"YOU HAVEN'T LOST ME...I NEVER HAD YAH"
Disclaimer: I do not own Emmerdale and it's characters, they belong to ITV
A/N: This is my first fic, I hope it is okay and like many fics, takes a different direction to the storyline on TV. Hope it's not too boring, It should get better in later chapters!
Chapter one
"You haven't lost me...I never had yah..."
Jackson's last words haunted Aaron as he walked back home to Emmerdale. The rain was falling lightly, it was differcult to tell whether the water on his cheeks was rain or tear drops.
4:15am, Aaron stumbled into Smithy cottage and closed the door quietly, Jackson's voice continuing in his head'
"You Don't love me..."
Aaron desparately wanted to call Jackson and put things right, but he realised he'd left his mobile in Jackson's van.
It had been such a great night out.
At Bar West, him and Jackson.
Paddy and Marlon too, but that was another matter, it was all for Jackson and they had finally kissed and made up. He'd felt great until he had seen mad Mickey outside the club while having a ciggy.
Mickey had been outside the club opposite Bar West with a group of girls, and Aaron wanted to kill him, kill for what he did to Clyde.
The Anger just built up, when Jackson had come looking for him, he was ready to get Mickey.
Jackson had given him an choice 'him or me'
Jackson had taken it as 'him'. he'd stormed off back to his van, Aaron begged him to stay, both of them got in to the van and they had continued to argue.
After Aaron had forced Jackson to stop the van on a country road, he realised he had to face the music over his emotions, of how he felt.
Telling Jackson he didn't honestly know whether he loved him back went badly, resulting to those dreaded words "You haven't lost me...I never had yah"
Aaron laid awake until the sun came up and finally, at about 8am, he finally feel asleep.
Paddy was singing along to the radio in the kitchen when Aaron finally rose at 11am.
He approached the kitchen table and sat, head in his hands. Paddy beamed at him,
"Morning" before turning down the volume on the radio,
"Thanks for last night!, me and Marlon had to get a cab home"
Aaron lifted his head "sorry" he mumbled, Paddy made him a coffee,
"So will Jackson want a coffee too, or is he still sleeping it off..." asked Paddy
Aaron looked up "What?"
"Jackson!, he slept here didn't he, I bet you two had a right laugh leaving us at that club"
Aaron sighed, realising Paddy thought Jackson was with him,
"No...he won't want a coffee" he replied.
"Tea then?" suggested Paddy, fumbling with the teabags.
"NO PADDY, HE'S NOT HERE ALRIGHT...just shut up will yah" he then stormed off back upstairs, it seemed that Aaron and Jackson had argued again!
Aaron went to work and Cain had sent the stroppy teenager on a 'parts' errand in Hotten, while Aaron was out of the village, Jackson pulled up in his van and parked outside the pub.
He couldn't face another argument with Aaron, that's why he had stayed the night with a mate, first he hurried over to Andy's place and paid him some rent he owed him, and telling him he was leaving the village.
Andy was alittle disappointed "hope it's nothing I did, or said" he laughed,
"nothing to do with you mate, i've got to...move on", after packing up his stuff, he bid Andy farewell and hurried to the van. Paddy saw him as he came up the road
"Hey, Aaron's at work if you looking for him" Paddy beamed.
"Yeah I know, you better give him this" he placed Aaron's mobile in Paddy's palm.
"His mobile?, I don't understand, what's going on with you two, last night Me and Marlon had to get a cab back and..."
Jackson Placed a hand on Paddy's shoulder
"Sorry mate, Thanks for everything...and Mum will be out your hair in all, she's coming with me"
Aaron sat at bar at Bar West, his hand beneath his chin, the music blaring out around him, music he generally hated, but he amusingly watched the guys dance upon the dance floor, namely Scarlett and Victoria.
He like sitting at the bar, he could watch the club entrance, watch for Jackson, but he knew he wouldn't be coming through those doors anytime soon. He'd heard that he had gone away on a 6 week construction job some where near Manchester.
He tried to get the visions of Jackson being picked up by other guys in canal street out of his mind, he missed him, he missed him badly.
He downed his beer as Victoria came swooning from the dance floor to his side,
"You thinking about him again" she asked with a smile, Aaron faced her defensively
"NO I'M NOT!"
Victoria nodded " You are, you make it look so obvious pining for him, while he is shagging somebody else, deal with it"
Aaron rolled his eyes "Do one Vic"
"Okay, but I was about to say you have an admirer!" she cooed.
Aaron licked his top lip as to say 'am I bothered' but he looked around anyway,
"Who?"
Victoria nodded her head toward the seating area, and Aaron followed her glance to a young guy with short spiky blonde hair, he suddenly flashed Aaron an amazing grin and rose his bottle of beer at him.
If Jackson was no longer bothered about him then why should he be with him. Aaron swallowed nerviously and aprroached the guy...
TBC
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