the life of a loner,
the life of a youkai
* this is written in poem form but is more like a short story
the light, get me out of here
the dark, my life is dark, why am i safe?
the time went by so quickly, too quickly
close off from the world, don't let them get close
hiding behind the shadow of death
they never knew me as the feared one
just hiei, the black dragon, the runt
the one with all the aces and none of the humor
how am i the one who gets angry while everyone stays near
i cant trust them, i wont trust them
why should i put my faith in them
the incompetent fool
the joker with the devils luck
the most feared demon with the beauty
and me...the runt, the lower class
the loner
and here i sit, traveling the world with beings
who test my very being everyday
and yet, i allow it, i hold back
i somehow fail to slay them and go off on my own
maybe its for kurama, maybe for yukina
maybe for yusuke, who i lost too even as a full demon
and maybe because , though i hate to say it
maybe because im safe with them, can trust them, and hell
maybe i respect them...just a little
and yet i refuse to open up to the world
ill not allow my pride to be wounded, to be slain
i wont allow my heart to be shattered, as if it were glass
im not fragile, i am fierce, i am strong
i am jaganshi hiei
the black dragon
and yet, when im alone, there's no one to see my tears
my pain
my fear
me
my pain is hidden by the mask i've worn since birth
the mask of a being who has something to hide
and yet, though i am strong
i can't destroy these emotions
destroy those around me
and kill the pain as ive slain humans
why do i feel so hidden
so destroyed inside
and yet, i pass it off as
mere annoyance
mother.....
i failed as a warrior
i must search hard
and regain what ive lost
ill redeem myself in the end
i swear it....
on this, my youkai heart
the life of a youkai
* this is written in poem form but is more like a short story
the light, get me out of here
the dark, my life is dark, why am i safe?
the time went by so quickly, too quickly
close off from the world, don't let them get close
hiding behind the shadow of death
they never knew me as the feared one
just hiei, the black dragon, the runt
the one with all the aces and none of the humor
how am i the one who gets angry while everyone stays near
i cant trust them, i wont trust them
why should i put my faith in them
the incompetent fool
the joker with the devils luck
the most feared demon with the beauty
and me...the runt, the lower class
the loner
and here i sit, traveling the world with beings
who test my very being everyday
and yet, i allow it, i hold back
i somehow fail to slay them and go off on my own
maybe its for kurama, maybe for yukina
maybe for yusuke, who i lost too even as a full demon
and maybe because , though i hate to say it
maybe because im safe with them, can trust them, and hell
maybe i respect them...just a little
and yet i refuse to open up to the world
ill not allow my pride to be wounded, to be slain
i wont allow my heart to be shattered, as if it were glass
im not fragile, i am fierce, i am strong
i am jaganshi hiei
the black dragon
and yet, when im alone, there's no one to see my tears
my pain
my fear
me
my pain is hidden by the mask i've worn since birth
the mask of a being who has something to hide
and yet, though i am strong
i can't destroy these emotions
destroy those around me
and kill the pain as ive slain humans
why do i feel so hidden
so destroyed inside
and yet, i pass it off as
mere annoyance
mother.....
i failed as a warrior
i must search hard
and regain what ive lost
ill redeem myself in the end
i swear it....
on this, my youkai heart