Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes I wish I hadn't done it. But other times I know I made the right decision. Because he deserves her.
And… I did it for him because I love him.
Hikaru had no idea how to interact with his feelings. I care for Hikaru too much to see him hurt. So I gave up on Haruhi. I still hang out with her and tease her and play with her but never will I cross the line I made for myself. I love everything about her. Her smile, her laugh, how dense she can be about herself but I love him so much more. So I will never cross that line from Haruhi I made. No matter how cute she is. Because I did it all so he could be happy. Hikaru needs this. I saw them on the date, I know how they reacted and it hurt. It still hurts. But I will move on because I care for them both so much that seeing them together will make me happy someday. Someday, but not now. I didn't realize what was happening before.
I love Hikaru too much to fight with him over someone we love. She loves him too I know she does. Tamaki's just blinding her. But once she realizes she feels for Hikaru. His arms will be open for her to run to. But it'll be a long time before Hikaru knows how to deal with something like this. Honestly, even play fighting with him hurt. Haruhi is already getting farther and farther into our world and it won't be long until she is. It's amazing how she can look past appearances and see what's on the inside that separates Hikaru and I. Anyways, someday I'll find someone I love. But they'll never get as far as she did, nobody can. There's no one else like her. But… you make sacrifices for the ones you love. So this was my sacrifice for Hikaru.
So I'll put on a happy face and maybe someday I'll find someone that'll try and get close.
Never as far as Hikaru or Haruhi though.