12/28/2014
Dear Baby,
I found out about you this morning. I haven't told your dad yet because I am waiting for the right moment. It would have been perfect to tell him on Christmas, but as I said, I only found out today. I think I might wait until New Year's Eve, if I can keep it to myself until then.
I suspected I was pregnant a couple of days ago, but was too scared to buy the test. Your father and I have only been married for three months and while I wanted some time to get used to being married, I guess that wasn't in the cards. I am very excited to meet you and yet part of me is terrified. Will I be a good mom? Will you be happy with me as your mom? I know you will love your dad. Your older sister Alexis just adores him and I of course love him with all of my being. I hope to give you the best life you can imagine, I just worry I won't be able to do it.
You see, Baby, I have a dangerous job. I am an NYPD detective and I am often in the line of fire. I want to be with you for as long as I can, I just hope I won't be taken from you while you still need me. I'll do everything in my power to be with you for many, many years.
I love you so much already. Your dad and I created you because we love each other unconditionally. Soon we will have you and the love in our hearts will grow until it can barely be contained in our chests. I am in awe at how much I can love someone who I only found out about seven hours ago. When we meet in a few months, it will be love at first sight because I would have loved you for over seven months prior to that. Baby, I can't wait to see you for the first time. I'm already thinking of what to name you.
Remember I will love you for always.
Love, Mom