All or Nothing
I do not own Twilight. It belongs to Stephenie Meyer.
Chapter 1
J.P.O.V
It's been about five years and Bella and I were dating now. We were on our way to the movie theater to see Romeo and Juliet (it's been remade by a new group of actors). Bella was looking out the window as we drove through Forks. I could tell that she was thinking about him. See, he left her five years ago, and she's never really been the same. I reached out to grab her hand but she pulled it away, still looking out of the window. I wish I could tell what she really thought about our relationship. She always does this. When she gets really bad, all she does is sit there, froze, clinging to her chest. I feel totally helpless. I wish I could save got to the theater and I didn't move. I asked her if she really loved me. All she did was smile and nod her head. That was all I needed to really know where her heart was. "Bella, he's not coming back." I said. "It's been five years. Let him go." With that she opened the car door and stormed into the theater. I followed her trying to reason with her. "I want all of you. I want to know where you want this to go." I said. I was pleading with her by now for her to see what was really happening. "I don't think I'm ready for that, Jake." She said. "Bella, sweetie, it's been five years. I doubt that they're going to come back. Besides, I won't let you suffer any longer." I said. "Tell me what you want me to do." I pleaded. "I want you to drop it and let's see the movie." She said. We got in line and I paid for the tickets. We got to our seats and I got her order of snacks and went to buy them. When I got back, she had that distant look in her eyes again. I sat down, gave her the snacks that she wanted, and wrapped my arm around her shoulders. As I did, she snuggled up to me, like she always did, and settled in to watch the movie. Half way through I looked down because I felt moisture on my shirt. She was crying. I brought her face up to mine and began wiping the tears away. "What's wrong, Bella?" I asked. "Can you take me home? I don't think I want to finish the movie." She said.
When we got to the car, I opened the car door and helped her in. She was still sobbing when I got into the driver's seat. "What's wrong?" I said again as I turned the key in the ignition. "I-it…j-just…" she broke off. "It reminded you of him, didn't it?" I finished her statement. "Y-yes." She said in between sobs. We were at her house by now and I just sat there holding her as she cried. This was how it always was. I would hold her, not knowing what to do, and she'd cry.
The next day, I got a phone call. "Hey, Baby!" I exclaimed. "Hey, Jake, can I just have the day to myself? I need to do some thinking." She said. "S-sure, Bella, what's wrong?" I asked. "Nothing, I just need some 'me-time', that's all." She said. "Oh, ok." I said as she hung up the phone. Wow, did this really happen? She never was alone unless something was really wrong. I hope she's doing alright.
That night I went over to her house, not really sure what I would find. When I pulled up to the house, her truck was gone, and the house was dark. Charlie hadn't gotten back from work yet so I decided to go look for her myself. I walked up to the door, grabbed the key from above the door, and walked into the dark house. I walked up to Bella's room and found an old scrapbook open and lying on her bed. The picture it was opened to was one of the Cullen's old house, with Bella and Edward standing out in front of it, as if it was their new home or something. I flipped the pages and all I saw were pictures of Edward, Alice, Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie, and Bella, all located at the Cullen's house. I knew where to go look for her. I got into the car and drove to the highway to find the hidden driveway. When I found it pulled in and saw Bella sitting in her truck, holding her chest, and writhing in pain. I jumped out of the car and ran to her to gather her up into my arms.
"J-Jake, w-what are you d-doing h-here?" she said between bouts of pain. "I found the scrapbook and knew that you'd come here. I also knew that you'd need me so I came as fast as I could." I told her. We sat there for a good 45 minutes until she looked up at me and said "I'm sorry I'm such an idiot. I just thought that if I came here…" she broke off, deep in thought. "No, no, no! You're not an idiot. Don't say things like that. I think it was good that you came here just so you can see that they truly aren't coming back." I said trying to soothe her. She looked up at me with a surprised look on her face. "N-no Jake, their stuff is still all in there. I saw it through the windows! I could've sworn I saw Alice dancing around the living room and when I looked at the piano, I saw…him…sitting there playing my lullaby!" she said in excitement as she dragged me out of her truck and up to the windows. "See! It's all there!" she said pointing at empty rooms. "See what, empty rooms?" I asked puzzled. "You don't see them? They're looking right at us with their arms open wide!" she said. "Bella, sweetie, I think you need some sleep. There's nothing inside. It's empty. C'mon, babe, let's get you home." I said pulling her to the truck. I helped her in and buckled her in. She looked at me with a depressed look on her face, saying "I must be losing it, huh? Might as well commit me right now!" "No, Bella. You're just still dealing with losing them. You were the closest to them and I know you need time to heal from it." I told her.
I followed her home so that I knew that she got home safely. When we pulled up to her house, I got out of my car and got up to her truck door just in time to help her out of the cab. I walked her into her house and into bed. I tucked her in and kissed her cheek before turning to go home. "I promise I won't do that again, Jake." She whispered as I walked out of her room. I walked out of the house more confused than ever. What did she think she would find them?
