ok you're just dreaming," his cold rigid hands enveloped my face as I woke up with a jolt. The shock of him actually being here, back in my room, back in forks, it was too much. This couldn't be real, I touched his face and it felt real, like how I remembered it. His eyes closed as I touched him, then opened again and they pierced my soul. in that moment all I wanted to do was hold him, kiss him, touch him in some way so I knew he was real and not just another dream I had had so many times before that. Without removing the first hand placed on the side of his face I put my other on the back of his head and pulled myself to him. Our lips touched and without thinking I began to move them, and he reciprocated. Our lips moved as one intensely and more passionate than I have ever experienced. His hands move slowly down my neck then quickly down to my shoulders where he added pressure and pulled me away, separating our lips. I couldn't take it, being given this gift, these feelings, and then having them yanked away, so I pulled back and I used all the strength in my arms to get back to him.

"Don't leave me, please just don't leave me," I said to him as I was pulling myself back to him.

"Bella, I'm not going anywhere," he told me as he slowly let my shoulders go, when he realized I was giving up trying to kiss him again, "I just can't handle this right now, I haven't been hunting since we got back."

I started to cry, and he took my hands from the back of his head, and held them in his. "Bella, I promise you I will never leave you again. What I did to you, I know how much it hurt you, but I just can't fathom living without you, and I know I don't deserve it but I hope you can forgive me," his eyes were sad and sincere, and I knew that he meant what he was saying, but something he said made me think, something clicked in me and I felt differently.

There came a knock at the door, and just as soon as I looked at my bedroom door and looked back to where Edward was, he was gone. Charlie entered my room with a tray, on it was two pieces of burnt toast, greasy bacon, and a lump of yellow with black marks all over which I want to believe eggs with pepper. Though the glass of OJ was perfectly poured; I wasn't hungry, but the gesture was very much Charlie. I had just left him for two almost three days, without word of where I was going or what I was doing, came home with a boy he didn't approve of, a boy who broke my heart. Yet, here he is bringing me breakfast in bed and making sure I'm alright.

"I brought you some breakfast; I thought you might be hungry."

"Thanks Charlie, I'm not too hungry right now," I felt bad for what I had done to him, for what I was going to do to him, in a few months, maybe a few years, he wouldn't have me at all, I would be with Edward as a vampire forever, and that meant that I could no longer be around or see Charlie. In that moment I realized what it was that struck me with Edward. He said "I promise you I will never leave you again," but it was that word "again" that hit me. He did leave me, with no intention of coming back, the way I am going to leave Charlie, with no intention of coming back, of seeing him again. He left me and now he's back, but what's stopping him from leaving me again, he says he can't live without me, and some part of me believes that, but why? Why can't he live without me, this person who is absolutely perfect who could have anyone in the world, why does he want me, and what do I have to give in this relationship? "I'm sorry about the past couple of days that I disappeared."

"Oh yeah, about that, your defiantly grounded," he said with a serious smile on his face.

"Gounded," I said with a laugh, "are you sure you even know how that works?"

"I'm pretty sure you can't leave the house except for school and work, and I think no one can visit, but I'm not sure about the phone rules?"

"Phone…I'm pretty sure the groundee can still use,"

"Ok phone's ok," he said and gave a little smirk and started to walk out of the room. I was relived to see him go in hopes that Edward would come back and I wouldn't have to face the feelings that I would inevitably loose Charlie forever, but as he reached the door he turned around, "oh speaking of phones, Jacob is on the phone, he says he has something important to say to you."

And with that Charlie left, again with that little smirk on his face. When Edward left me I was consumed by my loneliness and depression, Jacob was the only thing that could bring me out of it. He became not only my best friend but my confidant, and in the end a relationship was born. Not necessarily the one that Jacob was hoping for, because no matter what happened I just couldn't let go of Edward, but there is something there, a little something that may be a little bit more than the simple friendship.

I looked over to the foot of my bed and Edward was sitting there smiling, but it wasn't a true smile. He knew something was not right, even though he couldn't read my mind, he knew that the thoughts going through my head were not what they used to be before he left. I had changed when he left and now that he's back things are not just the same as he left them.

"Are you going to get that," he said.

"He's mad at me, and I don't know what to say to him"

"Bella, if he has something important to say maybe you should just hear him out, I'll be right here when you get back."

"Bella are you coming, or should I tell him to call back," Charlie screamed from downstairs. I knew I had to hear what he had to say, I just wanted to live in my fantasy where I can keep my best friend and my boyfriend at the same time, even if they are mortal enemies. Edward eyes spoke volumes about his soul as he looked at me, he knew how much Jacob meant to me and how much I need him even though Edward is back.

I knew I had to go talk to Jacob, I left him alone, for Edward, without word one about where I was going or if I was going to be ok. With a little look and a scared smile I headed downstairs.

"Hello," I said into the receiver and held my breath for his response.

"Bella, can you maybe meet me somewhere," he sounded scared, which is very odd coming from Jacob.

"Right now Jacob, I just got home. Is everything ok?"

"No, it's not ok"

"What's wrong Jacob?"

"I found out something that might be of interest to you about the bloodsucker you love so much," his tone changed from worried to angry with one single sentence and I knew what this was all about.

