One Moment To Watch
I didn't realize how much could happen in one moment. When one second you're fine and the next, you feel your life crumbling in around you, trapping you, consuming you in every negative emotion you can remember.
At this particular moment however, I felt nothing. I know I should've felt something, anything, but there was nothing to feel. I was completely numb.
But these moments only last for a short while. And once they end, you're able to feel again, you're back in the world of the living, yet you're still empty. Because you've just lost a part of yourself, you're broken.
And broken is the only word to describe it. The second I returned from this moment, I felt the pain of another. It pierced my skin somewhere I cannot recall and I could do nothing but let out a scream that voiced my agony. I grabbed my chest as I felt the blood in my body pounding most vigorously there, however I couldn't feel a single thing. And then, as I settled my tired eyes on the trembling body in front of me, I realized it was my heart. My heart had broken. Broken at the sight of my servant, of my friend, of my brother, curled in a shaking ball on the floor, clutching his chest. The blood seeped through his fingers, stained his clothing and splattered onto the stone floor. And his tears… His tears will always be there, tattooed into my head, forever.
As my confused mind untangled itself, I began to recall and understand what had just happened. My heart was hurting from a pain in my chest, and my chest was hurting from an arrow, which lay embedded in his limp body. I could feel his pain, but I couldn't take it away from him. I couldn't even move; all I could do was watch.
Watch like I did when he raised his hand against the merciless army destroying the city. Watch like I had when a blazing wall of fire rose from the soil and forced the armies apart. Watch like I did as the arrow impaled his heart, and in turn, broke my own.
Watch as my servant, my friend, my brother died to save us, to save me.
Magic; it's not a bad thing.
Hello, I hope this is okay. It's pretty late and I needed to write something and this is what happened. I'm sorry if it's really painful or cheesy but after the bad new about Merlin, I felt this had to be written. Thanks for reading :)