The next day I had planned to stay with Bella all day. I planned a pick nick in the forest, a stroll along first beach, and a bonfire on the beach, just the two of us. When I got to Bella's house, she was sitting on the steps waiting for me. When I got out of the car, she ran up to me, through her arms around my neck, and gave me a big, passionate kiss. When we pulled away, she had my favorite smile on her face. "What's gotten into you?" I asked trying to suppress a laugh. "Just the most amazing man in all of Forks, Washington!" she said but her smile faltered. "What?" I asked. "Nothing that I can't handle." She said with another smile that didn't meet her eyes.
I grabbed the pick nick basket out of the back seat of my car, grabbed Bella's hand, and led her out into the woods. She stopped short on the path with a petrified look on her face. "Jake, not in there, please!" she pleaded. I looked at her and back at the forest. "Oh, I'm sorry, Bella. I didn't know." I said. "It's ok. I guess I never really told you where, did I? Can we go somewhere else?" she asked. "Of course we can." We drove to First Beach and had our pick nick. She was so beautiful in the sun that had come out today; I couldn't keep my eyes off of her.
"What do you think of our relationship?" I finally asked. "I don't know, Jake. I haven't really thought about it, really. I really love you but…" she broke off staring at the waves crash on the sand. "What? Am I not good enough for you? Do I not meet the requirements for you, Bella? Tell me what you want me to do?" I was hurt and you could see it on my face. "I don't know, Jake. I'm just not ready, that's it. I'm still hurt from what he did. He was my first love and I invested my whole life into that relationship. I don't think I could ever really love someone that way again. I'm sorry!" She started to cry as she said this. I pulled her onto my lap and rubbed her back, trying to comfort her best I could. "I'm willing to wait all eternity if I have to." I whispered into her hair.
We sat there like that for God know how long. We just watched as the waves crashed onto the sand, one by one. "What do you want more than anything in the world, right now?" She asked me. I pretended to think about it for a second before saying "You! I want you forever!" She smiled as did I and then she lifted her head and our lips met and moved in perfect synchronization. I backed off a little bit so that I could look into her eyes. I stood us up as I pulled out a box from my pocket. I knelt down on one knee and asked "Bell, my Bella, would you be mine for all eternity? Will you be my bride?" The look she got on her face was priceless as she said "J-Jake, of course I'll be your Bella forever! I will be your bride!" I stood up as I placed the ring on her finger. She jumped into my arms and started showering my face with kisses until she found my mouth. We lay down on the blanket, she was on top, and we kissed until we both needed air.
That night was the best night in my life! A month had passed and it was time for us to make it official. Bella was going to become Isabella Marie Black! I couldn't wait, I felt like a little kid on Christmas morning again! Though, I felt ridiculous in the tux when I just wanted to wear cut offs and no shirt but Bella insisted that I wear this thing. Our song started playing as she walked down the aisle, on Charlie's arm, to where I stood, waiting. Charlie looked proud that I was able to break through to Bella and make her whole again.
We made it through the whole ceremony to the reception with no mishaps. When we got to Bella's house for the reception, something was wrong. I felt something in the air that wasn't right. We walked in to the house so and I saw Charlie talking on the phone with someone. "Dad, who's that?" Bella asked before I had a chance to talk. "It's no one, dear. Go enjoy the reception." Charlie said gesturing to the backyard. As I walked by he grabbed my arm and pulled me into the kitchen with him. "I'll be right there, baby." I said as Bella turned to see what was going on. "Charlie, what is it? Who's on the phone?" I asked with a worried look on my face. Charlie hung up the phone after saying goodbye and looked at me with a worried look, too. "That was the hospital, Carlisle is back working there and they said that Edward is on his way over here to talk to Bella." He said with worry throughout his voice. I stiffened at that as the doorbell rang.
I opened the door and low-and-behold Edward was standing there waiting for someone to invite him in. "What are you doing here, crashing our wedding?" I asked with a little bitterness in my tone. "Your wedding? Wait, Bella is married…to you?" he asked in disbelief. "Yes! After you tore her apart I helped put the pieces back together. She's been badly hurt because of you." I told him. He looked stunned to hear that. "I want to see her." He finally said. "No! I can't let you hurt her again!" I said while I was dragging him to his car and half through him at the car door. "Now get out of here before I call the cops and say you're trespassing!" I had my phone out and ready to dial 9-1-1 when he put his hands up as if to surrender and said "Ok, ok! I'll come back some other time!" "Don't bet on seeing her!" I said as he drove off.
Bella was in the kitchen when I walked in. "Who was that?" She asked when I wrapped my arms around her waist. "Just a wedding crasher!" We both started laughing at that. We heard our names being called from the backyard so we went back there. It was time for the first dance of the married couple so we made it to the dance floor to wait for the song to start. When it started we twirled around the dance floor, staring into each other's eyes, not noticing everyone else in the crowded back yard.