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WHO YOU ARE

CHAPTER 1

I walked to my room after working on a few paintings, for the past few months painting, writing and music has been my escape from reality. I sit on my bed and pop two pills of prescribed antidepresents and wash it down with a glass of water. As I set the glass on my bed side table I glance at my phone, debating whether I should try and call him or not, after about a minute, I decided to go ahead and try once again grabbing the phone I dial the all too familiar number.

The phone rang for almost a minute, just when I was about to keep the phone someone answered

"Hello! Jace?"

"Um, sorry Jace is in rehearsal may I know who is speaking?"

"Uh..who is this?

"Aline…. Jace's assistant, now may I know who this is?"

"Oh! it's Clary his wife, could you tell him to call me once he is free?"

"Sure is that all?"

"Yeah"

"Okay! Have a good day"

"Yeah, Thanks you too" I sighed throwing my phone across the room. Another failed attempt of trying to reach Jace, for almost four months I have been trying to contact Jace but to no avail. I needed him to be there with me, now more than ever.

I got in my bed and broke into tears, suddenly, I felt a weight on Jace's side of the bed, when I turned to face the intruder, I was greeted with a wet kiss…. well more like lick on the face.

"Simba! Gross!"I wiped my face and smiled when I saw my golden retriever sit next to me with his tongue out, panting. I looked at him and smiled and said "Thanks,"since the day Jace left for tour, Simba has been with me throughout, and he always manages to bring a smile to my face. Simba curled up next to me, with his head on my stomach as I stroked his head, slowly falling into a deep slumber.

The next morning…

I woke up to Simba barking and at the sound of the doorbell. I glanced at the clock beside my bed to see it was 7:00 am. Wondering whom it could be I go answer the door, Simba following me.

As I opened the door, before I could see who it was, I was engulfed in a bear hug.

"Clare-bear! I missed you so much" says my brother Jonathan

"Jon? What are you doing here?" shocked to see my brother after a really long time

"Well, Can't I visit my lovely sister?" he said pulling away to look at me, as if a mother checking on her baby to see if she is hurt. Simba jumped on Jon excited to see a familier face after a long period of time.

"Whose a god boy?"Jon says bending down and rubbing Simba's back. I laugh when I see Simba enjoying his back scratch and involuntarily shaking his hinde leg. Jon gets up and walking inside the house dragging his suitcase behind him while simba followed, he sat on the couch while I closed the door and sat across from him.

"So…what are you really doing here Jon?"

"Why can't you be more like Simba and be excited to see your handsome, awesome brother?"

"Uh oh! What did you do, Jon?"I glare at him, normally; He would call a day before if he came to visit. But, when he wants or has done something he would pop out of the blue and 'visit'and be extra sweet and cocky.

"Nothing, mom told me what happened two months back. I also found out from Emma that Jace doesn't know and how he didn't call the whole time he has been on tour. Why did you not tell me Clary? I found out about all of this last week."

"I didn't tell you because I didn't want to disturb you, you have so many important things to do…."

"Clary, you and mom are the most important people in world to me, if you had told me I would have been there for you. So, did you speak to Jace yet?"

"I called him again, his assistant answered telling me he was in rehearsals. I don't know what to do Jon?"

"You know? You could go back to making music, going on tours, in fact, ifiredyourmanagersonowIamyournewmanagerbecauseIthinkit'stimeyougobacktoyourcareerasasinger,"

"Huh?, I didn't understand a thing you just said"

"I said that I fired your manager. So, I'm your new manager because I think that it's time for you to go back to your career as a singer"

"WHAT! Jon, you know why I stopped making music. I can't do that to Jace, besides what Helen said is true, Jace's career could be overshadowed and it will cause a lot of issues for him and me"

"What Helen, that good for nothing manager of yours said was Bullshit. Clare has that guy bothered to call you even once these past 4 months to check up on you?"I remained silent because Jace didn't call the entire time he was on tour. Whenever I called him he would either be too busy or someother thing,"

Jon taking my silence as an answer continued "Clare, You are a prodigy in music, you should not waste your talent, please. If Jace really loves you he would support you. That dumbass manager brainwashed you into thinking that it would creat an issue. Even if it does, I will stand by you and help you resolve it but don't sit in the house and do nothing.

"I'm not doing nothing, I paint,"

"Yeah…and I cook when I am free, come on Clare that is just a hobby,"

"Hey! That so called hobby of mine earns me almost a million dollars each time I sell a painting."

"Yeah yea…. seriously almost a million dollars? Wait…. that's beside the point. You love music and I bet you have written a lot of songs with all your free time. Now all you have to do is record them, create an album and your record label is more than happy to help and you have producers lining up to produce your music, Come on, Clary break time is over.

