Authors Notes:

While watching the saddest moment of NCIS, this story came to my head - it starts when Tony finds Ziva in Israel. - It quite fluffish at the start.

Hope you enjoy

He had found her,

He traveled for months trying to think like her, trying to trace her even though she didn't want to be found. He's heart ached as he stood in front of her as she opened the door, torn between his love and his anger toward her.

She saw him standing there, her heart beat fast, she thought he was gone, she had tried to leave that life, to leave him and still he had found her. She has no words for him, she just stared at him. He gently pushed past her but still she didn't move

As he turned toward her she felt tears in her eyes

"Ziva" he said

"Tony" she whispered "why did you come?"

Standing in the orchard with Ziva in his arms. To Tony this was home, he had missed her, her smell,her heartbeat her face. He gently took her face in his hand and tilted her head so she was staring into his eyes.

"Ziva" Tony whispered "I love you"

A tear fell from Ziva's face as her heart pumped against her rib cage.

"I love you too Tony, so much more then I have ever told you"

Tony gently kisses Ziva, he could feel her tears on his lips

"Why Ziva, why did you leave me?" Tony asked quietly

Ziva pulled away and gently touched Tony's face

"It wasn't you I left Tony, it was that life, what it represents, what you represent"

She kissed his lips quickly and lent her head against his

"Tony" she whispered "I don't know that I can do this without you, but I need to try, somewhere I lost myself, who I wanted to be, more then anything I know I want to be with you, but I need time"

A hot tear fell from Tony's cheek

"But I can't live without you Ziva, I need you, you make me whole"

"Tony, you won't be with out me, I will always be here, but I need to find myself before I can commit to anything or anyone else, I need to find what I want in life and I need to be alone"

Tony nodded

"I know Ziva but I think this is breaking my heart"

Ziva lent in and kissed Tony slowly

They stood like that for a moment, when the broke apart Ziva spoke

"Tony, please know I love you and I always will, when the time is right we will be together I promise you that, please be strong for both of us"

Tony nodded as he pulled her in tight