Johnny stared blankly out the window. It was dark and storming harshly out just like his mood. He couldn't believe how one day you felt you know who you were your whole life and the next your whole identity is gone in an instant. He couldn't believe that Sonny Corinthos of all people had come to him with the news that his father wasn't who he thought it was and that Claudia was actually his mother. His mother for god sakes! Claudia had meant everything to Johnny and for him to find out she was his mother because she was taken advantage of as a little girl made him sick. It had explained a lot over the years. Why she was so fierce and protective of him. He always felt her love for him was strong like a mothers but now he knew why. How could Anthony do that to his only daughter Johnny didn't know. It had been a month since he had found out the information from Sonny. He had cut his dad off and out of his life. He had holed himself away from everyone around him and had been on a binge of self- destruction ever since, starting a war with Sonny. He had blown up several of Sonny's properties amongst other means of destruction. Johnny knew that he was out of control but he couldn't find it in himself to care. Everything and everyone he loved was gone. He had never felt so alone.
Johnny sat at his piano knowing he needed something. Anything to reconnect with his old self once again. He chose to play Claire de Lune. It was one of his favorite pieces. It reminded him of his sister. The one person in this world that loved and protected him. Only now he knew why. She was his mother. Pain filled Johnny's heart and tears filled his eyes as he continued to play. If only he could have a day with her. Just one more day to tell her everything he felt and missed. Ask her so many questions. The main one being why? Why didn't she take him away from there? Be his mother or even tell him she was his real mother after Maria was shot. So many questions and no way to ask them. The tune changed and he began to play Sonata number fourteen. A dark and sad song that matched his mood. Johnny played for hours and hours till he felt his hands cramping from pain. He sighed closing the lid when suddenly there was a knock at the door. He wasn't in the mood to see anyone tonight. He hadn't seen anyone since Ethan had been by last. He told his friend to take care of things for awhile without explanation. That he wouldn't be talking for awhile. Ethan was concerned but Johnny assured him it was something he had to do and Ethan accepted what he was saying but Johnny was sure by now that Ethan was wondering what was going on. Especially with the bombing of Sonny's warehouses. The one thing that Johnny did make sure of was that no one was to be hurt. He knew that Michael worked out of one of the warehouses and Johnny made sure it wasn't touched. Johnny always liked Michael and knew he was a good guy. He couldn't make him a casualty of this war.
Johnny went to the door and opened it to find Kristina Corinthos at his door. He was shocked to say the least. Wasn't she at Yale? "Kristina?" Kristina smiled warmly at him at first until she took in his appearance. His hair was in disarray and his shadow of a beard starting to come in. His clothes were rumpled and he reeked of alcohol. Her smile changed to a look of concern. "Johnny? What's wrong?" He sighed, closing his eyes, leaning against the door. "What are you doing here?" His voice came out in a bit of a rasp. He hadn't talked to anyone in what felt like days. "I got home from Yale a couple days ago. My exams are done and I get a break. I thought I would visit a good friend. It looks like I came just in time. What's wrong Johnny?" He didn't know what to say. Johnny had always liked Kristina. He felt like they were kindred spirits at times. Both growing up in the business with erratic father's.
Kristina at one time wanted to hurt her father and asked for his help to do it. They had remained friends ever since. "I- nothing." She frowned at his lack of explanation. "Can I come in?" she asked gently. He wasn't sure if he should let her. He didn't think it was good that he was around anyone right now. "Kristina I-" She placed her hand on the door urging him on. "Please." One word that had his walls he had built around himself start to tremor." He said nothing but moved out of the way to let her in. She stepped inside the dark penthouse and her frown deepened into a grimace. No lights were on. She could see an empty bottle lying on the couch, no glass anywhere to be seen. "Johnny I don't understand. What has happened?" Johnny sighed closing the door behind him and turned to look at Kristina. "Have you seen Ethan yet?" he asked, avoiding her question. "Yes of course. He seems to be doing well." She said honestly. "Johnny was surprised at her answer. "You know of Cassandra?" he asked. She nodded. "Yes I have. She is a nice sweet girl." More surprise. "I know that may surprise you Johnny. When I left town I had a lot of time to grow up. Without the constant watch of my family I think I had time to think and assess my life. I came to a lot of conclusions. Ethan was right. I did have just a crush. He was the first guy that listened and understood me. I think I built that up in my mind into feelings for him I didn't have. Honestly we are just friends. HE is my best friend and I am his. We both understand each other and care about each other a lot but that is all there is. When I told him all that over a phone call one night from Yale I think I even heard him fall off his bed he was so shocked. Kinda like the look you are giving me now. I am just glad I never lost him as a friend after everything I put him through. When I saw him finally when I came back it was like all that wasn't even there anymore. Just the love I feel for a best friend. It was relaxed and comfortable without the awkwardness there used to be. We are closer now than before. He even had me meet Cassandra. I am so happy for him Johnny. He deserves someone to love and care for him. However if she hurts him she will deal with me and it won't be pretty." Johnny barked a genuine laugh. The first he had in over a month. "I bet you told her that too." She smiled and nodded. "Cassandra seemed to understand. She said she was glad that Ethan had such good friends. Ethan seemed relieved that all was going well. It feels so good to hang out with him without expectation anymore. "
