My name is Isabella Swan but I prefer to be called Bella and this is my life....
It all started when my parents divorced when I was young and my mom took me away from my dad and his small home town Forks, its the wettest place in the United States. Well after spending a few summers here I decided I absolutely hated it, which is why I am starting to question myself about my decision to move back here. That is until I saw him..... he was just standing there next to my dads house when we drove up, he was so beautiful with his bronze colored hair and perfect body, from then on I knew I had to have him. And that's just what happened, I had him and I lost him. We were perfect. Or I thought we were, I don't know whats wrong with me.
I love you to.
How hard is it to say? I know I love him, I just... I guess I'm just afraid and now its to late.
Flashback
"Bella"
"Edward"
"Bella, I'm in love with you" Oh my GOD i've been waiting for this for so long...
"Edward I" What are you doing say something.
"I" Say it I LOVE YOU TO its not that hard
"I cant do this"
End
And I just ran.
The next day he broke up with me, he said he didn't want to be with someone who couldn't commit and that he didn't mean what he said.
It felt like I couldn't breathe like my whole world just stopped, I was there but not really there.
So here I am first day of senior year in the student parking lot standing all alone by my old beat up red truck looking at where I was suppossed to be, by Edward and by all my friends I haven't talked to since a few days after the break up. Oh yeah all my friends hated me for breaking their brothers and best friends heart and ditched me at the beginning of the summer.
Flashback
"How could you just not say anything Bella" My supposed best friend Alice said to me
"I don't know what happened Alice" And I really didn't
"Well I think I know what happened....you found someone else and you were just using Edward for his money and popularity you stupid caniving bitch I never wanna see your face anywhere near me, Edward, or any of my family again!" Rosalie pretty much screamed in my face
"Rosalie" Alice tried to come to my defense
"What Alice you know it and I know it hell I even think Bella knows it, She's never been good enough for him" It's true I never was enough I'm just stupid
"Get off your high horse Rose, Bella is perfect for Edward in every single way!" I wish Alice would stop defending me, Its making me feel worse
"ugh Whatever lets just go Alice, Have a nice summer Bella, just remember you broke him, and now he's not the same"
I am such an idiot, I wish I never moved to this God forsaken place. I wish I could of told him what was really going on with me, why I am afraid to say it back.
End
And that was the last time I talked to anyone of them, Alice tried to call a few times but after about 8 tries and me ignoring them or not answering back they just stopped. So now I have to go through everything alone, I have Charlie but we've been distant for a while now, I think he's scared to say something that will upset me or maybe he's just scared for me. I wish I could just go back to when everything was perfect in my life.
-Ok so this is my first story. Should I continue? yes/no?