She had been in limbo since her partner kissed her on that bright sunny morning. Was she surprised he kissed her? Yes. Especially knowing Deeks who can be very infuriating at times but knows when to back off. She knew all too well how her partner feels about her a long time ago but refused to acknowledge it. Scared. That's what she always feel eery time she gets close to someone. Jack had done it to her when he walked out of her life and never came back. That was why she never had any second dates. But in all honesty she's had plenty of "dates" with her partner. She just doesn't call them that. She already works with the blonde detective but she somehow ends up spending more time with him outside of work which she really isn't complaining about because after all the time they've spent together she knows Deeks will always have her back. And that is what scares her. He has been with her and saved her life countless of times. He had managed to worm his way into her heart a long time ago.

And it hurt. It hurt to see him suffer along with Sam and she couldn't take him back because he had to stay longer to finish off the case. She could see the pain and agony on his face and it hurt that he refused to look at her when she begged him to while he was laying on the hospital bed after they had finally taken him and Sam away for immediate medical treatment.

Here she was now sitting at a place where her partner had made it his sanctuary. The breeze blew hair onto her face and as she watch a little boy surf at a distance she remembers that Deeks never had that. In some way they were so similar yet so different. She had despised the man at the beginning but grew to admire the man he became from what he had experience during his childhood. Everywhere she looks there's a reminder of him even the littlest of things and she can't help that he will always be with her even though he is physically not.

"Kens…?"

Startled Kensi looked up to find Sam and motioned for him to sit down.

"You know he's a fighter. I had never liked him in the beginning but he proved himself time and time again. I owe him deep gratitude for not giving up Michelle….for just being the best detective I've ever met. He might have had a lot of rough times but the man turned out well. He earned his place at NCIS Kens and I hope you will help us keep him there."

Wiping a tear that slid down her face Kensi composed herself hoping to find her voice. "He grows on you." She scoffs at that but knows that he misses the Deeks, want to visit him in the hospital after Hetty insisted that he goes back for a 24 hour observation. Sam managed to convinced the stealth operations manager that he will be alright at home with Michelle there.

"He does….he does. He took a blow Kens. A lot of them and he didn't give up. You shouldn't too. Don't let him go. Hold on. You will never agree on everything but meet him in the middle. Do not hold yourself out. You can't be doing this job forever. Think about it alright. Say hi to him for me when you go and visit him later."

And with that Sam left her to her thoughts. She had to do something or say something. Deeks has been giving most of the time. Now it was her turn. She just doesn't know how to go about it. She needed to give him answers and now before it's too late.