"So in the end this is simply about Edward," I was getting angry now, he made me think something was wrong, but he was just being jealous, "I know that I hurt you Jacob, but please don't do this"

"Has he told you the real reason that you love him so much, why you can't live without him," though I couldn't see him I knew he was smiling, like he was winning some game that I didn't even know we were playing.

"I love him, because I love him Jacob, there is no rhyme or reason to love it's just there."

"Fine, but there are still some things I would like to tell you, can you meet me at the place we rode the motorcycles, please?"

"No Jacob, not if this is just going to be another rant session against Edward, I love him and that's just something you're just going to have to accept."

There was a long pause, I knew he was thinking of a way to lie to me and tell me it was not Edward we were going to be talking about on this meeting, "I'm sorry about this Bella, I just really need to meet with you, what I have to say is important. I won't lie it is somewhat about Edward, but it's also about me, please Bella I won't take up too much of your time I promise."

"Fine, I'll be there in ten minutes, but if this turns out to be what I think it's going to be, I'm going to leave."

"Deal," and he hung up, no goodbye, no see ya soon, there was no way this meeting was going to end well.

When I went back up to my room, Edward was gone. A note was left on my pillow in his flowy and beautiful handwriting.

Dear Bella,

I know that you are going to see Jacob, and I have a feeling I know what the talk will be about, please keep an open mind when you hear what he is going to say. After, please meet me at my house so that we may talk.

Love,

Edward

I got ready to meet Jacob and drove to the place we had agreed to. It was raining and cloudy, a normal day in Forks, and I was nervous. Edwards note made me think about this meeting, what could Jacob possibly have to say that would make Edward write a note where he seemed scared?

Jacob was standing there waiting for me. Arms crossed over his bare chest, he had run here in wolf form, this was not abnormal to see him like this. His face seemed stressed, tired. Even though it had only been a few days it felt like I hadn't seen him in ages, he never seemed to stop growing. He walked towards me gracefully, but I couldn't move. It seemed I was the only person that didn't know what this was all about. When he reached me he uncrossed his arms and reached out for me, but I could not return the gesture, I needed to know what was going on, and I needed to know now.

"So what is this all about?" I said to him, trying to cut to the point.

"I know we said we wouldn't talk about Edward, but he's keeping something from you," his face was sad, which surprised me. I expected him to be happy with a statement like that.

"Oh yeah, what do you think he could possibly be keeping from me, and before you answer, nothing that you say can make me love him any less," I said, and this was a stab. A dirty low blow that I knew would hurt him. I always seemed to do that to Jacob; to this day I can't tell you why he is still around.

"I know you know that I always wanted something more with you Bella, but you have made your choice. When you got on that plane to go save him and left me behind you made your choice, and I was willing to just give it up," his eyes were starting to get glossy, could he actually be about to cry? "Bella I'm not here to win you back, if I had you in the first place, I'm here because the choice you made was made under false pretenses."

"False pretenses, what do you mean."

"Sam told me something after you left, something about vampire's I'm not sure you knew before making the choice you made," he stepped closer, as if what he was about to say would make me crumple and he would be the one to catch me.

"Jacob, there are a lot of thing I don't know about that world, I learn new stuff every day, but nothing can change my feelings for him," I said taking a step away from him. He was not going to catch me, because I was not going to fall.

"What if the feelings you're feeling for him aren't real."

"What do you mean?"

"When you left Sam and the others noticed the effect it had on me, Sam told me that no matter what I did to try and win you it would be fruitless as long as Edward had the philia on you."

"Philia?"

"It's Greek or something, I looked it up and it just means lust. Sam explained that vampires have this ability to make their prey lust after them, kinda like the hormone animals have that attract the other species to mate," he said in an awkward tone. This made him feel uncomfortable, talking about me and Edward in way that included anything having to do with sex made Jacob very edgy.

"So Edward put a hormone on me that would make me love him; Jacob that makes no sense."

"I know, at first I thought that Sam was just saying that to make me feel better, but then what he was saying started to make sense. Sam says that vampire's have this power to make hunting humans easier, to draw them to a place where no one can see. If the human goes voluntarily with no fuss and no chase there is no chance that they could be outted to the public."

"But Edward loves me why would he do that when I already loved him to begin with?" Something about what Jacob was saying started to make sense, but I couldn't believe it, Edward would never do that to me, he had no reason to.

"Sam said that all it takes is one time for the human to be hooked, and then it's like a drug. Can't live without it if you can help it, and if you can't…" he paused this was the part that was going to hurt, the part he thought was going to make me crumple. He uncrossed my arms and took my hands in his, "like if he leaves you, you go through withdrawals, much like a person addicted to heroine, depression, sickness, and weird dreams, all of it."

This was too much, he couldn't be serious. What was I supposed to do here?

"Sam said this, Sam said that, how do I know any of it is true?" I yanked my hands away from his as if his touch was burning me.

"well if he is as truthful as you say, go talk to him, but Bella if you, even for a moment believe what I'm saying is true, come by Emily's house, I can have Sam explain it to you in more detail," his arms were at his sides but they were tense and I knew at any moment he could reach out for me again.

So I ran, I turned my back on Jacob and what he was saying and I ran to my truck. I would go see Edward, and he would tell me the truth. He would tell me that all of this is bullshit and when he does, Jacob, you and me, we're over. This is just the lowest you could have gone.

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