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Hailey's POV
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"Dinner is ready, Hailey. Come downstairs baby." mom called out to me.
My mom's name is Nicole Stone. Me & my mom shifted to England a few months ago from France. And now we're staying in a small house in a town name Sparrow Town. My mom is a single mother right now. Me & my mom were like best buddies more than a mother & daughter relationship. But the relationship is getting distant for my mom being busy most of the time in office work. As she is a new worker in the office she had to cooperate with her colleagues & boss a lot for a good income & help. She does all the maintenance work in the office & its really time consuming. So she is always late for home.
My dad's name is Dan Stone. He has always supported me from all sides. He was a great dad. He loved me so much. My dad is a businessman. Dad didn't come with us. He is staying in France with his dumb new wife Jade & son.
My dad, Dan and my mom, Nicole got divorced when I turned 17. Because my dad was involved in an affair with Jade, his office colleague. Before the affair he was the best dad to me. My dad & mom had love marriage. They loved each other so much. We were a happy family. But what happened to dad suddenly he left us for Jade. And of course dad & Jade also got married after the divorce was officially done.
I had to visit my dad once in 3 months. Its been a year my mom & dad got divorced & also the marriage of dad. I'm 18 now. I had to visit dad just because my mom always force me to. I hate dad from the core of my heart. And mom knows it. She wants me to visit him just to let him see me. Mom says dad still loves me but I don't believe. If he loves me why he left me & mom for Jade & his son. But then she says her dialogue you've to understand always. I mean what will I understand, I'm a grown up 18 year old girl. I really hate dad & I don't wanna visit him. Mom tried her best to remove my hatred for dad. But it was of no use.
"Hailey?" Mom called out to me again.
"Coming mom just give me a second." I was getting ready for dinner in my room. I came downstairs to see mom waiting for me on the table.
"I cooked your favorite curry today for the dessert. First have your dinner then we're gonna have the dessert. Is it ok?" mom asked smiling at me as she served my food. I nodded in approval keeping my eye on a book I was reading.
"Thanks mom." I said as she finished serving my food & I was still on the book. Books really attract me so much. They introduce me totally to a new imagination. And there's so much to learn from it. I'm really addicted to books.
"Eat your dinner first & then read the book." Mom softly ordered me as usual keeping a smile just to keep me happy. But I don't like her fake smiles or laugh. All she does that to keep me comfortable & cheerful with her like I used to be.
"Ok." I put my book aside. And pushed my glasses a little further when mom happily but a bit angrily glared at me. I raised my eyebrow at her confusingly.
"You shouldn't push your glasses tightly to your nose. It'll create marks on the nose. And why you wear that all the time. Now put it aside." mom ordered me. I've to definitely do what she says otherwise she'll just argue argue & argue.
"Ok." I gave her a pissed off look as I placed my specs near to my book & ate my dinner silently.
"So, excited for the first day in Warring High tomorrow in these new beautiful town?" mom asked as she took a bite of her salad.
"Warring High?" I asked confusedly with no idea what was Warring High.
"Oh dear your new high school's forgot already." mom playfully punched my shoulder.
"Oh, I remember." I recalled the name of the disgusting high school. Oh I forgot, I was also getting admitted to a high school nearby the town. Its been months I stopped going to high school for some family issues.
"So, are you excited?" mom asked again hopefully looking at me. She was more happy and excited to get me admitted the high school. I mean seriously, there's nothing interesting in it.
"Listen mom. I know why
you brought me in this dirty Sparrow Town. I don't even like its name. And moreover you're admitting me in a high school called Warring High. All you're doing this just to annoy me. I was never much excited before these. Now will you please let me have my dinner without anymore questions." I told her half yelling & a bit sarcastically. She was acting so weird. What's there to be excited about going in a high school.
"Ok as you say dear. But I bet dear you're gonna have lots of friends this time. Get ready for a new start." mom said keeping a straight smile in her face & she never goes off her smile in front of me.
This time I didn't say anything. I just ate my dinner quickly to get to bed & getting rid of mom's questions.
Before going to bed I apologized to mom for my rude behavior to her.
I really don't mean to hurt her. But I just get frustrated sometimes & I wanna kick everything off out of my life.
"Never mind." mom replied giving me a reassuring smile.
I went to my room and sat with my laptop. I decide to know about the Warring High so that I don't really embarrass myself at high school tomorrow.
I saw some pictures of the high school. The high school is pretty big. And guess what. It is the most popular high school in Sparrow Town.
I searched for the library pictures. To my surprise the library was very pretty and big. Totally out of my thoughts. I got really excited these time to go to the Warring High.
I am a nerd what else can make me happy and excited other than a room full of books. And who knew after acting so much like nerds I would really get addicted to books.
I wasn't like this at all. I was always very interested in sports. I was a really frank girl loved by everyone & easily get mixed with everyone. But I also used to be a bitchy type girl. I had lots of friends. I wasn't a bookworm at all. Then something happened suddenly to totally change me.
Only me, Nicole, Dan & Jade knows & my only diary, where I shares my things. It's my only best friend even though I don't get a reply from it.
I was one happy girl and I also had a great sense of humor. And was a very cheerful girl. But everything changes with time.
Can anyone bring the real me back?
That's the only thing my mom always wish for me. She wants the happy, cheerful and beautiful me back.
She always wants someone to come in my life and save me from sadness, silence & frustration to life. She always prays for else a mother can do after losing all her attempts.
After all a mother's prayer can hold so much powerful blessings and hopes. And I hope her prayers come true. But I know no one will be able to make me forget my past and bring me back to me.
I fell asleep after my research on Warring High. Mom came into my room. Stroked her hands over my hair. Tears came from mom's eyes. She quickly cleaned her tears off.
She tries to remain cheerful as much as she can in front of me to make me, her princess forget the past.
"Mom?"
"Yes dear." mom replied trying to stop the sobbing but failed.
"Why are you crying?I am really sorry for my rude behavior." I apologized again thinking I may be the reason of her cry.
"No, it is not that. Can't you just forget the past and forget your hatred for you dad? Please." mom asked with hopeful glance in her eyes.
"I just can't. He not only hurted me but he also hurted you. He is so selfish. I'll never be able to love him. He only deserves my hatred." I yelled still having hatred for dad. Why do I even call him dad.
"But-"
"No but. He hurted you & you still love him. Just leave him mom. He don't deserve your love. Leave him with his Jade." I shouted at the top of my lungs.
"I don't love him anymore. He's your dad, you should remember it & love him. Ignore my condition." mom told remaining totally calm.
"Leave me alone. Please. Just go & sleep." I replied silently thinking that she expect me to ignore her condition because of dad.
I can't ignore her condition not even mine because & because of only Dan.
Nicole went to her room after giving me a goodnight kiss.
I started frustrated I went to the washroom to find my best friend at the time of sadness & frustrations. My secret blade.
Out of frustration I did a bit deep cut on my arm. Blood was coming hugely. I got a little scared.
But I calmed myself down after washing the blood away but the bleeding didn't stopped completely. I ignored it completely & went to bed hoping for a good day tomorrow.