Love at First Touch
When I heard it for the first time, I didn't doubt it. Cause it wasn't my place to doubt.
That a human would make such a difference.
Such a difference.
You triggered things you can't imagine... and some of it I can't imagine myself.
What to think about it? Is it my place to wonder?
I found you, I watched you. One second was like a day. For us both.
In your sorrowful cruelty I still could see the gleam of your goodness.
I touched you, and pulled you out from the pit.
Unconsciously, I marked you.
Maybe I held you too tight... or maybe you are just too fragile.
And then I watched you raise from the dead. And do things humans do.
I try to whisper but you can't comprehend.
As expected, a human body would be much more convenient. So you can hear me, see me, touch me.
Now you look at me with wide eyes, claiming personal space. I can't.
Can't you see my anchor is right on your shoulder?
How much can you read into my eyes? How much do I still have to say so you can understand?
You're so special that you moved an angel.
Is it my place to say that? Am I allowed to be moved by a human?
Am I allowed to feel like that?
As if I were never to move away from you.
As if I could perch on your shoulder forever.
Praying that you will allow me.
You frown; I must have been staring. I probably didn't move an inch away from your personal space.
How could I, if you're all over my mind? Could I say it's my personal space too?
"Cass, what's going on?"
Would you understand if I smiled at you?
Is it my place to have feelings?
Is it my place to show you such feelings?
All I can do is reach for your shoulder and fit my hand on the handprint. It itches if I don't. It hurts when I do.
We shiver. We lose our breath.
And our human hearts skip a beat.
Can you feel how deep is our bond?
Unknowingly I marked you as mine...
So be mine...
With human voice and human body, you can now comprehend me.
"Be mine"
Realisation flashes in these eyes. You try to speak, but I'm further into your personal space.
Whether it's my place or not to wonder or to feel; I'll just do it.
If I wear human skin for you, I'll play human.
I'll be confused, I'll be possessive,
I'll love you madly.
A/N: my first fict on SPN~ I can't overlook Cass&Dean's bond, I had to do something about it. For me, Castiel can be confused about his can's and cannot's, but he will reflect deeply upon things, and if there's something he needs to do and there's no meaningful restraint, I'm sure he will go for it (especially if it's regarding Dean). That's why here he makes the first move and not Dean. Actually I think he would be so busy thinking his feelings that he would forget that he has to know if the other actually feels the same lol. And I just had to add the possessive element, even if it doesn't sound like him. But that's cause we didn't see him in love yet :D Sorry it's so short by the way, figures I've got no talent for lengthy pieces xD
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