The Stopped Heart
A/n: firstly, I would love to thank my wonderful beta reader romance in the rain who really helped me out on this whole thing. Thanks!
Disclaimer: I don't own twilight, the characters… so yeah… too bad!
Chapter 1:
"I need you to do this for me, even if you don't want to. I want your lips the last ones that touch me. I want you inside me. I want to be bonded with you forever. Please, I am begging you to do this for me." Bella pleaded in a hushed tone. She stared deeply into Edwards's eyes. Expressing to him how much she loves, and cares for him. She wanted to be with him forever and ever, have him in her, and love him for eternity.
He was quiet. Starring into her eyes without the slightest hesitation to look away.
"What if something goes wrong? What if you change your mind, and its too late. What if-" Edward answered, also in hushed tones.
"Nothing- nothing will go wrong. I will never change my mind; I love you, and want to be with you forever. I want you to do it. I do not want anyone else to do it. You. No one else, only you. Will you please do it? I know your opinion; I know you want me to be mortal, human, and to live a life. But I cannot do that. I need you to do this for me, I need, want, and am asking- no, begging, you to do it! I need it!" She raised her voice, and intensified her expressions.
"But- Your soul. It will be gone forever. Your heart… it will," Edward glanced down, "stop… beating."
"My heart will always be there, the love will still be here." She said, pointing to her heart. "Your heart, your love, your- compassion for people, and things, are still there… here." She put her other hand on his heart. She felt nothing, no beating, and no warmth. There was still something there. Something more than a beating heart, more than life. There was the love that he held in there, in that spot, for her, and everything else.
His head dropped. He grasped her hands. Leaned his forehead on them, and whispered, "For you, I will do anything. I love you." He then quickly got up and walked across the room.
They had been in Edwards's room, sitting cross-legged on the floor.
Bella's hands started to shake. She looked at them, and then looked at Edward. He was in the corner, looking out the window. He glanced over at her. She got up, and ran over to him, flinging her arms around him. Not in joy, or sadness, just in… love. "I love you too. I hope you will never, ever, feel remorse about doing this for me. I want this, truly I do. I love you."
"I know you do. I know…" Edward kissed Bella's forehead and then looked out the window again, deep in thought. "It's just hard. It's always going to be hard for me."
They stood in silence for a long time. No sound at all coming from either of them, until suddenly Bella asked, "When?"
"After we are married. After graduation." There was sadness in his voice.
"I'm sorry." Bella was not really sorry, not truly. She wanted this, and now she had a yes. But in exchange, she was hurting Edward. And for a long time, she was thankful that he couldn't read her thoughts.