A/N: This is just a idea that I had one night and I just had to write it. It's only 500 words and doesn't at all influence my feelings about the Lily/James ship.
Disclaimer: Any characters that you recognise do not belong to me. They are the property of JK Rowling (the most fantastic aurthor) and no infringement on the copyright is intended.
Any Other Way
Lily's POV
I was never a fan of James Potter. Never one of those adoring girls who followed him around getting excited when he looked their way, or staked out the boys dormitories hoping to glimpse James in his boxers, or less. No, I was one who admired from afar… not that I ever admired James Potter.
He pursued relentlessly, for what reasons, I can't be sure, even today when we're married. If it was love, which he claims it to be, I'm left feeling guilty. For my reason for dating James Potter was nowhere as noble as his. It wasn't love, or even lust for that matter. No it was something far worse.
You see, James Potter at Hogwarts, was such a manufactured person. He had a manufactured way of treating people. For example, girls always got the Potter Charm, so to speak. James Potter always had one way about going about things, and it was so practiced, so perfect, that I hated it. Like I hated him.
But there was one thing about James Potter I didn't hate. And that was his best friend, Sirius Black. Call me ignoble, call me low, because quite frankly I was. My sole motive (very much ulterior in nature) to date James Potter was simply to get closer to Sirius Black.
I thought perhaps Sirius would see me with James, feel a little jealous and then ask me out. I had it all planned out, every little detail of what I was going to do accounted for. What I didn't count on was falling in love. With James Potter.
He was a great boyfriend, really he was. I thought I loved, but I couldn't be sure, not when I had the tiniest bit of doubt in my mind. That tiny bit of doubt niggled away and I couldn't stand it, let alone cope. Surreptitious glances at Sirius became more frequent, it was all I thought about. Doubt consumed me.
I had to know that I was making the right choice being with James. So I did what I had to do. I waited for James to go to Quidditch practice and I cornered Sirius and I kissed him. He was eager, just like me. And although we both knew we were betraying James, yet we continued. We were caught, typically, by Remus. He never told James. Maybe he understood, maybe he had no idea why he caught us.
Anyway, it turned out that I was doing the right thing, being with James I mean. That kiss with Sirius did mean something, we both felt it, but we wouldn't have made each other happy, in the same way James and I do. Sirius was temporary, whereas James, he's forever. Sirius was fun, but James, he's security, safety.
James doesn't know about what happened with Sirius and he probably never will. But I guess the important thing is that wether or not I had to justify it, I love him. And he loves me. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
A/N: And there it is. Trust me I am a strictly Lily/James forever type person, I just had to write this. Please review.