chapter 1

BPOV

"In The Woods"

"I want you to know that I will always love you, but I cant stay its too dangerous " Edward said just staring at Bella to see what her reaction would be, but she just stood there staring right back at him in total silence. "Say something please " Edward pleaded unable to stand the silence.

"What do you want me to say that it's ok that your leaving"
Bella screamed, unable to contain her sorrow or anger. "What do you think, I will be fine? Well for your information I don't want you to leave." She stated, however, somewhere inside her she knew his mind was made up "but your going to go anyway, aren't you .." Bella sobbed the tears dripping down her face.

"I am so sorry" was all Edward could say.

If Edward could cry he would, right now for as much as this was hurting Bella with him leaving, it was ripping him up inside as well, being around her reminded him what it was to be alive. He didn't want to leave, but he knew it would be best for Bella or at least he hoped.

"Please don't go you know I'm nothing without you." Bella pleaded

"You know I have to, please don't ask me to stay, it will be harder for both of us if you do" Edward whispered

"Then don't go " Bella persisted through her tears, she didn't want to just give up.

"I am so sorry Bella, but you have to believe me when I say I am sorry, I need to go" Edward was starting to feel the pain now.

"Don't say sorry just stay " Bella was screaming, in her attempts to get through to him.

"No!" yelled Edward, it was getting too much for him.

Then within a flash he was gone out of Bella life for good, she just stood there in the woods crying, memories and thoughts playing over and over in her mind. She must have been there for hours because when she final woke from her daze she was soaked through to the bone. The rain had stopped and it was dark, she could hardly see the green of the trees and ferns around her as she slowly walked through the wood to her home. As she walked she could feel she was breaking up inside the pain was getting to her and it wasn't going to go away as easy as Edward had left her.

As she got through the door she saw Charlie there waiting for an explanation of why she home so late. But as she turned her face to him he saw the anguish and emptiness right where his sweet daughter's smile used to be. He knew straight away, he saw the pain that she was in and he was in pain because he knew he could not help her; Bella turned to the stairs without saying a word to her father and made her way up to her room.

A slight hope overwhelmed her as she got to her bedroom door just hoping all this was mistake and Edward was there sitting on the bed. They could have a big laugh about all this. As she opened the door and the misery came over her as quickly as it did in the wood, she got into her room to find that the room was empty, the window was still open like it had been since the first night Edward had come. She just stared out the window for a while just hoping somehow it was all going to be all right, she couldn't lose Edward it was all wrong she needed him and was nothing without him.

Looking out the window Bella spoke softly "Edward, I need you please come back, I'm nothing without you, how am I going to survive a lifetime without you beside me?" She pleaded to the darkness as the tears started to come again, " I can't live without you."

Finally Bella gave in and shut her window for the first time in so long. It hurt her so much, she got changed into her pajamas and climbed into her bed curlling up into a ball, she let all the pain overwhelm her and where she cried until she final fell asleep on the damp pillow where all the tears fell.