Meredith sat on the swing on her front porch, staring off into space. Unshed tears glistining in her eyes, threatening to fall at any moment. She could not help but replay the argument she and the love of her life had just had.
"Meredith, honey, this is a good offer. I have not made up my mind yet, but I wanted you to know about it." Addison had told her as they walked out of the O.R.
"Addy, how can you even think about taking it? California is so far from here, and what about us? I can not move from the place that i have always known, and I dont want to lose you, or what we have last year has been the best year of my life, and now you want to take that away? Call me when you have made up your mind." She replied as she started to run.
She collected her things, and found herself at home, sitting where she currently sat, not moving for hours.
Thinking back on what she had said, she regretted it all. Addison had always been there for her, but when Addison needed her, she ran. The tears finally began to fall.
She got up and started running, not knowing where she would end up, and not really caring, all she could think about was that she had done Addison wrong, and she would do her best to make up for it.
*45 minutes later*
She found herself at Addisons apartment, soaking wet, wondering how she was going to fix what she had done. She did not know how, but she knew she would try her best.
When she knocked on the door, and her girlfriend answered, hair a mess, and eyes puffy from all the trears that had been shed, she felt her heartbreak just a little more inside.
Addy let her in and shut the door behind her.
"Addison, i am so sorry for what i have done to you. I love you. So much that it hurts sometimes. No, not sumetimes, all the time. I should have been there for you, when you needed me. I am here for you now, whether you want me to be ot not. "
Addison smiles through the fresh, happy tears that had started to fall. She engolfed the blond in a tight, bone crushing embrace.
"I could not emagine my life without you in it, from the first day i seen you. I love you Meredith Grey." She whispered in her ear.
"If you want to take that job, Addy, take it. Don't let me stand in your way, for I will follow you whereever you go. You are the love of my life, and my whole world and nothing will ever change that." She stuttered through the tears.
Addison smiled and looked into her eyes.
"I have made up my mind, Mer. I have decided that..."