Hey Dad! Look at me!
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to your plan?
The engine on Shawn's bike drowned out his raging thoughts.
Another day, another fight.
Why did he bother?
It was always the same.
Henry and Shawn: polar opposites.
Oil and Water.
Ying and Yang.
Movie Theatre Butter Popcorn and Pineapple flavored jellybeans.
It was never going to change.
They would never see eye-to-eye.
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing
things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
They thundered in Shawn's ears.
All the words they had spoken to each other in anger.
All the things they said that they didn't really mean.
All the things they said that they did mean.
All the things they said that now they could never take back.
And now I try hard to
make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
"Grow up, Shawn."
"It's…adequate."
"When I was on the force, the two things I hated most in this world were psychics and private investigators."
"You can do better than that."
"Think about it, Shawn! Use your brain!"
"Is that the best you can do?"
And that one was just Henry's commentary on Shawn's homemade Father's Day present.
When he was five.
And you can't change
me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
The world was flying by now as Shawn accelerated even more.
It was nothing but a blur.
Just the way he liked it; dangerous, fast, and everything slightly out of focus.
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
Did he really used to wear his dad's police hat and badge around the house, playing cops and robbers with Gus?
Did he really used to dream about being a cop?
Did he really ever imagine he could ever make his dad proud?
Did he ever really imagine he could be good enough for Henry Spencer?
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
"If you want to arrest the bad guys, Shawn, do it with a badge."
"Congratulations, Kid. You just hit the disappointment exacta."
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Shawn could still hear the echo of the screen door slamming behind him.
Like it had slammed a thousand times before.
Like it would slam a thousand more times to come.
As long as he lived, that door would always be slamming behind him.
Henry would always be staring out it at him, his arms crossed, scowling.
It would never change.
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
His cell phone was vibrating.
He ignored it.
Why start another fight now?
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
He came to a screeching stop.
Somehow, he never knew how, he had ended back up at the house.
He pulled into the driveway.
Why did he always end up back here?
No matter how far he ran, he always ended up back here.
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Henry was still standing in the doorway, his arms still crossed.
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Shawn left his helmet on the seat and strolled back up to the door.