kiss my cold lips and you'll taste your name

Danny? Danny are you there?

Are you?

Please, Danny, please. I'm scared.

I don't know where I am and it's dark and I'm scared. I'm scared and my hands are sticky and it's dark and I can't see.

(My hands are sticky, Danny.)

I'm sorry, so sorry. Danny, I didn't mean to.

But you weren't there, you weren't there to pull me away and the purple little pills look so pretty in the palm of my hand.

You know how I get around pretty things.

And it hurts, everything just hurts so much Danny because your not here to throw them out and they're so pretty Danny, so small and just one won't hurt.

Just one, I swear Danny and then I'll stop. I'll stop before it goes to hell like last time and everything falls apart. I promise Danny, I promise.

(My fingers are crossed, Danny.)

Please, please, help me. They're all gone.

Little purple rabbits slipping down the rabbit hole and I'm tumbling down after them and everything is too bright and the things I'm seeing, Danny, Danny, I think I'm going insane.

There are voices and they're telling me things Danny, Danny is it true?

It can't be.

You said you loved me.

(Were your fingers crossed, Danny?)

There are little cat prints on the ceiling and they go round and round.

Danny, I'm dizzy and I want it to stop.

Ok, I lied. I lied, Danny, I couldn't stop and everything's gone to hell and nobody's going to save me, Danny.

I'm sorry. I'm really, really sorry, Danny.

I wanted to be the first one you see when you got out of prison. But Danny, I won't be there and will you notice? Will you notice if Tess smiles and drives you home and I'm not there?

Would you have picked her?

(Please don't cross your fingers, not about this, Danny.)

Danny? Danny where are you? I'm here, I'm right here and I can't breath because the air is sour and when did the space between us get so big?

My hands- Danny, my hands, I can't feel my hands and they're sticky when they touch my face.

Danny, please, now my face is sticky.

Like melted chocolate. It's just melted chocolate right, Danny? Right?

(It doesn't taste like chocolate, Danny.)

Danny? Danny why aren't you here?

Because I'm alone and I'm hurt and Danny, it's sticky, it's sticky and it's wet and it's not chocolate Danny, it's not, is it?

You promised Danny and I can't breath and my hands, where did my hands go, I can't feel them, Danny.

(I can't breath, Danny.)

Danny? Danny, can you hear me?

I can't. I can't hear because I'm sticky everywhere and Danny I can't feel anything anymore and it's not chocolate Danny, it's bitter and it's choking me and I don't know what to do.

DannyDannyDanny until the name becomes meaningless like my dead body will be when they find it and I can't feel anything except the whisper of your name against my numb lips.

(Don't worry though, Danny.)

Nothing hurts except for the fact that you're not here.