Chapter 1.
Frank's POV
I was listening to Destroya for the third time now. I had it on repeat; I just couldn't tear myself away from Gerard's voice it was hypnotising. God I missed him, okay, I see him almost every day but I miss when he used to come up and kiss me on stage and secretly off stage. But we were both married now and those days were long gone, much to my dismay.
'Honey, are you ready to go?' Jamia asked, poking her head around the door to my music room.
'Yea' I replied, disappointed that I couldn't hear the last minute or Gerard's moaning. I turned off the music with a sigh and headed to the car. I got in the driver's seat, turned the radio up and began driving. We were on our way to Gerard and Lynz's for dinner, I looked across at Jamia. She was beautiful and there was me thinking about being in love with my best friend. Why couldn't I be grateful for what I had?
'You look beautiful' I said to her, focussing again on the road. I saw her smile from the corner of my eye.
'Thank you' She replied. 'You're not so bad yourself' I couldn't help but laugh and she leaned over and kissed me on my cheek. I did love her. I had two beautiful daughters from her for God's sake. She just wasn't Gerard.
We rang the doorbell to Gerard's house and Lynz answered, before I knew it we were ushered in and Lynz had taken Jamia off to see Bandit. I walked through the house and found Gee sat on the couch reading a comic.
'Sup dude?' I asked him, he quickly looked up and smiled. My heart melted, what was it about those eyes?
'Hey Frank' he replied. I sat down next to him, deliberately not sitting too close. A wild thought shot into my mind, I was going to tell him how I felt.
'Gee I..' I stopped talking to take a deep breath.
'Check this out' he said standing up and leading me to his study. Perfect, I thought. Somewhere more secluded for me to tell him. He sat down at the computer and bought up a facebook screen.
'We got to 4 mil!' he screeched with excitement. I was shocked, it must have happened over night. Four million fans. Wow.
'That's amazing' it really was.
'But listen Gee, I need to talk to you' I said quietly.
'What's up?' he asked looking worried.
'Remember back in the day, when we'd be on stage and well' I paused, how should I phrase the next bit.
'Yea?' He asked, his hazel eyes looking straight at me. Convincing me what I was doing was a good idea.
'Okay, here goes' I took in one final breath.
'I...' But I was cut short, the door opened and Lynz stepped in.
'Dinner' she smiled. Well that's just great.
'What was it you wanted to say Frank?' Gee asked, getting up from his chair.
'Don't worry, it's not important.' I sighed following him to the dining room, I guess it's better that he didn't find out. I mean, what if he didn't feel the same back? I was being ridiculous; of COURSE he didn't feel the same. He was in love with Lynz, those two were inseparable. I tried to keep my focus on the meal but I couldn't help my mind wandering, before I knew it we had to leave.
'Thanks for coming' Lynz said kissing me on the cheek.
'Oh my bag' Jamia said just before we were about to step through the door.
'I'll get it' Lynz said spinning on her heel and turning back round.
'Don't be silly, I can get it' Jamia followed her into the kitchen. I was alone. With Gerard. Again.
'Are you okay Frank? You've been acting odd' Gerard asked, trying to get eye contact with me. But I knew that if I looked up into those eyes I would blurt it out. I didn't want to make a fool of myself.
'Yea, fine. Just a little tired ya know?' I laughed, making the mistake of looking up. He looked concerned and oh my God was he beautiful.
'Well if you say so' He replied, smiling lightly.
'Ready for the show in a couple of days?' He asked changing the subject; suddenly excitement was clear on his face. I couldn't stop staring at him.
'Yea, you?' I said smiling back, mirroring his excitement.
'Hell yea' just then Lynz and Jamia came back laughing.
'Well thanks for a great evening' I said to Lynz, I might be in love with her husband but I wasn't going to forget my manners.
'Night' they both called and as we walked away, I looked back to see them kissing. Pain shot through my heart like a bullet.