Shape of the heart

Lily has been having strange dreams of her future son, Harry Potter and the hard life he endures. To save her son from suffering she refuses to walk fate's path and begins to avoid James Potter. But she soon learns that it's not of what the mind decides, it's of what the heart desires...

A/N: Well...erm so anywho, be nice this is my first ever Maurauder fic that I have written so don't hurt me if it's bad ok? Just tell me what you think. No flames, but Constructive Criticism is more than welcome. Ideas are also more than welcomed. So...read on...

Chapter One

September 1st came faster than I had expected and the whole of the holidays we had been arranging the funeral of our two parents, while I tried to fit in as much schoolwork as possible. My sister cared for the house while I did my work and she did not once have a fit about how I should be working and shouldn't be so lazy. I was grateful for this and when the time came to go back to Hogwarts and began to regret having to leave my sister.

I took in a deep breath as I stared at the wall between platforms nine and ten, preparing to run through and begin my last year at Hogwarts. Before I ran through however, I turned to my sister who stood behind me looking at the floor as if not wanting to watch me go. My stomach was in knots of both worries for my sister and the promise I made and also of nervousness of returning to Hogwarts.

"Hey Petunia, turn that frown upside-down!" I grinned half-heartedly and attempted to sound cheery.

Petunia looked up and gave me a forced smile before stepping forward and embracing me in a hug. "Take care of yourself, and be careful will you Lily?"

I nodded and pulled away from Petunia. "Don't worry...ok?" I smiled before I turned and ran through the barrier and-

WHAM.

"AH! Watch where you're going you stupid bi-"

I stopped when I realised it was only my friend Latisha, a sun-brown coloured girl with chestnut coloured hair and beautiful grey eyes.

"You mind finishing that?" said Latisha before giving me a huge grin.

"Uh...nah..." I said before grinning back.

"Hey Evans!" called a familiar voice.

Latisha turned and smirked. "Oh look who it is Lil, it's fat-headed Potter." she said.

My stomach did a somersault and I groaned. "Oh great. Is it too late to hide me?" I asked.

"Well, seeing how he already called your name and he's heading this way with his group I say...yes."

Muttering a curse, I turned towards the approaching Marauders and prepared myself for what might happen next. "Hello Evans. Pleasant day isn't it?" asked James, smiling mischieviously.

"It would be a lot more pleasant if you weren't wasting my time Potter." I growled, throwing my best scowl at him.

He winced slightly, his smile falling slightly. "Ah Evans, so cheerful today aren't you?" he said, his voice betraying his eyes.

I was mad at him for talking to me like this when I was still upset about my mother and father's death. "You're an airhead." I hissed before pushing past him and his group and was followed by Latisha.

"Looks like someone's PMSing..." mumbled Sirius who obviously thought I hadn't heard him.

I stalked away from the group and when Latisha and I reached the train she asked me, "Why are you so mean to him?"

"Because..." I said shrugging, not wanting to tell her the truth.

"He really likes you, you know..." Latisha said, giving me a weird look.

I flicked my red hair in pretend annoyance. I knew that already.

"You look like you haven't been getting much sleep." muttered Ciara, my other friend as she approached us. And she was right, I had tried not to fall a sleep a few times because of the strange dreams I kept having. Were the dreams real? If they were, I did not want them to happen at all, and I had decided that if fate wanted to interfere then I would attempt to stop it and mold my life to my will. Fate has sent my life out of control and it was time for me to take hold of my life and set it out how I want it to be like.

I'd rather suffer than let my future son, Harry go through the hard life he'll soon go through if I don't.

A/N: So anyways, I hope you review and tell me your ideas and what you think. I'll be updating with the next chapter has more information (and flashbacks) of what happened in the holidays and stuff. And yeah, in this Lily's got a weird gift.

So...please review!