Okay, so this will be long! So review review review! (Warning: This will probably be depressing then happy then depressing and yeah, EMOTIONS! Fluff and pain and SO MUCH MORE! Get ready for a rollercoaster or emotion and feels :D ) BTW! This is very unlike the book, I was just feeling it IDK. So anyways: READ!
Disclaimer: I don't own The Host. If I did, I just don't even know...
Jamie P.O.V
I looked around as the air whizzed by. I smiled, feeling the sun dust my hair and cheeks. This was going to be fun! I've always daydreamed about the thought of a raid. I inhaled the dusty desert air and wondered what we would find in this raid. I was drooling over the idea of ice cream when suddenly the car came to a top. I looked around and saw a store. It was called, "Store". Typical. The souls were mostly predictable. I turned to Jared.
"Now what?" I asked.
"Now we go in" he said, stepping out and ushering everyone in.
We all ran in and grabbed stuff. I thought I saw someone grab some whiskey, mabey they'll have a party! I grinned at the idea. We hurried out of the store, happily accomplished. We drove home and ran into some Seekers. Before they could pull us over, we drove to a hotel. We got 3 rooms in total. I watched Jared walk to his room, with a bottle in hand. I followed him quietly, and hid out behind a chair, watching him.
Jared P.O.V.
I walked into my room, carrying my personal whiskey bottle. I missed Melanie. It hurt. Oh my gosh it hurt. Seeing Wanda made it worse. I liked Wanda and all, don't get me wrong. But her face, well Melanie's face, it haunted my nightmares still. When we are on the raid today, I stole some whiskey. I wanted to forget her for a night. I drank from the bottle straight and felt dizzy. I sighed and drank a bit more. Then I saw someone step from behind the chair in the corner.
Jamie P.O.V.
I stepped timidly from behind the chair and looked at Jared. What was he doing? "Hey Jamie" he slurred. I nodded and he took a swig. He was starting to scare me, but I took a breath and sat next to him. "What's up?" I asked him. "Thinking" he answered. I nodded, "About what?" I asked. He sighed and said, "Melanie, as always." I nodded and said, "Well, seeing Wanda sometimes helps me think that Mel's still there, ya know?" His face turned red. "WHAT?" he growled. I backed up, "I just mean, seeing Melanie's face sometimes-" He cut me off standing, "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? SHE'S GONE! A PARASITE HAS CONTROL OF HER!" I got up and backed away from him. "I mean just Melanie's face, it helps Jared" He growled again, "STOP SAYING HER NAME!" he said, then backhanded my face. I gasped and looked at him.
Jared P.O.V.
I breathed heavily and took another swig. I shook my head and looked over, and saw Jamie cowering slightly. I rolled my eyes, "Man up!" I barked. Jamie stood straight and said, "Melanie wouldn't want you to feel like this." Her name. I couldn't take it anymore. And his face, it was so like hers. The eyes, the hair, the bone structure. He hurt me. He just couldn't be here. I walked up to him and shoved him down to the floor, "I SAID DON'T SAY HER NAME!" I screamed again. The kid looked me in the eye and said, "Melanie" I shook with rage, he was just too like her. I kicked him and sent him sprawling. Jamie grabbed his ribs and looked at me frantically. I was cracked, and so was he. I charged him, kicked him again and again. Then he did something that shocked me. He punched me in the jaw, with an audible crack. I reared back and drew a dagger.
Jamie P.O.V.
I looked at Jared, dagger in hand. SO this was it, was he going to kill me? I prayed he wouldn't. I knew he wouldn't. I grabbed my aching ribs and stared him down. He drove it down and sliced my leg. I wanted to scream, but I wouldn't let myself. Jared looked at me, expecting a cry of pain, but I bit my lip until I tasted blood. Jared set the knife down and I saw his eyes start to shift back to reality, away from their drunken state. I sighed in relief and let out a small whimper.
Jared P.O.V.
I heard a small whimper, and that was it. I completely snapped back. Jamie! I hurt him, oh no, I hurt him. I rushed over and scooped him up. He wriggled, "LET GO'A ME!" he shrieked, but I held tight. "Shh Jamie, you have to know I didn't mean any of that, you have to know you-" He cut me off wordlessly with his large eyes, shinning with tears. I looked at his leg and hung my head quietly. "Jamie" I said quietly. He said three words that broke my heart, "I hate you". He said it with all the anger a hurt child can and I felt my heart, literally breaking. He looked at me again, "And Mel would too" I raised my hand to hit him again He flinched hard and pitifully. Then, I dropped it quickly again. I looked at him, "You have good reason to". Jamie shook his head, "I don't really hate you all the way, but I'm mad." I nodded, "Let me heal you" I said. He shook his head no. I sighed and said, "I'm going to clean you up." He set his jaw stubbornly.
Jamie P.O.V.
I looked at him and mustered as much hate as possible, then softened a bit. I'd never seen Jared look so regretful. I sighed and let him wash my wound with water and wrap it with a cloth. I also let him bandage my ribs and ice my face. I fell asleep quietly. The next morning, I woke up and looked over at Jared. He's sleeping. I woke him up and he nodded at me, then appeared frantic, "We have to go! They'll find out soon!" He rounded everyone to the car and we drove off.