Hello Once Fans, thanks for reading. This is my first one shot series and I would love any tips/suggestions or ideas and scenes you'd like me to write. I hope you guys enjoy :)
Regina tossed in bed. Since Zelena had returned Regina had felt this weight, weighing down on her, suffocating her. Forcing Regina's mind to wander the down the narrow corridor's of "What if's" and "If Only's" into the wee hours of the morning. If only Regina had known sooner, if only she hadn't let Robin go. The unsettling predicament they were in currently wouldn't exist.
Regina flipped over to the other side of the bed once more, this time facing the window. The moon cast a silver shadow over the floor in her bedroom, cut off on both sides by the long white Satin curtains. Regina always liked the moon. Its constant presence had never failed to comfort her. For years Henry was a constant presence in her life, not anymore now that Emma Swan had returned to claim him. "Stop." Regina said to herself. She had traveled down that road before and she shan't be doing it again now. After everything, she was happy that Emma was back in Henry's life and had proved to be good company to Regina, usually in the ploy of drinking away Regina's problems.
Speaking of Henry, it was his birthday coming up soon. Regina smiled and nibbled on her lower lip. She had to plan something extra special. For so long his birthdays were full of lies and deceit but now that Henry knew everything this promised to be an extra special celebration. Regina's head grew light as she started thinking about what to do. A surprise party would be the most exciting, she'd call Emma tomorrow to let her in on it. Granny's could host it and all of Henry's friends and family could come. Emma, Killian, Charming's, Mr. Gold and Belle, Roland. Regina paused as the name weighed heavy on her mind. If Roland was going to come that would mean that Robin would be there. Robin.
Regina's whole body stiffened at the reminder. She hadn't decided what to do yet. Now that Robin was back in town, she'd kept a safe distance. Afraid that if she said or did the wrong thing the fragile bridge they had been rebuilding together might collapse. Part of Regina wanted to be furious with Robin. Her animosity was well known throughout the Kingdom, and now Storybrooke. She wanted to scream at him. For heaven's sake there's this thing called a condom that you can use if you are going to put yourself deep inside your fake wife. But that, that was the smaller part. The bigger part of Regina blamed herself…She knew it was her fault. She had lost Daniel to her mother and she had lost Robin to her sister.
She thought she had it all figured out, with Robin. She remembered their last night together before everything was smashed to smithereens. They had taken Roland out for Ice Cream and went to meet up with everyone at Granny's. That's where she was waiting. Zelena, pretending to be all high and mighty as Marian. Robin's face when he saw Marian was seared into Regina's brain, the relief and love in his eyes. It was as if, well as if the love of his life whom he thought was gone forever had suddenly returned to be a big happy family. If only that was what had happened. Regina could almost bear it if it was truly Marian who had returned who only wanted a second chance to be with her her family, to love Robin. Robin was a man of honor, Regina had respected that. He had made vows, it hadn't hurt any less but she could understand why he felt as though he had to return to her. But this, this was unbearable. Not only was it not Marian who had returned it was her psychotic older sister, who, much to Regina's dismay, was now carrying her true love's child.
There's only so much a heart can take, and Regina's had been ripped out, battered and beaten beyond repair. But that was precisely the trouble. Regina's heart had healed. From years of pain and misery, because of Robin her heart had started to mend. And Regina had realized how much people needed love in their lives. It had taken years for Regina to discover that love wasn't weakness, love was strength. Amidst the swirling emotions Regina's one unanswered question nagged at her. No doubt it had been the source of her inability to sleep since Robin and Zelena had returned. Although, Regina hated to admit it, she hadn't been sleeping well ever since Robin left. She had grown used to sharing a bed with him and Robin made Regina felt safe. And he always did this precious thing at night when he was half asleep he'd roll over and tenderly grab Regina around the waist, pulling her close. Regina fell asleep to the sound of Robin's heartbeat as her head lay on his muscled chest. Soothed by the sound of his gentle breaths as his arms wound tightly around Regina's body, holding her close.
"Oh." Regina sat up abruptly as the dream began to fade from her memory. She needed Robin. She knew that, perhaps better than anyone, though she was reluctant to admit it. But she also knew she wouldn't be able to let him back in until this question was answered. Her mind needed to be put to ease. Regina turned on her bed light and crawled out of bed. Regina pulled on a grey cardigan over her navy blue v-neck and black legging pajama bottoms, that showed off her assets... very well. Regina grimaced in horror at the mirror at the sight of herself about to leave the house without any makeup. Not that Regina needed any of it, she was breathtakingly beautiful without makeup. But nonetheless Regina put on a sheer coat of foundation and thin lining of mascara over her eyelashes and ran out of the house before she lost her cool.
