Still doing what I have always ,we are running,hiding, nothing know the truth?The whole world changed for me.She is just gone.And she ain't never coming back.

Few days ago,she was just next to me,but this jungles,climbing on these trees to get a damn banana for the whole the ocean,in the ocean that looks just like and uncontrollable,while it controls was controling me..I was a con man before the crash,I have never been in .Before she came like a storm in my ,how hard I tried not to admit what I was feeling towards her,but I that feeling consumed was consuming she comsumes me now.Even when she is if she never comes back.

another is always are not running right and Juliet are sleeping,Jin is sitting in silence,just like I can do right now is damn thoughts!It's like that they are chasing me all the time and catch me when I'm yeah they caught me again.I .about my freckles.

the truth is,that she has never belonged to has never belonged to is born to run,and tiger doesn't change its stripes.I wonder,will I ever be able to forget about her?will I ever be able to forget even one freckle on her face?or her voice?Or the way she said:yes,I love that moment I was about to die,but maybe i have never been that happy in my life...Or her lips?once i told her that they tasted like a laughted,which made my heart skip a beat,and then answered:"you taste like a fish biscuits"

I don't exactly remember when I fell heat of the sun woke me up.I opened my eyes and saw hair was shining and briting more than usual,in the golden light of she is the sun herself...what the hell i'm thinking.I can't let myself do that.I can't let her go even if she lives only in my heart and mind.

-"James,are you okay?"juliet asked me interuped my thoughts

Of course,James,cause Sawyer,maybe he died when they left,when they...when she maybe freckles died in her,when she left this isla...when she left I let her go and live...but maybe I killed her,like I killed and freckles,can they even live without each others? Absolutely not

-I'm fine blondie"I answered her finally and stood up.I had to.I have to stand up and fight...that's what she told me once...

Is she happy now?with doc?I wonder what would happen,if that damn helicopter wasn't too she would chose him...or maybe...It doesn't is John promised me that he will bring them..her that what I really want?Am I really that selfish that i want her to came back here?in this cursed place?Maybe not...But this hope is enought for me

to stand up and wait.

even if she never comes back...