Tears From A Guardian
Rating : T
Summary: Yamamoto Takeshi's heart was broken into pieces. Luckily, Hibari Kyouya helped him to move on. Will he ever cope at all?
Quote : Sometimes, emptiness hurts.. a lot.
Pairing : 8059, 8018, 5927
Timeline : After the Varia Match; it's very AU. Begging your pardon, T.T
NOTE: All of them are one-sided.
WARNING: Very angsty.
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Chapter 1 : Pouring Rain
I love you,
You hate me,
You're in love but not with me,
Now, my heart is scattered in pieces because of you,
When will I be happy to?
The boy sighed. He remembered him. Him, who always says harsh words to him; Him, who always calling him a baseball idiot; Him, who always do violent. Him, just him. He is the only one who can do this eternal pain, and the boy has to feel it whilst the other loves someone else.
The boy inhaled the air deeply. He can't do anything to make him fall in love with himself because he loves someone else. He loves Sawada Tsunayoshi, a boy who will be the future Vongola Tenth, a boy who is just an ordinary boy like him, who doesn't always do his homework, especially a coward person, just A-No-Good-Tsuna and especially his first best and special friend. His schoolmates called him that, and that's very rude for them but Gokudera Hayato is the only thick enough to admit his undying love to Sawada Tsunayoshi, but he apparently didn't mind that but considered only an admiration.
And he sung again.
And all of a sudden, the door opened but the boy didn't notice. Footsteps echoed but still, the boy was too busy to notice.
Then, a voice echoed at the rooftop and said nonchalantly, "Yamamoto Takeshi." The boy didn't turn to face the intruder because he recognized the voice everyday of his life being a student in Namimori and that was, Hibari Kyouya.
Hibari Kyouya was the leader of the Discipline Committee or Prefects, who all happened to be a group of loyal delinquents to him. He was the only one who was very proud of his school and he was the only person in the whole school to use their school song as his ringtone. He had also shown affinity towards the birds and tamed Birds' bird, his trustee bird companion named, Hibird, named after his name.
"Yo, Hibari," he said it unfeeling but not cold, never hatred.
Looks like he's not in a good mood to bite with, Hibari thought.
Footsteps stopped.
And suddenly, two students' voices filled the awkward silence.
"Tenth! Let me help you carry your heavy bag!"
"It's not heavy, Gokudera-kun!"
"C'mon, Tenth please, let me carry! I'm your right-hand man!"
Gokudera Hayato snatched the bag away from his boss's hand without letting the Tenth fall.
"Aww.. thought I win."
"Oops. I'm sorry, Tenth."
And their voices trailed off.
"I see you're in love but I could care even less who it is." The prefect trailed his eyes on his face to look a surprising emotion but unexpectedly, there was none.
The baseball idiot sighed and asked, "How did you know of that?"
"You sung a moment ago, Yamamoto Takeshi. I'm neither deaf nor blind and you must know of that. Anyway, you passed at my territory. You must not be here or else you will earn yourself a punishment."
"How can I know of that?" he asked, emptiness filled his voice.
"Of course, every Namimori student knows this rooftop is my past time. I always stay here if I want to, and if I'm bored at my office. I never disappear; I always stay here in the afternoon. And it's my job to bite the students to death if they are unnoticed of their mischief," Hibari stated.
"OK. I'm sorry for my disturbance, and if I may add, you're the only who's a monster here at school." Yamamoto Takeshi didn't care if Hibari might get angry with him or bite him to death, and survived with a few scratches and bleeding wounds. He was empty right now, nothing to feel, it's like he has no soul. Sometimes, emptiness hurts.. a lot. Yamamoto dared himself to stare at Hibari and what he saw made him surprised, his corner of his lips turned into a smirk and Yamamoto daring himself had asked, "What are you smirking about? Is something wrong of what I said?"
"No, there isn't. It's completely true and I asked myself, 'Will I take that as a compliment or as a personal insult?' I think otherwise. Being a monster is good, and I'm proud of that."
"You're weird today."
"No, I am not. You're the only one who's weird today."
Yamamoto didn't say anything. He was too stunned to say anything.
"Anyway, your heart is broken?" asked Hibari.
Was he teasing? Yamamoto thought.
"Because that someone loves someone else already and I can't take that away," said Yamamoto who shook his head in disgust. He looked down because he didn't want Hibari to see his tears, to see that he's mentally weak, to see that he's a weak herbivore.
I am so weak when it comes to love, Yamamoto thought disgust at himself.
"Love is a trash, garbage. It doesn't belong to this world. Love makes world appear cruel. That's why I hate to love anyone in this world. That's why I don't have friends. And I don't want to have friends! I'll bite them to death!" shouted Hibari.
"It's unusual for the Hibari Kyouya to talk much. I wonder why…" Hibari sat next to him, his face expressionless.
"And it's unusual for the Yamamoto Takeshi who's not in his usual cheery self. Mine is not weird, Yamamoto Takeshi. It's usual for me to talk since when I'm at the rooftop. That's why I hate humans existing! They must not exist."
"You are cruel, Hibari. You're a human too, you are too cruel…" Yamamoto commented.
"I know, but if I bite to death all humans, I believe I'm doing a favor to this world, cleansing the sins that the people committed." Hibari sighed. He's tired enough to continue this argument. He must rest. He needed rest. He can rest if he can get rid of him quickly.
Yamamoto sighed and Hibari thought, Will this boy stay here? I must get rid of him quickly in order for myself to rest..
"It sucks to be broken-hearted even though I didn't feel it and never will be. I think you must feel eternal pain and unending emptiness? I think that even though I didn't feel it. Your tears are invisible to me for in fact, you hid them from me. You're crying INSIDE. It shatters your soul. It is like you have no soul. You gave anything to that special someone and you hope it will end, but still, it didn't. I tell you this, Yamamoto Takeshi, broken-hearted people are weak herbivores. I hate and despise weak herbivores. I'll bite them to death!" warned Hibari.