"Fine! Give me some time to think about it, okay?"

"I will give you time till your wedding anniversary, so exactly one week from now"

"Okay, So, how long are you staying here?"

" A few days, on the 10thI will be going to mom's to visit but I will be back on 15th, the day you make the decision,"

"Okay,"I tell Jon and show him his room.

That night, after having dinner and catching up with Jon, I lay down in bed and thought whether going back and making music was the right choice or not. Maybe Jon was right, I should do it. But,what if it caused problems like last time? Although I miss singing in front of large crowds and making new music. I prayed that in some way there would be a sign to help me with my decision.

few days later...

It was noon, I was sitting and doing the final touches of my latest painting, when I heard the front door closing and voices, Simba barked and started pacing near the door and was scratching the door, indicating he wanted to be let out. Jon had gone to mom's place for a few days and would be back tomorrow. Confused at who it could be I let Simba out and followed behind him. As I reached downstairs I saw Jace and the rest of the band coming inside and settling in the living room. Simba pounced on Jace, glad to see him after so long, was shaking and jumping with excitement as Jace scratched his back and belly. Jace finally noticing me got up and said "Oh! Hey Clary? Could you get us something to eat cause everyone is starving, we didn't et anything since morning, Thanks! " Jace then turned to Jorden and started talking about something funny that happened in the bus and was laughing.

Shocked by his behaviour, I shook my head trying to see if this was all just my mind playing tricks on me, confirming it was not, I walk to the kitchen and start preparing pasta for everyone. I was cutting mushrooms when I heard someone say"Can I help you out?"I turned to see Maia and smiled. She engulfed me in a hug.

"Clary! I missed you so much" Maia says and hugs me, I hug her back

" Me too, " I said returning the hug.

" So, put me to use chef, give a task," I laugh when I see the playful antics of Maia. God I missed my crazy pixie haired friend so much.

"You…can help me by chopping the vegetables, while I start on the sauce,"

"How was the tour?"I asked while pouring the milk in the pot and mixing it with butter and flour, while Maia chopped the the baby corn.

" Forget about the tour and tell what's wrong?" Maia asks and I freeze for second. Was it that obvious?

"What do you mean?"I ask acting like I didn't know what she meant.

"Oh come on clary, your eyes are dull and that bubbly-ness on your face is gone, honestly you look dead inside,"

"Thanks,"I reply sarcastically. Maia raise her eyebrow giving me the 'I am serious,'look making me bite my lip trying to come up with an answer, before I could say anything Maia interrupted me saying "and don't you dare say nothing, I'm fine and yada yada yada,"

"I an just really tired and a little shocked to see all of you, I mean I had no idea you guys were coming today,"

"Wait a Sec, what do you mean you did not know we were coming? Did Jace not tell you?" Maia stopped grating the cheese to look at me while I continued stirring the pot ensuring no lumps are formed.

" Jace and I didn't speak the entire time he was on tour,"

"What the hell, Clare, you are his wife, he should be calling you everyday"

"Apparently I am not important enough for him so why would he bother calling me? Just forget it, I don't want to dicuss the matter anymore" I say Just then I hear Simba bark, making me head out of the kitchen to see Jace telling him to go to our room locking him inside, confused as to why he would do that because everyone in the band loved Simba and vice versa, seeing my confused look Maia tells me that probably Aline, Jace's new assistant had come and that she was afraid of Dogs. I nod my head in understanding and add the pasta to the sauce.

I finish cooking the pasta and garnish it with herbs and after serving the food and I head to my room, informing Maia I had work to finish. After an hour, I was done with the painting, So I head downstairs and see that the guys drinking beer and watching a soccer match while Maureen who was Bat, the drummer of the band's, girlfriend, a woman who I guessed to be Aline talk and Maia snuggling with Jorden, I decided to head to bed. I was reading a book for almost an hour when Jace entered the room telling me that Aline is staying the night, before I could say anything, he goes into the bathroom, After a shower and lays down.

"How was the tour?"I asked him

"Good, will tell you all about it later, I am really tired right now, Could you turn the light off? Thanks."saying that he falls asleep. I look at him, the man I loved more than anything in the world, the man who once came from LA to New York only to cheer me up when I had a writer's block and could not come up with a song delaying the album's release, Now, that same man who didn't call even once to see if I was okay and didn't bother to greet his wife after coming back.I sighed, closing my book and setting it beside the bed and turning the lamp off. Maybe tomorrow will be better, with that thought I slowly fall asleep.

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