Disclaimer: I do not own Deathnote.
My first DN fic. Excuse the blatant OOCness.
40 seconds...
I'm dying. I have 40 seconds left to live.
39 seconds...
I wanted a new world. I wanted a world without criminals, when I am a criminal myself. I wanted the impossible.
38 seconds...
I thought I was punishing those who deserved punishment. I never considered the number of innocent people who died because of my greed - Kiyomi, L, Rem...I hurt Misa in the process. I caused my father's death. I spewed out lie after lie to the ones I love and trust. I considered killing Sayu. I considered killing my sister...my own sister...
37 seconds...
I was a teenager who was carried away by power. I thought I could control it. I thought I was doing the right thing. I saw it as a game I played to ease boredom.
I played a dangerous game. And I lay dying here because of it.
36 seconds...
I'm an adult male now. I know what I did was wrong. I only realise it when I feel the effects of the Death Note. It's too late to change anything now. My guilt will not bring back the people I killed. My guilt will not change the fact that I killed them.
35 seconds...
Is this how the people I killed felt? Did they feel scared, like I do now? Did 40 seconds seem like an eternity to them?
Were they even aware of the fact that they would never wake up again?
34 seconds...
I am scared. I don't want to admit it - I don't have the strength to admit it. I want someone to hold me and comfort me. I want someone to tell me everything will be fine.
33 seconds...
The warehouse ceiling blurs and becomes a swirl of grey and white. My hands tremble as I raise them slightly.
40 seconds is a long period of time.
32 seconds...
Is this what death is like? Where will I go after death? Ryuk told me once that those who use the Death Note go to neither Hell, nor Heaven. Where will I go then?
31 seconds...
I loved my family. I really did. It was painful to watch my father's life slip away slowly in front of my eyes.
The fact that, the only thing I could think of then was my plan pains me even more than losing him.
30 seconds...
Will I be found? Will people cry for me? Otou-san. Okaa-san. Sayu....
29 seconds...
My breath hitches and a lone tear slides off the side of my face. I want to brush the tear away, but I can't lift my hand to do so.
28 seconds...
I never thought death would claim me when I'm still so young.
27 seconds...
Ryuk is floating over me. I try to focus on him, but my vision is blurring. The warehouse spins faster than it did before.
26 seconds...
I always thought I would accept death wordlessly when it claimed me. Now the prospect of death scares me.
25 seconds...
I see L's face. His empty, obsidian eyes bore into mine. I try to touch him but my arms feel like lead. I wonder if he is real or if I am bordering on being delusional. I can't tell the difference between what is real and what isn't anymore.
24 seconds...
I hear L's voice. It's loud and it vibrates in my ears.
23 seconds...
"So you really were Kira, Light..." I wince at his comment.
22 seconds...
L's face vanishes and is replaced by Misa's. She looks real to me. She reaches out and strokes my face. Her hands are gentle.
21 seconds...
"Oh Light..." I don't pull away from her touch, although she sends pain ripping through me when she lays a hand on my arm.
20 seconds...
Misa pecks my forehead. Her lips are warm. She isn't real. She's a hallucination. But in my delusional state, her embrace seems real enough to me and brings me relief.
19 seconds...
Misa is no longer by my side. I am truly alone.
18 seconds...
Time is ticking away at a snails pace. I wish I would die quickly and painlessly, but that isn't going to happen.
17 seconds...
My father's image looms over me. His expression is grim.
16 seconds...
I wait for him to say he's disappointed in me.
15 seconds...
I wait.
14 seconds...
It never comes. He smiles sadly at me.
13 seconds...
Will I be forgiven - by the families of my victims?
12 seconds...
Will my family accept the fact that I was Kira?
11 seconds...
I was Kira. I was a criminal. Now, I am Yagami Light. I am a dying man.
10 seconds...
Pain blossoms in my chest and rips through me.
9 seconds...
I try to scream out at the pain that's coursing through my battered body, but I can only manage groans and moans.
8 seconds...
I shake pathetically. Did Ryuk kill me out of pity? I was injured rather badly from the gunshots. Did Ryuk choose to end my life to put me out of pain?
7 seconds...
I wonder...is it death I'm scared of or leaving the life I led prior to my death I'm scared of. Am I scared of leaving Sayu and mother? I can vaguely make out Ryuk's cackling.
6 seconds...
"Good...bye..." I mumble through teeth gritted in pain.
5 seconds...
I'm about to die.
4 seconds...
Life is really short. Ryuk's laughter beings to sound dull.
3 seconds...
I don't want to die. Not yet.
2 seconds...
Not yet...someone...help...it's pointless to ask for help. I am going to die.
1 second...
Everything around me fades to black.
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