~A/N I was thrilled to create this special piece for Jane Dee (plainjanedee) in the 3rd annual Tricky Raven Auction. We tossed around some ideas and many song prompts. In the end, I wanted to start something that captured the very reason I sought out fanfiction in the first place, a heartfelt Jacob/Bella story. It became clear early on, I couldn't get it done in a one shot, so this ended up as a short story. It's pretty much complete, only a wrap up chapter or two remains. It's most likely 8 or 9 parts. I'm dividing up the original one shot into the first two parts, since it was lengthy. I have several listening suggestions along the way. Special thanks to Urban Rose for the super sexy banner.

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Summary: All of Bella's choices were made. There was no hope left for Jacob. She'd broken him for good or so he thought. An unlikely event opened the door for one final opportunity. A brief change of heart causes a contemplation which leads to fulfilled desires. Unexpected occurrences create all new choices for Bella. What, how, or who will she chose? [AU short story, Jacob/Bella]

All or Nothing

Part 1

("Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis)

He couldn't stop shaking. The rage bubbled over, Jacob couldn't contain the wolf much longer. Might as well let him loose, allow him to take over for good. If that was how it felt to love and lose, he didn't want to even be human any longer.

The first card was laughable...a party. The leeches wanted to throw the pack a fancy shindig for saving Bella. Newsflash... they didn't do it for them. Jacob always protected her, even when she didn't want it. He knew the guys would be receiving theirs one by one. All of them would toss the embossed notecards in the garbage. What a waste of paper. Jacob had never heard of the club the little pixie apparently reserved. As stupid of an idea that was, it wasn't the true reason for his anguish.

He opened the second envelope and read the words. The leech had the audacity to invite him to the wedding. He claimed he would have wanted the courtesy if the situation had been reversed. The only courtesy he wanted to extend him was to shove the ripped pieces of the expensive stationary up his old, dormant ass.
Jacob struggled with the thought of telling his father goodbye or leaving without a word. His hand was on the door when he heard the car door slam. She wasn't driving the truck anymore, so he didn't hear her approach.

"Jake, wait...I need to warn you." She looked at his porch littered with confetti. "Oh, you saw?"

"Yeah, seems like there's no going back now...the invitations are out."

"Jake, please. I...I didn't know. I would've stopped him, but I only found out after the fact."

That was the way it always was between them. Bella would never have the whole picture until it was too late. Why couldn't she see how fucked up that was?

"Well, bye...have a nice...nevermind. I don't even mean that."

She touched his shoulder and he froze. He thought the night in his room would be the last time he felt her. She asked where he was going.

"Away."

"Please don't. I understand why you're upset, but could you at least consider the party? Alice went to a lot of trouble to make it nice for all of you."

"You must be joking. No one's going."

"Oh," she looked down at her feet. He was so sure all of it was over between them when she left him broken that night. She did more damage than any damn vampire could inflict. There was something in her voice when she said "Oh." Was it regret? He had one last shot, he was suddenly convinced.

"Okay, I'll go. The pack will be there."

"What? Really you mean it? I think it's going to be lots of fun."

"One condition." She looked uncertain. "You promise me a dance."

"Oh my gosh, you know I don't dance. Anything but that."

"Nope, either we dance or no deal. Your party will be a bust."

If she really wanted to spend more time with him, she'd say yes. "Sure, Jacob. I'll step on your feet. I guess you like being tortured."

"Truer words were never spoken. See you Saturday night, Bells."

He went back inside without inviting her in. They said all they needed to say. She was going to finally see the error of her ways or he'd be left with only the memories of what could've been. He had his work cut out for him with the pack, but he needed all of them if the plan would succeed.

Leah was busy studying. Jacob hadn't even paid attention that she was going to the community college until she visited him pretty often while he was recovering. Of course, he knew she harbored a smidgen of guilt. He told her she shouldn't, but he wasn't above using the circumstance to get his way.

"To what do I owe this honor?"

"You busy? I need a favor."

She said she was taking her last final the next day, but she could use a break. "All this indoor shit has got me edgy. Wanna run?"

"Sure, but keep an open mind, 'kay?"

They phased in and headed north towards one of the pack's favorite regions. He thought about the party invitation. She immediately howled, said it was a sick fucking joke. She knew for a fact everyone tossed theirs.

Jacob turned around to hide behind a tree. He slipped on some shorts and had a seat on a large rock. She followed suit, soon enough and joined him. He asked if she would please come for him. He also needed a reason to convince the others to come.

"You know that friend of yours...the uninhibited one?"

"You mean, Joanna?"

"Yeah, bring her."

"Why would that increase the odds of you dragging them all to a vamp get together?" Jacob pretty much knew, the promise of free food and drink wasn't enough. He was trying to ask Leah in the most delicate way or he might end up getting kicked in the nuts.

"Oh, I get it. It's because I told you JoJo swings both ways. Seriously, you want them to imagine that she and I do stuff. I'm right, aren't I?"

"Well, all I need is to plant a seed and I swear, Paul, Emb and Quil will be all over it. Please….pretty please Leah. I did kinda, sorta save your life."

