How Do You Deal With It?
We all deal with it in our own way.
Gibbs
goes home drinks bourbon and works on his boat for hours then goes to sleep just to forget that bit longer.
McGee
sits up most of the night writing his new book or playing some Mcgeeky game just to lose himself in a make believe world where the good guys always win but in the reality it's never that simple and sometimes the good guys don't always win.
Abby
goes bowling with her nuns or stays at home and has a quite night in or goes clubbing or whatever she does just to have fun to settle her mind and remember that there can be good times.
Ziva
fights or goes out for a meal or cooks for her friends at her place or goes to Abby's place or something to release the anger and to actually laugh and relax just for a little while.
Ducky
goes home and tends to his mother just so he can think he can make a difference and to feel alive for a while. It's like when he talks to the bodies while at work it's just so he doesn't deal with seeing that dead persons face.
Me (Tony)
I run for a while just to run it out of my mind to get rid of it or I run to where the rest of the team live, I don't knock on their door or go inside I just stand outside in the shadows and look at their house as see the windows and look at the shadows as I can tell whether there are okay if there are I leave if not I'll go inside and comfort them whether it's just being there, talking, listening or just holding them then I go back to work to deal with the paperwork to get it out of the way so I do have to think back or about it again then I go home and watch my movies just like McGee just to loose myself and forget what happened, what I have seen, just to forget it ever happened and the reasons and I sit there watching movie after movie until I fall asleep on the couch.
We all deal with it in our own way but one thing we know is that we still have each other no matter what happens