I do not own Instant Star, though I really wish i did! The point is dont sue me I dont have any money!

Okay so I just wanted something casual. This is about five months after Tommy left(the evil jerk)and Jude acts very differently then she did during the show. I tried. This is my first time, and I just love this show so much, so I hope you like it. I Love crictism but atleast try to be nice?

Going to be Okay,

You said Good-bye.

You had no time to explain,

and no one could understand my pain.

I cried for a long time but you were never mine,

I was too far gone. Beyond tears.

In the End we all learn no matter what the show must go on.

"Jude, come on! You cant sleep forever, and Darius is going to kill you if you dont get back in the studio!" Sadie screamed from downstairs.

Five minutes later Jude came tumbling down the stairs dressed in a white top and sweats.

"I'll take you to work" Sadie said as she rolled her eyes.

"I haven't written any songs. So the point in going to work is?" Jude said looking away

"The point is it's work. You have no other choice..."

"Sadie, your not mom. Stop feeling like you have no other choice but to be responsible for me, you dont."

Oh right, so what throw your career away. Fine." Sadie replied.

Sadie got out of the car as soon as they reached the studio, went inside and got to work. Jude sat in silience in the car. Wondering if she should go in the studio. Darius was going to be upset no question. She had adondoned work for the last 3 months. Jude thought she could be okay, but she couldn't.

"Jude, nice to have you here."

"Yeah...Darius. look..."

"No, Studio C now. No more wasting time, You can work with Kwest."

"I haven't..." She was cut off by Darius walking away

"Yeah..." Jude said to herself biting her lip.

Going back to a place you haven't been to forever is scary meeting the guy of your dreams there and having him walk-out on you is worse. Jude took her sweet time walking to studio C. She stopped and talked to Patsy who was now working on her album, then shortly after ran into Jamie. She smiled at the thought of it. They really were perfect for eachother. She soon learned you can't avoid studio C for that long. Kwest found her when she was walking around.

"Hey, Jude. How you been?"

She smiled. Not a full smile but a smile to show that she was okay.

"um...yeah. You?" Jude said still trying to smile

"Okay, come on you can sing there's us for me"

Jude stopped smiling. That was about Tommy. Kwest suddenly realized what he said.

"Or we can try...white lines."

Jude realized now how many of her songs were about Tommy. So many were about everything she wanted to be true. And so many were true.

"No, lets just...lets just do there's us. I haven't written anything new." She now felt guilty, This wasn't just her career it was Kwest's too.

"Okay cool. I'll set everything up."

"Thanks."

Jude stepped into the sound proof box and since no one was around she screamed. She picked up the pieces, she was falling apart. But she couldn't let herself fall.

"Okay superstar, you ready?"

She smiled, she actually missed this. Even without Tommy she didn't have to fade to black. This was her life, she had control over it.