"Fuck you." She acted like she was about to leave, but he apologized. "That's not it. I know you're doing this for her. Hasn't she screwed you over enough? Hey, I've got an idea. Why don't you actually bring your own date and try to move on once and for all?"

"Please, Bella's still unsure. I have to try...her life's at stake."

She finally gave in, but said Jo was her friend, nothing more and if they planned on some sort of girl on girl show, they were shit out of luck. "You know...us girls, don't strip to our panties and have pillow fights like you dorks all think we do."

He said, of course he knew, but deep down she kinda crushed one of his and Quil's favorite fantasies. Rach and Becca were always so sneaky when they had sleepovers. Quil assumed they must be in their room practically naked with all their girlfriends. They were probably only about fourteen, but the idea stuck with them.

Jacob spent the next few days meticulous planning it all out. He finally got them all to agree to meet up at The Illuminati.

Alice had a back room reserved, she promised no one would card them and they could stay until the bar closed. Jacob convinced them, they wouldn't run out of food, drink or possibilities. He read the reviews online and the club was known for an abundance of hot college coeds.

Of course, his admission that Leah was coming with Jo had all their tongues wagging.

"Do you think they'll kiss?" Quil asked.

Paul said if the opportunity presented itself, he was asking for a threeway. Jacob told them what he needed and that was interference with the leech. Sam had already come through for him in an unexpected way. All he needed was her to say "yes" to one little request and Jacob was certain after prepping her on the dance floor, she would.

("One More Night" by Maroon 5, "Out of this Club" by The Pussycat Dolls)

The bass was pounding, the colored lights were flashing, bodies were already packed in the open area of the club. Jacob could smell the overwhelming scents of booze, perfume and lust. He did it, the entire La Push pack was there. A coven of vamps were in the back with Bella in their midst. The parent figures didn't show. They thought it was more of a youthful event. Strange, because Jake knew they all were ancient, rotting corpses, but whatever. It was better, there were only five instead of seven. Bella was nestled against Edward, her eyes met his and she smiled.

He couldn't go for it immediately. What he had planned took some finesse. The guys quickly raided the food trays. They had their own private bartender. They all knew the liquor did little to them, but if they drank fast enough and frequent enough, it was slightly intoxicating.

Bella waved him over to her table.

"See, I told you this would be fun." They looked around and the guys all seemed to be enjoying themselves. It was a room divided, for sure. The bloodsuckers on the left, the wolves to the right. Leah showed up last and Jacob was pleasantly surprised just how hot her friend was. Hmm, he thought of a way to possibly make Bella more likely to notice him, remind her what he truly meant to her.

Leah brought over "red punch" and gave it to Bella which surprised all of them.

Edward pushed it out of her reach. "No, love..it's alcoholic. You don't drink."

"Seriously, Count Frigid, do you spoon feed her as well? You're not her Poppa. Just because you can't partake doesn't mean she shouldn't. It's a party!"

Bella looked timid and unsure, but she shrugged. "I've always wanted to try some and it looks mostly like juice, right?"

"Yeah…" Leah lied. "It's almost all juice."

Bella sipped and giggled. She said she liked it very much. Jacob and Leah headed towards the dance floor and he complimented her on helping him out. He told her what he'd been thinking, so she introduced him to Joanna.

It didn't take long for the guys to start gawking at his little display. Jo wasn't shy about getting down and dirty in between him and Leah on the dance floor. She was hot and so was Leah, but Leah was too much like a sister. He mainly paid attention to Joanna. He wished he'd set a timer, because it couldn't have been more than five minutes. Bella made an appearance in between the voyeurs, curious what had them so mesmerized. She barely had much punch left in her glass. He tried to seem like he was ignoring her, but that was definitely not the case. She was pissed. Her eyes pinched closed, her lips puckered and if Bells squeezed that glass any harder, it was going to shatter.

Of course, the guys were making comments.

"So hot."

"I'm next."

"Who the fuck thought Black had it in him?" That was Paul...stupid fuck.

Finally she spoke, "Gross...two girls."

Quil chimed in, "I know, isn't it great? Jake's my hero."

"No, Quil, he's making a fool of himself. I'm embarrassed for him."

Edward even stopped by to watch the show. "Oh my, why don't we leave? I told Alice these animals wouldn't know how to behave in public."

He tried to pull Bella's arm, but she jerked back. Paul walked up with a tray of shots for the guys. She reached out and grabbed one, downing it in one quick motion.

"Bella, my goodness that was uncalled for. What's gotten into you?"

"Like Leah said, it's a party, so chill out. I'm going to dance." He pulled her back and Jacob didn't like how he manhandled her.

They argued and he heard every word. Edward said she barely liked dancing, but she said a promise was a promise and the only reason the party happened was because she owed Jacob a dance.

"It seems he's already forgotten all about that, which is good." By that time, the pack knew their jobs. They stepped in closer, Edward moved aside, even Blondie spoke up.

"Leave her alone. You said you wanted her to be sure, have all the human experiences and this is her last opportunity, back off."

