A/N: So yes, I've started another LUX fic! I'm also writing the first chapter of another one as well which will hopefully be up tomorrow and was once again inspired by red lighting. Also, another chapter for Can't Go Back Now, Sweet Child Of Mine and They'll Never Know should be up over the weekend. What can I say, I'm feeling extremely motivated :)

But I literally just dreamed this, woke up and felt the overwhelming urge to write it at 2:47am.

So basically, Cate never gave Lux up so it'll follow their lives (well at least main stages in their lives) from birth until age sixteen. There's already an awesome "Cate never gave Lux up" fic on this board (Life Discovered! :) I suggest you all read it coz it's awesome!) but I wanted to try it from Lux being a baby and Cate still in high school. Baze is still a jerk... at least in the few half :)

Please review and let me know if I should continue!

Chapter One- Hold Onto Hope Love

Cate had called him the second she felt the first contraction. It wasn't planned, nor did she expect him to pick up, but Baze was the person she had instinctively dialed when she first went into labor.

As she had thought, Baze ignored her call though Cate didn't know if it was intentional or not seeing as it was close to 2am. Cate pulled herself out of bed, not even noticing she was crying until her tears hit her hand which currently held her swollen stomach.

She padded down the hallway and opened her mother's bedroom door, standing in the threshold. "Mom?" Cate's voice quivered though Laverne heard her and looked up groggily.

"Cate?" Laverne had tried to stay as sober as she could over the last few months, vowing to support her daughter through her pregnancy no matter how much she disapproved. "What's wrong?"

Cate didn't get a chance to reply before a splash of fluid spoke for her, and she began to cry harder. Laverne jumped out of bed and rushed over to Cate, grabbing her arms to support her.

"I'm scared." Cate cried as Laverne helped her into the bathroom, knocking on Abby's door and turning on the lights in the process.

Laverne smiled at her reassuringly, cupping her cheek. "I know you are but I'm going to be right there with you, honey. It'll all be over in a few hours."

Cate shook her head, crying harder as Laverne helped her out of her wet clothes and yelled for Abby to get her some clean ones. "I don't want to do it anymore."

"It's a little too late for that, sweetie."

Abby emerged in the doorway a few minutes later, still half asleep. "What's going on?"

"Your sister's in labor." Laverne spoke surprisingly calm, instructing both Cate and Abby what to do.

Laverne and Abby helped Cate down the stairs and into the car minutes later, Cate switching between crying and screaming the entire short drive to the hospital.

Cate was settled into a room quickly, though with the rate her labor progressed at, Cate was in the delivery room three hours after arriving.

Cate felt like she was someone else as she pushed, letting her body take over; there was just no way that she, 4.0 GPA perfect attendance record she could be having a baby.

Before she knew it, the birth was over and Cate felt an overpowering sense of emptiness fill her instantly. She began to cry harder, not sure what else to do as her mom comforted her and they both watched the baby being cleaned.

The nurse came over a few minutes later and smiled at her, baby in arms. "Would you like to hold your daughter?"

Cate instinctively shook her head through everything inside of her told her differently. She knew that the second she held the baby, the second she held her daughter, she would want her, and Cate couldn't let herself.

Cate dropped back against the pillows exhaustedly and Laverne placed a kiss to her forehead. "You did so great, honey." She whispered, though Cate could hear the sadness in her voice.

Cate closed her eyes through the tears still slipped through, and tried to imagine she was anywhere else than where she was right now. More than anything she wanted to hold her baby, her body literally ached for her daughter, but Cate's mind was telling her differently.

"I'm going to go and tell your sister quickly while the nurse gets you mood to a room, okay?" Laverne spoke reassuringly. "I'll be right back."

Cate nodded, signaling it was okay, but to be honest, she was terrified and the last thing she wanted was to be alone.

The nurse came and sat on the edge of Cate's bed with the baby in her arms the second Laverne was out of the room, and Cate couldn't help but look. The baby was fast asleep, but in that moment, Cate knew she couldn't possibly love anything more in the world.

"Would you like to hold her, honey?" The nurse tried again, smiling sadly at her.

Cate's heart took over and she nodded slightly. Slowly the baby was placed in her arms and Cate's crying started once again. "Hi." She whispered, smiling through her tears.

Cate knew she couldn't let her go. She wanted nothing more than to hold her baby for eternity, loving her and protecting her for the rest of her life.

"Cate..." Laverne came back into the room, slightly shocked at the site of Cate holding her baby. They had agreed it would be easier if she didn't hold her; if social services just took her and they got back to their lives.

Cate reluctantly tore her eyes from the baby and looked up at her mom, a mixture of love, hope and fear laced throughout her features.

Laverne sighed, coming over to sit on the edge of Cate's bed. "It's time to say goodbye, Cate." She spoke softly, stroking a hand down Cate's cheek.

"I can't say goodbye." Cate shook her head as she cried, holding the baby closer. "Mommy, I can't let her go." She hadn't called Laverne 'mommy' since she was six, and her tone made her sound like a scared little girl/

"Honey, you are not ready to be a mother. You told me that yourself." Laverne whispered loudly, careful not to wake the baby. "You have school, and college, and your entire life to think about. The agency is going to find her a good home, and parents who can provide her with everything she deserves."

"I can't give her up, mommy." Cate sobbed against the baby's head, kissing it as she shook her own head. "I can't say goodbye."

Laverne sighed, standing up and running a hand through her hair as she thought. "Listen to me. I'll tell you what we're going to do. I'm going to go out there and talk to the lady from the agency." She took a breath. "Tell her that we're going to keep the baby."

"Really?" Cate asked hopefully.

Laverne nodded, thinking everything over. "Yeah... Yeah, but listen, you are going back to school once summer's over. And you're going to get good grades, and graduate top of your class and get into a good college like we planned, okay? And no one has to know. No one's going to know, alright? Do you promise me?"

Cate nodded fiercely, her eyes wide. "Absolutely."

Laverne sighed, rolling her head around stressed. "Okay." She finally said, laughing slightly, not sure if it was from pure insanity or joy. "Okay, I'm going to talk to Abby, and the lady from social services. Are you sure this is what you want to do, Catherine?" Laverne spoke strongly and again Cate nodded fiercely.

"Okay." Laverne sighed, standing up. She placed a kiss on Cate's head, looking at her granddaughter once more before leaving the room.

Cate looked back down at the baby, her eyes tearing up once again though from joy this time. She held the baby closer to herself and kissed her forehead, whispering. "I promise I'm going to be the best mom I can, baby. It's going to be great, okay? I love you so much. I always will."