Disclaimer: I don't own Hinata nor Naruto. They own each other. Bwahahahaha!!
Author's Note: Yay! This is the first fic that I've written after almost half a year of being in hiatus. Actually, I had no plans of writing stories again if my twin did not make a request. Of course, she's my twin and I couldn't say no.
So yeah, basically, this is a Hinata x Naruto which I dedicate to my beloved twin.
Obviously, I support the Hinata x Naruto Pairing! Hell Yeah!
Note: Considered as my birthday treat. I'm turning 19 tomorrow! Yay!
HINATA'S POV
I'm aching to run away from here. I had to… I badly wanted to…Somebody take me away from here…
Damn it… My knees felt weak and no matter how I want to run, I just cant. I just don't have the strength.
The guild activities were over five hours ago and still I'm right here. I can't move… If I'd move even a single bit I'm afraid I would just break down and cry.
Damn it… Of all people… I just had to be the one to hear it from him. Why do I have to be here in the first place? I should have gone home and not attend the club activities today...I should have gone home…
Is it too much of a fault that I badly wanted to see him?!
'Hinata? She's just a friend. Come on, that's stupid!'
I couldn't believe it…
'She's just a friend…'
I just had to hear it…
'She's just a friend…'
His words keep ringing back my head.
'Just a friend…'
I cursed as I slowly got up towards my locker to change my shoes. I have to get away from here…Please…
'That's stupid!'
I didn't imagine that such few words would be enough to hurt me like this. After all, what was so wrong by voicing out his opinion that falling in love with me is plain stupid? Or rather… that's my interpretation of what I've heard.
Kami… I didn't know it would hurt this bad… If I had known… If I had known I would probably try so hard to stop it…
Damn it, I tried hard to stop it! But it seemed like it's never enough…I couldn't… Why did it have to be him? Why do I have to fall for Naruto-kun? That Naruto who clearly made me feel stupid by falling in love with a friend? That Naruto whom I never stand a chance…That Naruto who can't possibly return my feelings…?
I hate to admit it… I hate to say that I am hurt because I… Hyuuga Hinata has already fallen in love with him…
Perhaps I'm stupid enough… Perhaps If he knows what I feel right now, he would probably laugh at my face…Perhaps, I'm not the intelligent, strong and confident girl they thought I am today… because right now…
Right now… I feel that I'm useless… that I'm so stupid… that I'm so weak…
Damn it…
Even the heaven seemed to be against me. It's so dark outside and the hard wind blows my hair against my face.
I stopped walking when I felt a cold droplet touched my cheek.
'Rain…?'
I looked up on the dark sky as the droplets of water started to grow heavier. I felt my uniform got soaked and the coldness of the rain grew onto me.
'Cold…'
Just like the cold hands that squished my heart until it was gone into pieces…
I smiled bitterly. Perhaps, the heaven's was not that cruel to me…
"More please…" I whispered. Just like a tramp begging for some mercy. And as if hearing my words, the rain falls heavier.
'Please… More… '
My sight was blurry… It seems like I'm being covered so that I won't be able to see the cruelness of the world.
Perhaps…Perhaps, I could cry here…
Perhaps, I could be weak here and no one will see my pain. It's not like I'm hoping that he would come and save me, right…? I have no hopes that would happen right?
A tear fell. Then followed by another and another. It made quite a contrast against the cold rain.
I tried to stop and yet I can't. I wanted to shout. Yell out load until I couldn't hear my voice. But I couldn't speak…
'More please… More…'
I wanted to embrace the coldness… I wanted to turn numb… I want the coldness of the rain beat the coldness I feel in my heart…
'Please…'
The pain wouldn't disappear. Like a broken piece of glass stabbing my heart over and over.
And in the darkness of the sky… Under the heavy rain that covers my sight…I hide the warm tears falling through my eyes…
'Please…'
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NARUTO'S POV
'So, do you like Hinata?'
I had to stop and think back then. No, Hinata is just a friend. Nothing more and nothing less.
'Are you sure? Think about it Naruto.'
I don't have to think about it. I don't want to.
I don't want to commit the same mistake of falling in love with a friend and having my heart broken.
No… I don't want to…
I sighed begrudgingly when her image suddenly appeared on the white ceiling. And then I felt it.
That familiar pang in my heart…
'No…'
I shifted position and closed my eyes. I don't want to think about her but like some sort of magic, she kept on appearing in my mind.
Another pang. I fought the urge to clutch my chest.
'No…'
Damn it… Why do I feel like I've said something wrong…? Ah… I guess, I just have to chill out.