"I know. I want her to be sure, but I don't know that I meant every human experience."

Bella was on her way, so he really started to make it look good with his dance partners. That girl was rubbing her backside all over him and he ran his hands through her hair and down her arms.

"Excuse me," Bella tapped Joanna. "I'm leaving soon and Jacob wanted to dance." She didn't know Jo was already totally on board with the jealousy plan. She told Leah she had her sights on the bad boy with the smolder. Leah said she was beating the shit out of Paul if he mentioned a threesome, but Jo could slum it if she wanted. Joanna thought it was romantic Jacob was trying to win the girl of his dreams, so she gave it her all.

"Not sure what you're talking about, sweetie, but Jakey promised me all his dances."

He knew Bella would not like the nickname one bit. The alcohol made her feisty. Bella shoved the other girl just enough to prove she meant business. "I don't know who you are, but I know what you are. Jacob and I most certainly do have a dance planned."

He stepped away from Leah and her friend, so there wouldn't be too much of a scene. People were already staring. Quil and Embry were laughing like a couple of girls off to the side.

He tried to put his hands on her waist, but she slapped them away.

"Come on, Bells. I thought we were dancing." She insisted she changed her mind. He didn't let up until he got a grip on her.

"How could you?"

"What? We were just dancing."

"Not hardly, I swear it looked more like..."

"Like what, honey?"

She lowered her voice and spoke through gritted teeth, "Like you were doing it with your clothes on."

He laughed at her assessment. "I'm sorry, but you seem preoccupied when I got here. I was trying to enjoy myself. You begged me to come, remember?"

His requests from the DJ were just getting started, so he needed to get her closer instead of arguing.

Bella looked around him. "Wow, so much for your companion, she's already moved on with Paul."

He jerked her into his body. "I don't give a fuck. I only came here tonight for one person and only one." Jacob started trying to loosen her up and get her moving with him. She said, she didn't know what to do. "Just follow my lead and relax... have fun." She was nervous, at first he felt like he was dancing with a board, but eventually she started to feel the beat. She gradually pulled him away from the archway, so they wouldn't be visible to Edward. His boys had that covered. Even Blondie was standing watch.

Jacob and Bella were only paying attention to each other. The song shifted to something slower. She never brought up that it was only supposed to be one dance. He moved closer and caressed her lower back. Her fingers moved around to the nape of his neck.

"Bells," he whispered at her ear. "Take a ride with me."

"What? No, I can't."

"Why not? I wanna get out of here, so we can finally sort this out."

She tried to pull back. "No, we've already done that. Stop Jake. I don't want to keep hurting you."

He turned her around and pulled her all the way in. "Tell me how, what's going on between us right now makes it settled because you know, it's not. You were so jealous earlier, you could spit and I know you feel what you're doing to me." He jerked his hips forward, a gasp sounded from her lips. "It's like that night when you were pressed against me, pretending to sleep, but me and the bloodsucker could smell you. Why do you think that night was so difficult for him? Because he knew you were so turned on with my hard dick pressed against your ass. Nothing's changed, I still get to you, so I'm only going to ask once again. Leave with me." He took it a step further and guided them to the hall that led to bathrooms. Jacob backed her against the wall. He brushed his lips over the skin of her neck and she didn't even try to hide her moans. "Well...I'm waiting. What's your answer?"

Bella looked up at him beneath hooded eyes. She glanced at the side door and he nodded. They made a break for it. The alarm sounded, confusion filled the room, he heard Edward calling for her, but the pack swore they'd make sure the leech was delayed.

They climbed on his motorcycle and spun out of the parking lot. Bella was gripping his legs tightly with her thighs and holding onto his waist. He felt the vibrations from her pocket. She held it up, he saw it was him, of course. Jacob grabbed the phone and tossed it behind them where it smashed in a millions pieces. Instead of getting angry, he felt her laughter against his back. It wasn't too long, before high beams came up behind them. They were so close, so he pushed the bike to top speeds. He knew the guys would stall him at the treaty line.

"Why Sam's?" she asked when they parked.

"Because Sam and Emily are staying at a motel tonight for a getaway. Our dads are playing cards at the house with a few friends. I knew we'd get some privacy here."

Bella smirked at him once they got inside and switched on a light. "I'm getting the sinking suspicion you planned all of this, Black."

He wasn't going to lie to her, "Maybe, but did you honestly think that night I was high on morphine was really the best time to admit our deepest, most confusing feelings to one another?"

"Well, I drank earlier, I'm not sure I was in my right mind at the club." He stalked towards her and she fell back on the couch.

Jacob had a seat beside her. "You're not drunk, Bells...maybe you had a tiny buzz earlier, but I can tell. You willingly rode off with me. Why can't you admit that?" He took her hand and told her why he thought that was. "This isn't over, not by a long shot."

~Thanks for reading.

FYI, I'm still working on everything else. I just haven't posted lately. This was a sidetrack, a good one, kinda like Wandering Home was for me. I probably post a couple of updates a week until it's officially complete.