There, he must go home now, Hibari thought.
Yamamoto looked up to stare at him and shockingly, smiled. "Thanks Hibari. I see what you mean. Very well, then I must be going." He grinned before leaving.
***
Yamamoto sighed. God knows how many times did he sighed today, he cannot count it. He sighed so much and it's even unusual for him like this. He must be cheerful, happy. That's what Tsuna and the others are expecting him to do. ALWAYS SMILE. He doesn't have a choice. He must not sigh tomorrow. He must be ready.. for all he knew Hibari helped him even with those threatening words even he didn't do it on purpose.
Thanks, Hibari Kyouya even though you didn't do it purpose. I am very grateful.. and I thank you, Yamamoto thanked him in private, in his mind. It'll be the first time.. and it's a miracle that Hibari Kyouya helped Yamamoto Takeshi, who is only an ordinary student and a baseball idiot. But Hibari Kyouya, is a prefect and got a loyal delinquents. Who would have thought that an ordinary student was helped by a prefect who is a psychopath? It'll be a miracle if it did. And now it did, Yamamoto couldn't believe it. Hibari helped him by those threatening words.
I thank you for your pastime, Hibari. If it weren't for you, I would be dead, Yamamoto thought.
But it's never going to be easy. It will be hard for him especially if that silver-haired bomber boy was with him all the time and was forced to be with him because of Tsuna. Maybe he's got to ignore him and be the old Yamamoto Takeshi once more.
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He was on the first floor when the paper fell on the top of the lockers' room. Yamamoto looked at it inquiringly; will he pick it up or just lay it there?
In a matter of a tensing minute, he finally decided; he will pick it up. He picked it up, and surprisingly, a bucket of tears got out from his sad eyes. He couldn't take it. He cannot control his tears. He sobbed. He had no choice but to cry. He let his tears flow until there are no more tears to cry. He laid his back at the one of the lockers. He didn't care if his back hurt or worse bled. He didn't care. He gave his soul too much that only emptiness stayed in his body. It hurts a lot. He made a very grave mistake… and it's too late to get it back.
He glanced at the paper he was holding. There was no fold, only wet because of his tears. It named Gokudera Hayato. Why would he cry just because he saw his name? That's a weak herbivore. He can imagine what Hibari would say.
Yamamoto Takeshi's Imagining Version
"Pathetic. Fool. You're weak, Yamamoto Takeshi. You're not like that kid*. I'll bite you to death!" He raised his tonfa on me. I have no time to dodge because I was too stunned to move. I couldn't think that he will do this to me.
BLACKOUT.
End of his Imagining Version.
He sighed. Just then, a storm of rain poured out on the muddy Earth.
Nobody predicted this kind of weather. I wonder it rained just because I'm a Rain Guardian… or I'm a Rain Guardian and I can control the rain if I cry? thought Yamamoto.
He sighed again. His tears stopped already but the rain seemed to continuously unstoppable. He had no choice but to get his green umbrella so as not soak his clothes due to the rain. He opened his locker using his key and got his green umbrella. He stepped outside the school. He was thinking the other, would he get soaked in the rain or just.. wear his umbrella for protection. No, he decided the other one; he would get soaked in the rain.
He closed his umbrella and closed his eyes. Feeling the cold rain dripping his clothes, he shivered but he wasn't cold. He sighed again and this time, he smiled for the second time. He opened his eyes and looked back and thought, is Hibari still at the rooftop soaked in the rain?
He smirked. It was clearly impossible for Hibari to stay there. For sure, as soon as the rain touched the ground, Hibari got out with his trustee bird companion, Hibird and for as skylark like him, he might be behind him.
He went home and thought of a plan how to move on.
***
As soon as he opened the door, someone urgently shouted, "Takeshi!"
He's probably in the kitchen, he thought.
"What is it?" Yamamoto's face turned into an abrupt serious. Yamamoto's father gave him a tray of sushi and ramen. "What is this, father? Is there a guest?"
"There are guests. It was clearly unexpected you know, Takeshi. But please deliver it to them. They may be hungry," his father said.
Who could it be? he thought.
"Where are they?
"They're in your room. They say it's private to tell their names or anything even if you and they are friends at school…"
"So, it's a secret? But you know their faces," Yamamoto argued. It's clearly impossible for Father to let someone in at their house and more importantly, at his room.
I have private things there. But the main question is, who are they? I couldn't think of anything… maybe Hibari and his loyal delinquent or subordinate, Kusakabe.
His father didn't answer. He turned around and sighed once more. He got no choice but to deliver it to them. Wondering who they are, Yamamoto Takeshi went upstairs.
I better stop sighing. Whoever are they, it's unusual for me to sighing as much. Father didn't notice my face.. or maybe he's too busy? he thought.
He opened the door.
Then a boy yelled in surprise, "Yamamoto!"
Yamamoto Takeshi was too shocked to move, too shocked to do anything, too shocked to put it into words. His tray of sushi and ramen was shaking with his hand. If it will be handled by his tremulous hand, the tray might fall and their food would be wasted.
There's something's going on.. what the heck are they doing here?
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Later on the next chapter: Unexpected Guests
His only thought on his mind, will I ever cope at all? Will I ever escape of this eternal pain? He repeated the question on his mind. His conscience answered, NO! NO! NO! each time he asked those questions. It would do no good.
~~ Yamamoto Takeshi. XD
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Who could be the guest? Well, now you decide!
Authoress notes: Guys! Please Read and Review, this is my first story ever publish. XD
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Question by the way,..
what's the spelling of onii-chan?
I'm not Japanese, plox.
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