What if this never happened? What if I didn't let myself fall in love? I should have known that I wouldn't have found the one at age sixteen. I was foolish, dumb, stupid. If only I could take it all back…
It all started at the party. It was Hinamori Amu's birthday celebration. She was turning thirteen and Tadase and Ikuto both decided to throw her a party. Being Ikuto's sister, I was pretty much dragged into this celebration. Of course, I would've gone no matter what, considering I'm one of Amu's best friends. The party was being held at Tsukasa's beach house, which was three stories tall. I had walked into the party, in a formal dress since we had to dress formally. I was greeted by the guardians and Amu's school friends were shocked to see me. They almost litteraly passed out. They begged me for autographs. I had given in, and signed shoes, hats, and much other things.
"You seem especially annoyed, aren't you used to this?" I turned and faced Kukai Souma. My eyes lit up, dropping a shoe, as I ran over to him, hugging him. I let go, and I smiled slightly.
"Kukai, how are you?" I asked him.
"Fine, I suppose…" Kukai answered. He didn't flash one of his original smiles, surprising me. I decided to shrug it off, handing my present to Amu.
"Thanks Utau!" Amu said, smiling.
"No problem." I answered, Kukai following us. He looked nervous about something, as if he was ready to say something. Amu ran off to greet Nagihiko who had just walked in.
"Utau… I need to talk to you." I faced Kukai, a look of concern on my face.
"Alright, sure." We walked up the stairs onto the balcony. It was late at night. The ocean moved across the beach, dancing its way up on the shores. It would be a perfect place to propose, but Kukai was only fourteen and I was sixteen so clearly that wasn't it. I realized Kukai was watching me, so I faced him, forcing a smile.
"Utau… I love you…" I turned a tint of red, and didn't hide it. "I thought I could be with you forever. We could be like… magnets, sticking together. It would have been perfect, opposite sides attracting. However… It's not going to happen and I'm tired of living this fantasy. It's over… us I mean. I-I-I have to, I mean I'm breaking up with you." Kukai looked miserable. My first thought was anger. How could this kid make me fall in love and then destroy me from the inside out? I was in love, and I almost never wanted to let go.
"How could you?" I screamed.
"I'm sorry, but…"
"Don't." I demanded, tears coming to my eyes. I turned to the beach. They no longer seemed beautiful, just waves like the ones coming from my eyes. I wanted to be in the waves, swim there so badly. I felt my legs move to the edge of the balcony. I felt his eyes on me, but I didn't care. I leaned forward, watching the sea. What would happen if I simply jumped? I tried to get rid of all of those thoughts. Kukai wasn't all that mattered. I took one step closer to the balcony, when I saw an X-Egg fly by. X-Eggs… a lost dream, like Kukai and I. I reached out for the egg, trying to hold it in my hand. I felt my hand grasp it, when the world went downward.
"Utau!" I heard Kukai cry, but it was distant; All that happened was the ground was coming closer to my body. I only realized that I was falling when it was too late.
"Kukai… I didn't want to lose you, but this is what you get for breaking my heart!" I screamed, when the world disappeared from sight.
I felt like writing a Kutau, I haven't really wrote a fanfic in a while. It's short, but this is the prologue.