I jumped out of the bed and decided to buy something. Anything…
Anything that will make her gone out of my mind.
I opened the door and cursed…
It's raining outside…
And I hate the rain… So much…
I took my umbrella and slowly find my way to the nearest department store. I watched as the rain got heavier that I almost couldn't see. I should have worn my glasses…
It feels cold…
'Neh, neh Naruto! Do you like the rain…?'
Cursed it… why do those memories keep coming back?
'It seems like it cleanses the world, isn't it?'
Cleanses the world huh…? And yet it gave me all the dirty feelings… Anxiety… Hatred… Jealousy…Pain…
'We're best of friends' right?'
I smiled bitterly. I was a fool back then. I was blinded by love and I destroyed something precious.
'So do you like Hinata?'
No…I won't ever…
'Are you sure?'
I clenched my fist. I want to cursed and punched Shikamaru's guts for doing this to me,
'You're not being stupid again are you..?' a voice inside me spoke.
"Shut up…"
It's not like I wanted to think about her every minute, damn it! It's not even my fault that my eyes keep on seeing her even though she's not there.
Just like now… Damn it…I'm seeing her standing on the cold wet street.
Get out of my mind Hinata…
I walked forward expecting that Hinata will disappear anytime sooner. She did not.
I felt it again. That pang in my heart. The uprising beat of my pulse.
"Hinata…?" I whispered. And then…
Time stopped.
She looked at me with those sad puffy eyes.
She's crying…
'No…'
No…
It felt like someone broke my heart…
'No…'
I wanted to run… But my feet won't move.
'Move feet! Move! Damn it!'
"You came…?" a whisper from her. And then, as if on cue, she ran away from me.
'No…'
I dropped on my knees as I felt another great pang. With wide eyes, I clutched my chest. Her crying face stuck on my mind.
It hurts…It hurts…
Kami…Take it away from me please… This pain…
Tears fell in my eyes along with the cold rain. I wished it could wash away my pain…
The realization hit me hard….
I was a liar…A coward…The past blinded me to restrain myself in finding happiness.
I was afraid…of getting hurt again…Of destroying something wonderful again…
But then again… I still got hurt...
Can't I do things without great assurance of the future? That I won't get hurt? That I won't fall in love?
I was the one who had gone stupid all along… How could I not notice that…?
I want to protect her smiling face…Was it so bad now?
This pain I have in my chest… I couldn't push it any longer…
Oh, Kami…I love that girl…
'I love you…'
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NORMAL POV
As of now, she couldn't hear anything but the splash of the water against her feet. It seems like she's running forever…
She ran away as she realized he was real.
He was real…And he couldn't love her…
How could she think that he came for her like the fool that she was…?
She had to run… She had to…
For it breaks her heart to see him more…It breaks her heart to hope for something that she knows too well, wouldn't be given to her…
She doesn't want to hope…No…not anymore…
Her knees felt wobbly. And it's getting darker than ever.
'Please…Take me away from here…' she thought
And then, she just had to trip. She doesn't have the strength to get up again. She can't move and yet she couldn't help but wonder.
Why is it that her knees gave up on her but the pain in her heart remains?
Then, she felt it.
It seems like the rain has stopped.
She looked up and saw his concerned face. He was holding an umbrella on the other hand.
'No…Don't cry please… Not now… Don't…' her mind begged and yet the tears fell from her eyes.
'Please!! Just this once!! Please hear my wishes!! Not in front of him!! Onegai!!'
"Onegai…" a small whisper from her.
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He bit his lip. Another pang in his heart. Her crying face…
He doesn't want to see her crying…
'Please…Smile for me…' a small wish from within. But her tears kept on falling.
She whispered a plea and he heard.
It was like she's begging for help…And he couldn't take it…
He kissed her.
'I love you…'
Pulling her close to his chest, as if he doesn't want to let go…
'I love you…'
She stared at him with unbelieving eyes. He smiled.
"Did you hear it?"
She nodded and smiled. He felt her fingers intertwined with his free hand.
This time she kissed him.
'I love you too…'
Ah… Perhaps the rain…isn't that bad at all… For they both wonder…
Perhaps, the rain send their message through?
-END-
A/N: Damn it. Lame ending. Gomen. Ahehhe. I dunno how to end it, so yeah. Gomen, gomen, gomen, gomen!!
Gomenasai!!
But to make up for it, I would be posting an alternative ending, well, if you like?
Unbeta-ed. Constructive criticisms for the poor authoress will be greatly appreciated.