Preface
BPOV
Time had been moving slowly since this afternoon's revelations. What I feared the most had come true not only in the middle of a really tough time, the worst possibly in the last two years, but also in the worst possible time of the year. It was getting colder in Forks as October neared but I could feel no cold in this moment as I drove through the trees up the old road that to the clearing. It was the only place I could imagine being alone with my thoughts. However I knew that the hole in my chest that never healed would be ripped up again.
But where else was I supposed to go? Jacob wouldn't be looking for me for sure so I couldn't stay at home waiting for him to come back. And I couldn't let Charlie know that something was wrong. I thought of calling Renee but she wouldn't understand. So my last resort was the meadow. I needed to be in a place where I felt safe even though I knew I wasn't. Jake would be furious if he found out I left for the woods unprotected as Victoria was still on the hunt. But then again would he even notice? Could he even 'see' me anymore? All he seemed to care about lately was her. I had believed in him. At the time it seemed exactly what I needed to hear. Now I had to face the truth. Now I wouldn't be the only one left behind. I killed the engine as neared the pathway that led to what used to be our meadow and tried to keep myself together.
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It was like I could almost sense his presence again as I tried not to trip to the roots that seemed to cover every bit of the ground. The trees had really grown since the last time as was here. And of course everything reminded me of him. After all those years I had accepted the fact that I would never forget him. He was my first thought in the morning and my last before sleep overtook me. He haunted my dreams as well. And in some rear occasion the dreams would be happy. Flashes of us together. Of what we could have been. But that wouldn't last long.
Another step, another stone, another root. That was the only way that I could make it. I took the last turn and was met by the opening that I was looking for. And he was there. For a split second I could almost feel him beside me. I could even remember every detail of his face. Although all this time I had persuaded myself that I had forgotten how he looked like that image that flushed through my mind reminded me that I remembered everything like it was yesterday. My heart bit fast as I took a few steps and found myself in the middle of the meadow…
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