The Promises We Made.
Summary: My idea of 4x01. Everyone decides to take a trip to Tennessee for the weekend just to release stress and by happy with friends they love. Yeah right.
A\N: This is going to be a BL story so if you don't like them, then why are you here? Anyways, the beginning will be flashback after flashback after flashback. And I know I didn't get the lines all entirely right, but I have homework to do and I can't correct it at the moment, so I did the best I can. I own nothing. If I get a good amount of reviews, I'll continue (:
Previously.
"Did you miss me while you were away?" Her raspy voice whispered as they resumed their dancing.
"Everyday," His voice cracked, as if being without her had caused him pain.
He looked into her dark green eyes lovingly and held her tighter as she brought her head to his chest.
His mind went back to her outburst and their fight that had happened earlier.
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"Peyton told me some things about the two of you."
"Look, what happened with Peyton and I is in the past. I mean, she was bleeding and she thought she was gonna die but that kiss didn't mean anything.." He trailed off.
"What kiss?" Uh oh. "Did you kiss her again?"
He wanted to shout "it meant nothing, she was dying!" but he stood, frozen.
He watched as she scoffed at him in disbelief, glanced at Peyton who was laughing while dancing with Nathan's Uncle Cooper, and in the middle of the dance, she walked away from him.
Feeling like an idiot, he followed her to the dressing room where she frantically was searching through a purse.
"I need you to listen to me. I understand that you didn't know about the kiss and I'm sorry for springing it up on you but," He stood in front of her, trying to get her attention as she continued to search through purses. "I meant what I said, it didn't mean anything."
She looked up, her voice icy "A kiss always means something."
"Okay, maybe you're right but it wasn't a romantic moment! And you would know that if you -"
"If what, I was there?" She interrupted. "As you so sweetly pointed out to me at the party, the party that I threw for you. I wasn't there, was I?"
Table between the two of them, he handed her another purse when she grabbed the wrong one. She snatched it.
"Is it impossible for you to forgive me?" He asked calmly. Then added, "I forgave you."
She looked up at him, her eyes in slits. "For what?"
He hesitated. ".. For sleeping with Kris Keller."
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She turned at the sound of her name, wet tear tracks trailed down her face.
"I'm sorry." He apologized. "What you did with Kris.. It's okay."
Her eyes widened. "It's not," She choked, "It can't be, it's too much to forgive…"
"Well that's too bad ..because I forgive you."
"You can't!" She cried in disbelief.
"I just did," He shot back, smiling a little, "so you're just gonna have to deal with it."
Something sparkled in her eyes.
"I'm the guy for you, Brooke Davis. And I know I hurt you last time we were together but.. -"
"I love you," She blurted.
He smiled, shrugging sheepishly. "I love you, too." He tenderly moved a strand of hair from her face. "Pretty girl."
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"So you lied! How could you do that?"
"How could you cheat on me with my best friend?"
"… I never meant to hurt you.."
"It doesn't really matter, Lucas. Because in the end it all hurts just the same."
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"I'm falling for him. Big time. Speechless, right? I know, it's crazy, this is like L-O-V-E mad crushed out, I'm in big trouble."
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I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm crazy about your son. And I hope that's enough for you."
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"Are you breaking up with me?"
"… I just think it's the best thing for right now."
"Maybe for you."
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"We should do this more often."
"What?"
"Be friends."
"We are friends."
"But we should be friends."
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"… Don't go. I just need to say it. You have to stay.."
"We're finally friends again and I'm moving.. I'm gonna miss being the girl behind the red door."
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"So, what are you gonna miss most about me? Besides hanging out with me or how hot I am."
"Eh, neither one of those, huh?"
"No."
"Well, I would miss the girl behind the red door."
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"This is all my stuff, I don't understand."
"I asked my mom to call your parents and they said you could stay here until summer. They didn't want to, Brooke, but.. My mom can be pretty convincing."
"…You did this for me?"
".. I wasn't ready to lose you yet."
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"So! Are you gonna stay or what?"
"Yes! Of course!"
"I wasn't ready to be lost. Thank you."
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"So I guess this is goodbye..?"
"Please tell me that wasn't a goodbye kiss.."
"I want to be with you, Brooke."
".. What?"
"I'm sorry.. I know we're friends.. ..it's just how I feel."
"But what about Peyton's stuff?"
"I keep that stuff as a reminder of how badly I screwed up things.. With you. To remind myself that if I ever had another chance, … I'd never let you go again."