As Regina rounded the corner she paused outside of her sister's door. Her cell door more specifically. Last minute thoughts of bailing sounded pretty good when Regina heard someone.
"Hello dear sister." Regina grimaced as she looked through the window on the door and saw Zelena sitting expectantly on the cot. Regina rolled her eyes and unlocked the door. Zelena sat cross legged on the cot stroking her stomach while smiling at Regina. Regina's lips tightened into a thin line as she shut the door behind her. Zelena feigned confusion, "Well given that it's" she checked her watch, "Just after 2 in the morning, I'd say you have something important to talk to me about."
Regina plastered on a fake smile, "Perceptive, aren't you." Regina glanced at the floor.
"Oh what is it?" Zelena pressed, "I haven't got all night. Growing a new life requires lots of sleep." She added.
Regina gave her a scathing look. She didn't understand why she was so nervous. But she knew she needed to spit out the words. "Why do you want this child? Other than to destroy my life?"
Zelena rolled her eyes, "Always the martyr Regina." But, Regina could tell that this question was not one that Zelena was expecting to be asked. "Tell me Regina. What is it like to know that I have the one thing that you'll never have?" She sneered.
Regina narrowed her eyes, "I already have a child."
Zelena chuckled, "Do you now?" She nodded, "But he's not really yours now is he. He has another mommy."
"There's so much more than blood that makes someone a mother." Regina clenched her teeth. Henry loved her and she was his mother.
"Is there?" Zelena leaned forward, "But tell me, what is it like to know that Robin and I will be forever linked by this." Zelena stroked her stomach once more.
Regina swallowed hard stepped forward. "You may be carrying Robin's child, but after it's born what do you think is going to stop me from ripping you're heart?"
"Because if you do then Robin will always know that you were the one who killed the mother of his child. Something that you will never be." Zelena finished.
Regina stalked closer, "You know, Zelena, you never answered my question. Why do you want this child?"
"Other than the fact that by having this child I will ruin your happy ending?" Zelena replied, "No I don't think there's any other reason"
Regina bent down, just inches from Zelena's face, "You know what I think." Regina said in a hushed tone.
"Oh do tell." Zelena answered disinterestedly.
"I think, you want somebody to want you, Zelena. I think you're lonely and this is your way of making your life worth living."
Zelena gulped, "A child loves its mother unconditionally."
Regina laughed and leaned in to Zelena's ear, "Tell me, do you love your mother unconditionally?"
Zelena's face hardened as Regina stood back up, satisfied with the conversation. As Regina left the room she paused at the door, "Good night sister. I'll see you-" Regina paused and smiled, "I guess I'll see you at the next ultrasound." As the metal door automatically locked behind Regina she couldn't help but swell with satisfaction. She had discovered Zelena's weakness. And you better believe Regina would be using that weakness to her advantage.
As Regina walked out to her car she grimaced. There was still something she had to do.
Regina walked up the steps to Granny's, her heart rate increasing with every step she took, and not because of the uphill walk, rather because of what she was about to do.
She took a deep breath and knocked on the door. As she was knocking she realized how ridiculous she was being. Showing up at Robin's room right now. She looked affright and hadn't slept in days. She quickly turned to leave and had made it down the hallway when she heard the door open. "Regina?" Robin's rugged, accented voice, filled the air.
Regina paused and turned around, Robin was only maybe 10 feet away. Regina gulped as she took in Robin's appearance. He was merely wearing a grey pair of sweats, his broad chest and shoulder muscles exposed and accentuated. "Regina?" He asked again confused. Regina was at the end of the corridor trying to leave after knocking on his door. Her hair was in a low ponytail and she turned back looking extremely guilty, "What are you doing here? It's 3 in the morning."
Regina nodded and walked closer to him shaking her head, "I- I know. I'm sorry. I didn't- I don't know what I was thinking." Regina grimaced apologetically and turned to leave.
Robin reached out and grabbed her forearm, "Wait." Regina's skin sizzled underneath the electricity of Robin's touch. She turned back and was met with Robin's eyes, just inches from her face. "Don't leave yet. Why did you come?" He asked; pleaded.
