A/N Sorry for the awful title I couldn't think of anything to call it! Warning hints of MPreg. For me the person he wanted to start again with was Ianto but you can put whoever you want there. Please review!
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Thinking back he misses it. Seems strange because before it happened he could imagine nothing worse than to be dragged out of bed every night by screaming, to have to change the stinking nappies and, as she got older, to have to help her with everything, to be expected to be there whenever she needs him and to praise whatever she sticks in his face. Now though he views it differently. Hindsight he tells himself. Rose-tinited glasses. But still. He thinks about the warm weight of the baby when he holds her at night, about her first little smile and her first garbled word. Misses the trust she gave him, the fact that if she was ill or had a nightmare she would come to him because he was Dad and could solve everything. He missed the pride she showed in her drawings, the scribbled Daddy under a huge smiling face. He misses the little voice she used and even the fact that she had him wrapped around his finger.
But now she's gone. All grown up without him.
That's how it always is for him. They always go on without him and he has no choice but to watch them go.
He swore he would never do it again but... He does miss it and well... Maybe this time he found the right one? Maybe this time Torchwood would not get between them. Maybe even if it did the Doctor would help. Maybe it was time to try again because... Well he missed his child once and he's gonna make damn sure he doesn't miss one again, even if it's only the idea of one.