I never intended for any of this to happen.

I know how cliché I sound right now, but it's the truth. If you had told me three months ago that my life would be this ruined over one office visit, I would have laughed in your face and told you to fuck off. I have had the dream life ever since moving away to college, it was everything I could have ever hoped for and more. I was succeeding in school and well-liked by my professors, which is pretty rare in my department. I had the greatest friends a girl could ever hope to have, the baddest bitches east of the Pacific Ocean. I was in a loving relationship of 3 years and thought the world of my boyfriend.

Jake was the best boyfriend, extremely handsome and easy to get along with. He was truly the man of my dreams, or so I thought. Everything about loving Jake was easy. We both loved to do the same things which included: smoking weed, video games, and watching awful scary movies, like sharknado. Jake and I never really fought or had problems, I thought I had found Mr. right simply because of this. While all my friends were constantly having relationship issues, Jake and I would be having mind-blowing high sex that always reassured me that he was the one.

I can't pinpoint when exactly I knew I was in love with Dr. Cullen. It still doesn't make any sense when I try to figure out why I'm so attracted to him, nothing about him is what I look for in a guy. He's arrogant and argumentative, and always has to have the last word. He's incredibly pessimistic and constantly brooding from the looks of it, but besides these things that I find so unattractive, he also does certain things that make me forget all his negative characteristics. He's incredibly smart and always looking for ways to help students with the class material, even though he has a TA.

Ugh, speaking of TA, I hate that bitch Tanya. I would partially blame her for my current failure of a life, but she's too incompetent and petty to deserve full credit. Who knew that when your attention whore TA catches you kissing your professor she would report you to the dean?

I guess I should go back to the beginning so that you can fully understand why I'm writing to you, in hopes that you'll find pity on me and help me turn around my so-called life.