"I- I just," Regina shook her head and looked down at Robin's hand still grasping her arm lightly, "I need to know if we have a future together Robin. Because I- I love you." Regina admitted as her eyes welled with tears. "And I know things are messy right now," Regina choked out, "but I need you."
Robin's hand slid down to her hand and he gently held onto it. Regina looked down at her hand bound in his. Robin used his free hand and placed it under Regina's chin and tilted it up so she could meet his eyes. "I've been waiting for you Regina." He smiled as his heart swelled at Regina's admittance of her undying love for him, "I won't give up Regina. Even if it gets rough. You're worth it."
"I am?" Regina whispered.
His answer was evident. Robin's hand that was under Regina's chin trailed down to her waist as he took a step towards her. Robin stared into Regina's breathtaking brown eyes. The color near identical to a sparkling amber gemstone when the sun hits it at just the right angle. Robin tilted his head down and met Regina's lips with his.
Regina was slow at first, cautionary, barely grazing his lips. Then as the passion started to ignite between them, she took his bottom lip wholly into hers, as her tongue explored the inside of his lower lip and grazed his teeth. Regina's hands grasped Robin's neck and jaw as she pressed her body to his.
Robin pulled back suddenly and Regina stared up at him taken aback. Robin smiled and held a finger to his lips, signaling Regina should be quiet. Once more he grabbed Regina's hand but this time pulled her into the hotel room. He carefully shut the door and led Regina through the living room and past a sleeping Roland who was sprawled out onto the couch, and into the bedroom. Robin let go of Regina's hand and shut the door while Regina took a seat at the end of the bed, facing the door.
Robin shuffled back towards the bed and took a seat next to Regina. "I'm glad you're here." He finally said as his hand caressed Regina's cheek. "I don't want to waste another second not being with you." Robin took one of Regina's hands and placed it tenderly over his heart, onto his bare chest, "Regina, you hold my heart, now and forever. I love you."
Robin's admittance was the only assurance Regina needed. Regina shed her cardigan and rolled over onto Robin's lap straddling him. She leaned into his ear, "Tell me more nice things." She whispered. Robin chuckled as his hands slid up beneath Regina's t-shirt and his hands grasped her lower back.
"You're my queen." He replied back. Regina leaned back to look at him and met Robin's smile with one of her own. "There's that beautiful smile." Robin said. "I thought it was broken, I havn't seen it in so long." Robin leaned into Regina and their foreheads rested on each other.
Regina bit her lower lip, a habit that drove Robin wild, "Don't you know? You were the one who fixed it."
Robin smiled gingerly and leaned into Regina, delicately planting a kiss just below her ear, then slowly planting a row of kisses down Regina's jawline before finally landing on her lips. As he inhaled Regina's familiar scent, for the first time since leaving Storybrooke, he finally felt at home.
Robin abruptly stood up and Regina wrapped her legs around Robin's waist, while she planted a kiss on his bare shoulder. Robin carefully walked to the side of the bed and placed Regina gently in the center of the bed. As Robin laid on top of Regina he nuzzled her neck, and heard Regina exhale deeply. Regina rolled out from under Robin and shed her navy blue v-neck and leggings where they landed in a heap on the floor. Robin kissed Regina's lips once more before moving to her neck, her breasts, her belly. Regina grasped his hips and pulled him closer.
As Regina pulled Robin back up and took her mouth in his, his hands became entangled in her hair. Regina's back arched as she pushed into Robin's mouth. As the passion ignited above, Regina's hands wandered down and urged off the sweat pants that clothed Robin. Robin pulled back and stared intently at Regina, "Are you sure?" He asked.
Regina nodded, "Yes. I want you to have all of me." Robin knelt down and once more took Regina's mouth in his as the rest of the clothing was shed and they lost themselves in their passion for each other, their heart beats pounding and their blood burning…
Afterwards, Regina laid in Robin's bed as he curved his body to spoon Regina, while she faced away from him. Robin moved his hand and wrapped his arm around Regina's waist, hugging her close. Regina rolled over into his chest and rested her head on his chest, listening to the quiet hum of his heartbeat. Robin squeezed Regina tightly for a few seconds, letting her know that he was still awake. "Don't let me go." Regina whispered.
"Never again." Robin agreed as he tenderly planted a final kiss on Regina's forehead.