Choco: hi! This is a Malik abuse fic! He's gonna get beat up! A lot! (enjoy?)
Malik: what?
Choco: nothing.
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(Malik's POV)
Why is life so painful.
There's so much hate in the world.
I wish...I wish that it would all just stop.
Is this the point of living? To suffer? Every day I get beat up at school...Then when I come home, Marik beats me... I mean, "greets" me, in his own special way. Every night I crawl into my bed, too tired to even think, pretty much drenched in my own blood. The pain keeps me awake, until I either black out or cry myself to sleep. Next day it's the same. Go to school, get beat up, go back home, get beat up even more severely. I hate everything about it.
I hate every thing about life.
I wanna commit suicide. But I can't... my yami beats me everyday to get rid of his anger, but if I ran away or killed myself, he'd look for someone else to torture. That can't happen.
No one should have to suffer because of me.
I'm not worth it.
I'm not worth anything.
But. . . . I want a friend.
Someone that I can actually trust. Someone that actually talks to me without insulting me. Someone that can comfort me when I'm hurt, someone that can cheer me up when I'm down.
Is that too much to ask for? After all, I've been abused since I was about four, I've been sent to the shadow realm three times, I even got the "Pharaohs Will" literally carved into my back... Not to mention that when my father (the first person that abused me) was murdered, my yami started to kick me around in his place. Oh, and don't forget, everybody hates me; even my own sister doesn't like me.
I'm hated for things I didn't even do, or even wanted to do. It's because of my yami. Everything's because of my yami. The reason my father died, the reason that people see me as a psycho, the reason that my sister hates me, the reason that everybody hates me.
After all this, don't I deserve a friend?
No, I guess not. I don't deserve anything at all.
But I get so lonely not being able to talk to anybody but myself.
Too lonely.
I'm always by myself.
I'm so sick of it, sick of everything.
I can't even trust myself.
Why can't somebody at least say hi to me?
People beat me up, insult me, or just ignore me.
What did I do?
...sigh
My father always said that I'd grow up to be a useless, unworthy idiot.
I guess he was right.
I'll never amount to anything great.
Not even good or average.
Huh.
I'm starting to cry again.
If Marik catches me, I'm dead for sure.
He's always calling me weak.
But I can't help it!
There's too much pain to live through.
If the beatings don't kill me, then the emotions will.
I'm so alone.
Why does everyone ignore me?
No matter how hard I try, I always cry at night when I'm lying awake.
My life is pointless!
I want somebody to actually care about me.
Why am I still crying?!
I can't live like this!
I don't want to have to suffer anymore.
I tired of all the deceit.
I want somebody to like me.
Why can't anybody understand me?
Every night, I cry because I know that I'll never be accepted.
This is too complicated.
I don't want to be hated...
I need to know that somebody cares...
Just... For once in my life...
I want to be loved.
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Malik: hey! I have friends! Look!
Ryou: I'm malik's best friend!
Choco: please R&R