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"It's okay.. Really, it is. And I had a lot of time to think about this and I thought that we could totally have a summer like fling, just in the fall. And ..non-exclusive."
"Non-exclusive? .. How's that work?"
"Well, we go out, got to the movies, we have fun. But we also date other people."
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"I missed you, Lucas Scott."
"I missed you, too, pretty girl."
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"I don't know why I did it, okay, I am.. I mean, I guess I was just jealous that you were with Rachel, but I think that I'm just afraid to get close to you again."
"Well you don't have to worry about that now.. Do you?"
"I didn't expect you to be kind about this. But, seeing you this way? .. It's much worse than I thought it would be.."
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"You are looking at me now as if I'm so much worse that you, when you were with Peyton while we were dating."
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"Lucas.. Is the one for me."
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"She's the one."
"Why?"
"She just is. I feel it."
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"I'm the guy for you, Brooke Davis. You'll see."
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"What I wanted? I wanted you to fight for me. I wanted you to say there was no one else that you could ever be with and that you'd rather be alone than without me."
"How was I supposed to know that?"
"You just are.."
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"I saw you rescue Peyton, and you told me you rescued Dan and sometimes I just wish you would rescue me.."
"From what?"
"From all of it."
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"Did you kiss her again?"
"If I say I love you right now will you hold it against me?"
"A kiss always means something."
"You have to believe me when I tell you that my heart is with you."
"How about how you show it? I am not pushing you away, Lucas, I am holding on for dear life but I need you to need me back.
"I hurt you pretty bad.. I'm not going to do that again."
"But why? I need to know why."
"Because you ..kink your eyebrow, when you're trying to be cute.. Because you quote from books even though I've never actually seen you read! And because.. I've given exactly two of these embarrassing speeches in my entire life, and they've both been with you! I mean that's gotta mean something, right? And because we're both gonna get pneumonia, but if you need to hear why I love you ..I can go on all night."
"… You did pretty good."
(Okay, all of that was just a blur of memories and what they've been through. Now, you start the real story. What I wrote.)
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"Hey," Brooke whispered, closing the door quietly. "How is he?"
Haley blinked the sleep from her eyes and sat up from the uncomfortable chair. "He's fine, just sleeping. He's been sleeping all day, it keeps freaking me out."
Brooke sat next to her. "He's gonna be fine, Haley. He's just tired. I would be too if I almost drowned from trying to save a whore that hit on me when I have a wife and almost killed my uncle who's insanely hot."
Haley smiled at Brooke's attempt to make her laugh but her eyes were sad.
Brooke sympathetically rubbed her arm. "He'll get better, tutor girl. It just takes time."
Haley sighed, nodding and she looked into her friends eyes, her brown orbs shining with sincerity. "Thank you, Tigger."
Brooke smiled. Trying to think about something less depressing, Haley asked: "So how's Lucas holding up?"
Thinking of her boyfriend, Brooke's face softened. "He's okay. He's just ..so sweet to me." Brooke smiled and said out loud, more to herself than Haley. "He's finally letting me in."
Haley looked befuddled. "Letting you in where..?"
Brooke, with an overwhelming wave of affection for the guy she loved, sighed thankfully and said: "his heart."
Sitting up with a gasp, Brooke rubbed her eyes and looking around the room, she cursed out loud when she realized she was still in her car.
Groaning in pain, she opened the door and climbed out, rubbing her lower back. Memories came rushing back and her hand flew to her head and she all of a sudden felt faint.
"Can we talk?"
"Yeah, sure. …What's up?"
"I think I still have feelings for Lucas."
"As ..a ..friend?"
"No. I think I'm still in love with him."
What in the world was she supposed to say to that? Her first reaction had been to slap her but she didn't. She basically just stormed out.
Now, feeling the pain and hurt all over again, she became angry and she stomped to Peyton's door, entering her room.
"Hi."
"…Where did you sleep?"
"My car." She answered abruptly. "See, I had this horrible dream that my best friend told me she had feelings for my boyfriend. Oh but wait. That wasn't a dream, was it?"
She paused and glared at her, moving to the closet.
"Brooke.." Peyton started.
She grabbed the bag and threw it on the be, her head pounding, her anger rising. "Why now, Peyton? Why do you tell me you had feelings for Lucas now, when I have so much going on in my life, stuff that you don't even know about!"
"Well so do I, okay? Trust me ..but.. I didn't wish for this, alright, I wished for Jake."
"Oh, right! You wished for Jake, after you wished for Pete and then Lucas." She paused briefly before going into the closet to retrieve her clothes. "I cannot believe this is happening again."
