I shouldn't feel this way. Guardians shouldn't feel this way about their masters. They should feel respect and admiration and devotion, but not this way.
Clow knows, he's just a boy now, but he knows. He's my creator and I can tell in his eyes that he knows. But Clow doesn't need me anymore. He's created new guardians, companions. A new sun and moon. He doesn't need me, but she does.
She needs me, but not in the way I want her too. No, she needs me to be the moon guardian and to help her with the cards, nothing more. She needs me like she needs Cerberus. As a guardian and protector, as a..........friend. No more.
I envy Cerberus. I envy his closeness and friendliness with her. I envy that he is Kero-chan while I am Yue-san.
But it isn't Cerberus that I envy the most. It is Li Syaoran. I envy him because she needs him.
She doesn't know. No one knows but for Clow. Not even Yukito, my other half knows. But why should he? He loves Touya. Perhaps we are not so dissimilar. I learn from Yukito though, I learn what this feeling is. But I don't learn why I'm feeling it.
I could talk to Clow. He knows, even though he's just a boy now. He created me. I could ask him....
