Disclaimer: I do not own anything related to the fandom -only the plot, some places and some original characters that I use.
P.S. I'm from England so some of the things related to America is pure guess work on how I think things -like travelling- are done in the US
Prologue
Riley's POV
Nothing has been the same since Texas. We have all tried to, I guess, to be normal with each other. I wonder if I was just being delusional into thinking that we can stay the same when I and Peaches love the same guy, but I would never have guessed that we would have changed so much in so little time. I hardly spend any time with Lucas, Maya, Farkle or anybody really. I was coping before with sharing with Maya, you know, Farkle, my parents, the rest of my family -I guess just everything. I wonder why I'm so shocked that it now includes my … whatever I have with Lucas. So I guess I can understand why Maya likes Lucas, but I don't understand why everybody is treating me like they are. Why are they treating me like I don't understand my feelings, why I feel like nobody takes my feelings into consideration and it's all about Maya's feelings -even for my parents- and I just can't take it. Maya is confused and hurt, and I feel like there's a fist around my heart that just keeps squeezing and it's not going away and I have no one to talk to as it's always about Maya's feelings too. I know her feelings are important too -but she has our friends to talk to, Katy, Shawn and my parents too. I just have my journal and it doesn't talk back or give me advice. I'm just so tired of being ignored because this is Maya's time and I have to pretend that I'm still Ditzy or Smiley Riley when all I want to do is just cry and scream for somebody's attention. We both love Lucas, yet I feel like I've had my time to talk about my feelings about him and now it's Maya's time. I just don't know if I'm being selfish or not for wanting somebody to talk to.