Peyton panicked. "It's not, okay, it's not! Okay, the last time -"
"The last time? Do you hear yourself right now? The last time you tried to steal my boyfriend?" Wanting to yell, she pointed angrily to the door with their names on it. "He's on the door, Peyton." She slammed the door where it said Brooke and Lucas. "He's on the damn door under me."
"I don't wanna to steal him, okay?" Peyton cried.
"But you like him."
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She had planned on giving up. She had even made a speech for it, for she didn't want him to suspect of ever know the real reason she was doing this. Sacrificing, she scoffed, look how nicely that turned out.
Flashback.
"Listen. I know it's been difficult for you lately, losing Keith and your heart condition and giving up basketball." She looked down. "I feel like, I've been keeping you close to me to protect you. Like I'm hanging on the two of us for you."
"… I'm sorry I kissed Peyton!" He exclaimed, "I should've told you."
"This is not about her, Luke. it's not.. I.. This is not about her. It's about me."
She stared into his eyes. "I love you, Lucas." He smiled. "And I probably always will."
"We go days without having a meaningful conversation and I used to miss you so much when that happened." Lies, lies, she chanted in her head, but she had to do this. "And I guess because of it I stopped missing you."
He stared at her, his eyes shining with fear. He was about to lose her. He had to say something. "Brooke -"
"I'm sorry," She interrupted, her raspy voice cracking. "I can't do this anymore."
She was truly surprised to see his face looking so pained and for a moment she thought she saw a flicker of longing in his eyes but it's probably for Peyton, she thought.
They both remained quiet and she waited breathlessly for him to say something - anything. At least show a little emotion.
His eyes never left her gaze but he still didn't say anything, yet she felt like she could read his mind, his body, his soul. And they were all crying out for Peyton Sawyer.
She nodded, disappointed in his lack of speaking and she stood up, heading for the door.
"Brooke," She turned quickly, her eyes sparkling with the intensity of hope and -now sacrificed- love.
"Don't go," He pleaded.
Wanting to stay more than anything, for he looked so sad, she forced herself to go. Let your best friend be happy, she told herself, she deserves it. Besides, why let myself get hurt again? She could already foresee the future if she did stay with him. He would realize he's made a mistake. He would run to Peyton. He would forget about me. He will find his happiness with her and because I love him too much to ever completely let him go, I will encourage him and Peyton to be the epic love story that everyone says\wants them to be. I will make him happy. I will back down. And he will never know.
"I love you, Brooke. I always have. I just wish you'd believe it."
At her silence, he continued. "I don't mind the speeches, but I shouldn't have to always reassure you." He moved toward her, taking her small hands in his. "You should believe in us. It doesn't matter that we're not alike," His icy blue eyes softened and she saw tenderness. She tried her best not to flinch when he brushed the side of her face - lovingly, she noticed with oncoming tears of love and confusion for this boy.
"Peyton kissed me. And I let her. Which was a stupid thing to do, I know and I regret it but we're just friends. And that's all we'll ever be. Okay? And I did miss you. Every single day I thought about you, all the time. And if you can't believe me then …I guess we should take a break but I meant what I said. I love you, Brooke Davis. And I will fight for you." He looked at her sadly, his hand still on her face. "But you have to fight for me, too."
He stood in front of her and cradled her head in his hands, taking her by surprise and bringing his lips to her forehead. He wrapped his arms around her, bringing her closer to him. She relaxed in his arms, instantly calmed.
They stood, his chin on the top of her head, his hands rubbing her back soothingly and he slowly closed his eyes. She sniffed, letting the tears trail down her cheeks. What was she supposed to do?
"You have to let me in all the way, too, Brooke Davis," He spoke quietly into her hair. She didn't dare look him in the eye. She couldn't.
But, hazel met baby blue as he lifted her chin with his finger. "What's going on, pretty girl?" He whispered. "There's something you're not telling me."
She opened her mouth to say they couldn't be together anymore, and they couldn't, for she was just a bump, an annoyance, to the Peyton and Lucas love story, she had to get out of the desired picture.
She was going to tell him all of this but then the door opened, revealing an excited and out of breath Haley.
Brooke consciously stepped away from Lucas, her face turning serene, composing herself into the covered up Brooke Davis, the one who never showed her vulnerable side, Lucas noticed.
He looked up to Haley, surprised when he heard: "Guys, great news! We're going to Tennessee!"
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A\N: Woo, craziness , haha. Review if you want second chapter! (: thanks!