From the very beginning it had all been to get to him. It was subconscious. I created my own mental reason for doing it because I didnt understand. I told myself I wanted to rid the world of evil, but I really just wanted to meet him. To meet the only man who was my equal.
I had always wanted someone like myself around. I was, unfortunately, one of a kind. Like every human being I longed for a companion, though I was unaware of this want.
When I had first heard about him I was immediately interested.
Today, the day I realized what had been in my subconscious when I first wrote a name in that note. As I watched the quirky detective dry my foot I wished I had never touched the Death Note in the first place. Because of me this beautiful man would die. Because I didnt know what I wanted when I first became Kira.
L was a threat to Misa. Rem would kill L. There was no way around it. Even if he did say something, Rem would just kill them both.
My heart constricted as I watched the raven man fall from his perch.
I reached out and caught him before his body hit the floor.
I stared down into his obsidian eyes, cursing my own selfish-ness. The man was dying. The greatest man the world had ever known was having a heart attack, his name written forever in the Death Note.
With the last of his strength he pulled himself up and rested his soft lips upon the flesh of my cheek, before falling back and allowing his eyes to slide shut for the last time.
I gave a sad smile down at the lifeless body in my arms.
He had known, and he had forgiven me.
A/N:Just showing a different, softer look from Raito's perspective. Though we know its not true cause Yagami has that damn god complex but oh well.
Be ready for my next two stories. Marco Polo and a special lemon for Lawliet's birthday.
Ja ne!
-Setsuna