Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi, but I do owe a T-shirt with Munro Chamber's face on it. It's awesome!
I'm shattered.
That night had broke me in every way possible. My leg had been fractured in two places. My foot was broken. But most of all, my heart was shattered into a million pieces. Your flawless face is in front of mine when you ask me how I am. "I'm good," is the only way I can reply. I look you directly in the eye and I immediately know what you're thinking; I can still read you like a book. You know me well enough to know that I'm not good. I know you're smart enough to figure out that I am not happy. We both know I'm not. I watch you walk away knowing that you are unsatisfied with my answer.
Later, you apologize. You're sorry for yelling at me. You said the most painful thing that could ever escape your perfect lips. You know the answers to the questions you violently threw at me last night, but you asked them anyway. You can never and won't ever be erased from my memory. I will always, forever love you, no matter how hard you try to stop me. Yes, what you said did strike a chord on my numb body. Only you could do that. Oh, you had hurt me, but you shouldn't be sorry.
Now, I give you the answer you have been wanting all along. "I don't have feelings at all," I say in my new monotone voice.
"What?" Don't be so confused.
"I'm on anti-anxiety meds." Your face changes right then and there. You realize why I've been the way I have. You know you're to blame. I can't deal with my feelings anymore. Everything is too much and too heavy for me to deal with. And you're the reason why. You shattered me, Clare Edwards. But I wouldn't expect anything less.
AN: Hope you liked it. I was totally broken hearted by the episode Love Game. I hope everyone delt with it better than I did. I never liked Clare though :P haha. This episode got me thinking about everything Eclare and I just can't believe that it's over. If anyone want to vent in the comments feel free!