Johnny smiled at Kristina and gestured for her to sit down. "Glass of wine?" he offered. She nodded and he opened his wine cooler, pouring her a glass of red. "How is Yale?" he asked handing the glass to her. She took a sip and then shook her head. "Uh-Uh. I answered your first question now you answer mine. "She patted the seat next to her and curled her feet up on the couch getting comfortable. "Your turn." Johnny sighed and sat down next to Kristina. "I found out some news that changed my life and everything I thought I knew about myself is now a lie." Johnny got up and using a glass this time, poured himself some scotch. When he came back and sat next to Kristina again she was frowning. "Johnny how much have you been drinking lately? You worry me." He had to admit it felt good that someone was still out there to worry about him. "A lot I guess." He said nothing else. He knew drinking didn't solve his problems but it helped numb the pain. He needed numb. Craved it. "Johnny this can't help you. You know that right? " Johnny sighed. "I'm not an alcoholic Kristina. " She nodded but was still concerned. "Johnny please tell me what happened." Kristina grabbed his hand and squeezed it letting him know that she was here to listen. "I found out that my father isn't Anthony. I am actually a Solito." Kristina's jaw dropped in shock. "H-how?" she questioned. "That is the thing. My sister Claudia is actually my mother. Anthony is my grandfather. My life is a fucking Soap Opera." He cursed. "Anthony used Claudia. Sold her really. She got pregnant with me. They kept it all a secret from me. Maria raised me as hers." Kristina was horrified. "Oh my god." Johnny drank the remainder of his glass, setting it down on the table. "Claudia is my mother. How fucked up is that?" Kristina didn't know what to say. She thought her family had problems. "Johnny, she was a young girl and probably scared out of her mind. I would be. She did love you though. Regardless of how she had you I know she loved you. I saw it in her eyes every time she talked about you or saw you. I always thought what a great sister she was to you but now I understand. I mean Michael and I are close and we are protective of each other but it's different. I totally get now the way Claudia was with you. She was a mother protecting her son. She couldn't tell you in her mind. I don't know why and I don't pretend to but she must have had her reasons. She loved you though. That much I know. Don't doubt that." Johnny knew that Kristina was right. Regardless of why she never told him Claudia had always protected him like a mother would protect her child. He never questioned it because that was all he knew. "I know she loved me. I know. I still love her and miss her so much and I can't even ask her why." Kristina squeezed his hand in comfort. "Johnny why would Anthony tell you this after all these years?"
Kristina didn't understand what his motives would be. Johnny frowned and let her hand drop from his. "He didn't." his voice grew cold and bitter. Kristina didn't understand. "Who would tell you? I don't understand." Johnny got up and went to the window. Johnny knew how much Kristina loved her father. He didn't want to tell her. He couldn't. "It's not important. It is what it is." Kristina scowled. "Who did this to you? They had to know it would hurt you!" Kristina cried. Johnny stared out the window when a soft gasp came from behind him. "Oh my god! Oh my god!" Johnny turned to see Kristina with her head in her hands sobbing. "Krissy? What's wrong?" he went to her and pulled her into his arms. "I know who told you. It was my father wasn't it? I think I am going to be sick." She wailed. "It was him wasn't it?" She looked up into his eyes, mascara running down her face. "How? How did you know?" he whispered. Kristina closed her eyes, not before Johnny could see the deep pain that filled her eyes. The embarrassment. "I heard about the Warehouses blowing up. The attacks on my father's businesses. He was yelling one day about it to Jason when I came to see him. He said it was you. I thought you guys had a truce and I knew something happened to break it but I didn't understand what until now!" Johnny felt guilt for even admitting it to Kristina. "He feels he had his reasons." Kristina huffed between tears. "Like what?" Johnny sighed. "Someone shot Sonny at his office. He thought it was me but it wasn't." Kristina felt anger and embarrassment at her father. "He never told me he was shot." Johnny rubbed her back in comfort. "He wouldn't Kristina. It wasn't critical. He wouldn't want to worry you." Kristina jumped up in frustration. "Why are you defending him after what he did to you?" she cried. "Because as much as it pains me to say this I can be just as vengeful as Sonny. I would have done the same thing if the information came into my hands. He assumed it was me because it usually always is. I don't know who was after Sonny that night but it wasn't me. Don't hate him Kristina. He was only playing the game that we both play everyday. The truce was because of you and Michael. Nothing more. I hate Sonny. Believe me but you need your father in your life. Don't take your family for granted. They love you. Atleast they love you." Kristina frowned at his words. "Johnny your-Claudia loved you. Never doubt that. And as crazy as Anthony is I know he loves you too, though after what he did to her I don't blame you if you don't talk to him." Johnny cursed under his breath. "Believe me I am not talking to him. He is cut off and out of my life. I still have to watch though. I can't have him running around going crazy and hurting people like he tends to do when he is upset. He is still somehow my responsibility." Bitterness filled his voice. Kristina grabbed his hand again. "Johnny I am so sorry for what my father did to you. Even if he did it out of misplaced revenge. I know you hate each other and stuff like this is part of your games but you are my friend. You didn't deserve this." Johnny placed a hand to Kristina's cheek. "It isn't your fault. No worries. I am glad you are back though even if it's just for a short while. I missed you and I know Ethan did as well." Kristina smiled through her tears. "You know I did too. I missed you both so much. You were my only real friends after all that stuff with Keifer. I love you too Johnny. You aren't alone in this world. Ethan loves you too. I know guys aren't supposed to tell each other that stuff but I am telling you. You aren't alone. Anytime you need friends we are there for you." She told him seriously. For the first time in a long time Johnny's cold heart felt warmth from words. Words of caring and love. He hadn't felt that in a long time. "Thank you Krissy. You don't know what it means to me to you hear you say that. " Kristina smiled pulling Johnny into a warm hug. "I think I do Johnny. I think I do."
This is my first work submitted to and i hope i have done it right! Sorry if its confusing being all bunched together like a novel instead of double spaced as some ppl do it