Ok small background on this small piece; I am in a poetry class and I procrastinated until the last minute to write a poem for my week. I was playing Assassin's Creed (shockers) for a majority of my few free weekends that I have, and this idea about Malik reflecting on the death of his brother Kadar popped into my head when I had to go into somewhat great detail about the background of events prior to where I was in the game to my roommate. After finishing the assignment I was on I wrote this and handed it in to the class, where it was then met by hipster reviews telling me it was "too wordy" "feels a bit tired" and "depressing" and my favorite "what happened?". A few people liked the poem and for some reason I decided to share it on the site. Don't know why, because…what the hell why not. Don't be shy to leave comments and reviews (my poetry class is not). Anyway I hope you guys enjoy the piece!
Right Beside Me
I feel you here
Standing right beside me
But you couldn't be
Any further away
The distance between
You and I
Is one that cannot be
Amended with ease
Tears still fall
Down upon my face
For the memory of your name
And I weakly smile
Remembering your face
But I come undone
As I'm reminded of that day
Nights are filled
With mourning and regret
I can hear your voice
I witnessed your pain
And watched your last breath
As it faded away
The guilt that I bear
It eats me alive
I held your hand
We said our goodbyes
There's no comfort
To be found
As torment takes its hold
And I suffer alone
If I could I would
Turn back the time
Retrace every step
Every word
And every moment
That led to your demise
And I would change it all
Just to have you
Here with me now
My only request
Is one that is denied
I wish it were me
You were too young
It was my fault
That your life came to an end
Forgiveness is something
I don't deserve
But I still pray
That my sin can be atoned
Can I live this life
Without you by my side
I'll try to move on
I'll shoulder the blame
I'll live my life for you
Until my time is done
And I'll hold onto the hope
That I'll be granted the chance
To see you again
Until then
I'll stand here alone
With thoughts turning back
To a time and a place
Where you still live
Back to a memory
Where I can see you
Standing right beside me
